**This is a Fan Fiction based on the book, Rebel Angels, by Libba Bray and also the song 2 AM by Alexz Johnson. It starts from chapter Thirty-Six of Rebel Angels, after Kartik has kissed Gemma and then leaves. The link to the lyrics of the song : . **
Black on Black, Sin on Sin, White on White
I sit staring out of my window at the Kartik-less carriage house. Christmas has finally passed. The black sky is interrupted by white snowflakes. The snow is piling up, white on white. Yet still, the light emerging from the carriage house breaks past it all and stabs my heart with regret and sadness. I didn't mean to have insulted. It was all just a big mistake. One that I would never forget, I am sure.
It wasn't all completely my fault though. He kissed me into ruins. What was I to do but to react to rashly. I didn't think. I didn't see it as an insult… but now… now that I look back, I see my fault. This causes another pang of anguish. I turn from the window, to break my concentration on my sins. I make my way to my bed. I wish it were still warm, but I have been sitting here for hours, by the candle light and now I can barely keep from crying. What is so wrong with me?
I climb into the cool covers. I blow out the candle in my hand, downstairs I can hear the Clocks chiming. It is officially 2 AM and now I can break down and actually reflect until I am in the sweet hammock of slumber.