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This popped out of nowhere, as it seems all of my other stories do…
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Victory
We're home now. It's over and done with, and…we don't really feel much like heroes in the end. We're all just sitting, quiet, thinking…contemplating. In retrospect, maybe we had missed our winning moment, because it hadn't been as glorious as we had predicted.
Too many didn't make it, and now…we all just wish we were someone else, because this isn't the victory we had envisioned—there's too much guilt. And we have no heartless or nobodies to blame this time…but we didn't exactly last time, did we? Because…maybe we never really wanted to, as hard as we tried...and maybe in the backs of our minds, we realized it wasn't them…maybe it was us.
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But soon enough, we're recovering, because we were no longer willing to suffer with a smile…and…maybe that was the first step after all. But sometimes, we get jumpy, and we start seeing black coats and red hair and empty eyes that aren't really there—that maybe never were there, because everyone else just calls us insane.
Maybe it's the things we never saw that we felt the guiltiest for. We didn't know if they were really the bad guys, did we? But…if they weren't, what would that have made us?
And sometimes, Kairi and I don't like having those memories of the things that we tore away from someone who is not us.
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We've forgotten now. We don't know what anyone's talking about with all these stories they claim we had told. Maybe it's because the nobodies finally blended into us. Maybe they finally died. Or maybe we're dying…
But our smiles are back, and for some reason they all seem more sullen than I remember them being, like there's something silent behind them.
And then we move on just as easily, because it had only been a fleeting observation. And I think that we're happy again…but it seems like we're missing something.
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And now, we have fallen apart. Maybe it's because clocks drive me crazy but I have no idea why, or because Kairi keeps finding sketchbooks lying around her house when she never draws in the first place, or because Riku always has to have all of the lights on because he's suddenly excruciatingly afraid of the dark.
Or maybe it's because of how we all start fighting about nothing now, and how it seems like we've been avoiding each other too much lately. Maybe it's because the sky seems to be falling down a lot nowadays, and we're never quite as comforting to each other anymore.
And in each one of us, it seems that there is a pain that has developed from that.
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Now, we're dead; we were probably worse off before. And we never quite made it back to the way things used to be, though none of us seem to recall what it was that tore us apart in the first place, and as I'm dying, I think that maybe it was something stupid, because we couldn't even manage to save each other.
We weren't heroes after all.
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