I look at my friends and grin.
They know nothing
I subtly graze my fingers over my wrists
Feeling my fresh scars underneath my robes
I grin for many reasons
One: they know nothing
Two: they think I'm happy
Three: they have no idea I'm dying
Four: they will soon know
Then I frown,
Sad.
I frown for many reasons.
One: they don't care enough to look
Two: they don't care enough to see
Three: they have no idea I'm dying
Four: they will soon know.
At night I write a letter.
"You never realised.
You never bothered to look
You never took any notice
I was just a Pawn to you
Well my Blade is the Queen
I'm in her way,
I sacrifice myself
Your life is obviously worth more than mine.
Now it's too late."
I place the note beside me.
I bring the Queen to my wrist
Grinning as I do.
I feel the blood flowing and I lie down and relax.
It will be over soon.
Good night!