Ciel Phantomhive sat at his desk looking at the documents scattered over the desk and sighed ever so quietly as he leaned back in his chair his thumb rubbing his ring instinctively and unaware he was doing it until he looked down then stopped looking deep into the deep blue diamond staring at his eye patch and grimaced sighed louder this time when he nearly jumped out of his skin at a loud crashing sound outside, he glared walking up to the window throwing the curtains open his face shaped into a deep scowl as he looked down at his gardener Finny, apologizing to Sebastian over something he had done wrong and immediately Ciel's glare and scowl were gone as he looked down at his butler his heart stuttering once, twice and Sebastian suddenly looked up making his heart pick up a new speed and intensity he didn't understand and he quickly shut the curtain the blush creeping up from his neck making his cheeks turn into a deep red like a freshly bloomed rose and he took in shaky breaths as his heart thumped and raced in his chest. He stood there like that for about 15 minutes before taking a deep breath his chest expanding with it and he looked at the papers knowing he was never going to focus but he sat in his chair anyways when there was 3 soft knocks on the door and his heart sputtered as he knew exactly who was on the other side of that door and his blushed only burned brighter all over again like a flame was burning under his skin.
"Young master?" Sebastian's low soothing voice came to him through the door.
"Yes?"
"May I come in?"
Ciel hesitated standing up pressing his palms against the desk as his cheeks flamed with color and his body...well his body felt like it had just been submerged into a flaming hot hell and his heart was screaming and aching for Sebastian to stroke his cheek or him to take Ciel into his loving embrace. He took a couple deep breathes not trusting his voice so he just simply nodded and almost like he could see Sebastian opened the door and Ciel fought the urge to sigh in contentment looking at his butler. Sebastian's hair was obsidian black, framing his face perfectly and his deep red eyes looked beautiful in the fading sunlight like they were sparkling rubies, his lips were absolutely perfect, his slightly high arched eye brows and his perfect face made him want to really sigh just looking at him as his face flushed again when Sebastian caught him staring. Sebastian grinned wickedly looking at Ciel's blushing face stepping into the room closing the door behind him and walks towards the desk when to his surprise Ciel dashed behind the desk his face turning an even darker shade of red as he looked down, his beautiful gem like blue eye looking down at the desk.
"Are you alright, young master. If not then I can-"
"No Sebastian there's nothing wrong with me." I only get a strong feeling when your around though, Ciel thought to himself as he looked down.
"Then what is it that seems to ale you young master." Sebastian says his low sweet and soothing voice wrapping around Ciel almost making him shiver when he realized the sun was almost already gone and his stomach was snarling loud enough that Sebastian smiled. "I'll go and start making supper." He turned to walk away when suddenly the butler stopped feeling a hand on his holding it tightly and slowly Sebastian turned his head to look at Ciel who was looking up at him,his face a bright beautiful red color,his heart thumping away like he was nervous or scared. "Young master? Ciel?" He says somewhat hesitant when he felt a stirring in his chest like something was making a nice little home there as he stared into Ciel's blue eye admiring the color of it noticing he never truly took in the color of it or the depth as he stared at him. Nor did he realize how heartbreaking cute Ciel looked when he was blushing and it was then he knew he needed to pull away, put as much distance between him and his master but he couldn't move his body at all, it was like he was under a compulsion or order from his master. Ciel's face seemed to turn an even deeper shade of red if that were possible and he moved around the desk so he was standing in front of Sebastian looking up into his face.
"Sebastian..." Ciel murmurs softly his head tilting back a little more of its on accord to look into Sebastian's eyes further and he was hoping Sebastian couldn't hear his heart beating and skipping away like there was no tomorrow as Sebastian looked right back into Ciel's blue eye as he hesitantly raised a gloved hand up cupping Ciel's burning cheek and it was like lightening was zinging up his arm straight to his chest and he knew by the look on Ciel's face he was not expecting this feeling either and then he did something else Sebastian did not expect. Ciel began to move up leaning in closer to him almost like his body was swooning and moving in closer to Sebastian's and instinctively he wrapped his arm around Ciel's waist to hold him up right and then a faint blush tinged Sebastian's cheeks as he stood there holding Ciel in his arms close to his body. Although there was plenty of times where Sebastian had walked close enough to feel his body heat and a few times when he had picked Ciel up but this...this felt much more intimate than he would've thought and then the eye patch fell from Ciel's face and he stared deeply into both his eyes, looking at his mark etched into Ciel's making his eye look like it had a light little tinge of violet mixed in with the beautiful blue of his eyes. Sebastian was unaware at first of how close they were and how they were just staring into each other eyes for what seemed like years rather then seconds when Ciel leaned up further and Sebastian suddenly stepped back his cheeks flushing a little bit more.
"I must go see to the preparation of dinner." Sebastian says his soothing voice once again washing over the earl as he sighed backing up towards the desk moving around it and turned his chair so he was facing the window and with a vague motion with his hand for the butler to go and for some strange reason Ciel just felt...hurt. Like Sebastian was trying to put more distance between them save for anything but the contract. "Young master..." Sebastian says again frowning a bit looking at the back of the chair his brow furrowing slightly as a soft frown overcame his handsome face. Ciel just sat there silent, his hurt feelings almost eating away at him until surprisingly he felt the burn of a couple tears pressing against the back of his eyes for the first time in 3 years and it was somewhat scary to him and he almost didn't hear the footsteps coming up behind him and he looked up out of his thoughts all but sensing Sebastian standing behind the chair and Ciel fought the urge to stop breathing and wish for him to go away as Sebastian walked around and crouched in front of him looking up into Ciel's face the frown more prominent now marring his beautiful face with the front as his cheeks flushed faintly. "Young master please tell me what is wrong." Sebastian said a faint begging tone was in his voice making Ciel's eyes widen a bit and blink with disbelief hearing the begging edge in the demon's voice. Then he sighed resting his cheek against his fist looking at the demon then closed his eyes so he wouldn't see the longing or the pain in the depths of his blue eyes.
"Its nothing Sebastian, go and prepare dinner, I will be down as soon as its been made." Ciel says his voice sounding like a dead thing that held no life and his posture showed one who was in some type of pain but he heard his stomach growl and opened one eye to look at Sebastian seeing he was grinning softly looking at the boy which caused Ciel's blush to come back to life with a new type of fierce burning.
"I shall have dinner done in no time so you won't be hungry long." Sebastian stood up walking to the study's door while Ciel sat there struggling to kill the urge to shout for Sebastian not to leave but he sat still, almost like stone as he kept his eyes shut before he could stop it a single tear dripped down as the hurt feelings of being pushed away from the one person he knew he had grown so deeply to care for, maybe this was love but Ciel had no idea if it was, all he knew was he wanted Sebastian whether he was a demon or not, he was the one he wanted to be with even if his time was limited on this Earth he wanted to spend it with him before the demon devoured his soul. So why was he suddenly crying? Ciel had no answers which made him feel like he was going in circles and he buried his face in his hands the tears dripping on at a time and he never felt more pathetic, he was a Phantomhive for god sake! Shouldn't he have so much more dignity than this?
"What am I going to do?" Ciel murmurs to himself watching the tears fall down as they come and he sat there like that trying just desperately to gather up his mask of coolness but it wouldn't come and he allowed himself this one brief moment where he would embrace this pain for now.