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Masquerade Life of Mine...

By: .kurobara16

Summary: mikan left Gakuen Alice when she was 11 years old, she left her friends behind and left with her mother to train and do missions outside the school. she refers to her life as a Masquerade ball. Why? Because when you dance with someone you'll just see his face after the dance. Same is through with her mistakes, she didn't realize she made a mistake until the time the huge mistake revealed it's face. she picked the wrong road to live, the wrong mask to wear in this Masquerade life of hers.

Chapter I

Goodbye

5 years ago:

"Mikan-chan. The Junior High school and High school principal wants to see you at the Hana Hime Shrine now…." Narumi, their gay teacher announced to a certain brunette.

"…. Uh… Okay.." was all that was heard from the girl.

That little announcement the gay teacher said made all of the students of class B fall into a quiet state of shock. Their bubbly and loud-mouthed classmate was called once again by those two principals. What were they up to? And they saw something strange about Mikan too: she came to their classroom early today. The usual "I'm late I'm late" screams was no where to be found because the cause of all the usual commotion was early for class. That's just it a little change but that little change was about to change their whole life.

Mikan

I was thinking about what the Junior High Principal and my uncle told me just yesterday… I walked to the Hana Hime Shrine in silence. Images and scence are flashing throughout my mind, giving me a huge head ache.

Flashback:

"Mikan-chan, your mother Yuka will pick you up early tomorrow morning. You will leave the academy with her. I'm so sorry but this will keep you away from the AAO."

"Mikan no kimi… please do not argue." The beautiful Junior High School principal pleaded as I opened my mouth to protest. I closed it again like the idiot I was.

"We are so sorry on forcing you on this, but this is the only way for us to protect you and your mother and also your friends…" the calmly voice explained.

I nodded, fighting back the lump in my throat that was preventing me the chance to breathe correctly.

"You have this day off, excused from all the classes so you can pack up all the things that you need, and also, here's 10,000 rabbits. Use them as you wish to buy the things you'll need in Central Town and maybe to buy your friends a little something." My uncle said dismissively.

I nodded again tried to smile at my uncle and the Junior High Principal but I just couldn't. I took the rabbits and headed to my one star bedroom, locked the door and started packing my stuff. When I finished all the packing, I decided to go to Central Town to buy tokens for my friends, something that they'll remember me on.

3 Hours later…

Finished at shopping… I brought Hotaru the expensive screw driver she was saving up on, Ruka a brown handkerchief with an orange rabbit embroidered on one corner, I brought You-chan a big brown teddy bear, I brought Permy a make-up kit, Anna an expensive stainless spatula, Nonoko a chemistry set, Iinchou a set of books, and little somethings for my other classmates and senpais. And guess what I got for Natsume. It's a clear crystal ball that glows when you touch it and it reflects what you're thinking about at that exact moment. I took the bus back to our dorm rooms and proceeded to my room, locking my door again. I took out a stack of orange stationery and wrote the most agonizing words I would never want to write again:

Dear everyone,

I'm so sorry for leaving you guys without saying what's going on, but this is unavoidable. I'm so really sorry, especially to Hotaru, you can shoot me when you'll see me again. I think you know who I am with right now so don't worry over me, my mom's not going to let anything harm me. Please stay safe and take care of yourselves.

Goodbye,

Mikan Sakura

The letter was stained with my tears, I hope they'll understand my scrawny hand writing… they'll soon raid my room anyway, so I didn't bother asking the mail carriers to send it to them tomorrow, besides I looked like a mess. I could not face every one of them like this tomorrow… Better get to sleep…

"Sleep… I can't even blink my eyes…." I muttered as I sat up on my bed. I was tired but my body would not let me rest. So I got up, got dressed and headed for that certain Sakura tree.

My head was filled with endless pain as I trudged to where the beautiful Sakura tree stood. I sat down on its shadow, its flowers and leaves obscuring the stars in the moonless night.

" I guess this will be the last time I'll see you…" I said to the still Sakura tree. Great, I'm speaking to inanimate objects now… I'm going crazy because of this. Then I heard the rustling of leaves above me then something jumped down.

I flinched as I saw those crimson eyes that were glaring down at me.

"What are you talking about, Polka?" He demanded, exerting the full force of his eyes on me.

"I'm talking about talking to this Sakura tree here." I said as I patted the said tree with mournful eyes.

"You're lying. Tell me the truth, or else I'll burn your hair, Strawberry fields." He tried again, eyes still questioning.

"What would you do if you were asked to leave this school for the sake of your friends and the people who are important to you?" I asked him, he stared at me wide-eyed, probably because my question kind of made sense.

"Of course, I'll leave." He answered in a monotone, but his eyes are still suspicious.

"…. So that's the answer then…" I muttered, lost in thought.

"Hn.. What the hell is going on with you?" he asked me, irritated… I stood up, dusted my clothes from all the dirt. I only had a step away when something grabbed my wrist and pleaded

"Don't leave me… Uh… I mean… You're leaving, aren't you?"

What did he just say??

"No." I answered him, trying to remember his face under the star's light. And I proceeded to my room with the feeling of loneliness engulfing me again.

End of Flashback

"Mother." I said as I walked over to where the adults were.

"Mikan." My mom sighed my name as she caught me in a bear hug.

"Uh…Mom…. Can't breathe…" I said. She chuckled.

"Are you ready?" Principal Yukihara asked me, eyes like an x-ray machine.

"Yeah… I think so…" I replied casually.

"Mikan!! Mikan-chan! Mikan-chan!" shouts were heard a little way behind us, I turned around and saw a herd of Elementary Class B students rampaging to get to me. Hotaru was in the lead, her Baka gun 2000 in one hand, her eyes full of tears.

"Mom…" I pleaded… I was getting claustrophobic now....

Then my mom held my arm tight and I suddenly felt myself being sucked into another place, leaving all the people I cared for behind. When I opened my eyes, I realized that Darkness just greeted me.

"Augh!" I panted as I woke up from that dream again. No, wrong term… Nightmare.

How come this nightmare still doesn't want to leave me alone? This was only five years ago, for heaven's sake! I'm not that old to forget my last moment in Gakuen Alice… Sheesh… How come the people I killed wouldn't even haunt me in my dreams? I mean killing is much worse than leaving, right? Wait, did I just imply that killing is a good habit of mine? Damn! That dream even makes things worse in the present! Ugh! I want to forget them! I do not want to remember those sad and hurt faces! Holy shit of the Hell-ish lands below… Why me? Why them? Why the heck did I even pick this mask to wear in this Masquerade life of mine?

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