Hey, guys! This is my first Narnia fic, so please try and be nice. This is a Susan-Caspian fic, just 'coz I like them together. I've read a lot of Suspian fics, and most of them all have Susan crying for Prince Caspian, and I don't think that she would. I think that sure, she'd be upset, but I don't think that she'd cry for him. She'd probably cry 'coz she left Narnia, because she'll miss the Narnians, because she won't see Caspian, etc. But I think that she wouldn't cry for him only. Yes, I'm blabbing, off to the fic!

Okay, off to the disclaimer, THEN the fic! I do not own Narnia, or any of its characters. I do not claim any of the characters from the book series, and I do not gain any profit from this whatsoever.

Here we go!

"Susan?" Lucy called, knocking on her sister's door.

"Come in," Susan said, looking up from her book. She put her book down and scooted a little on the bed to give her sister some space. Lucy closed the door behind her and sat down beside Susan.

"What is it, Lucy?" Susan asked, thinking that something happened to her sister.

"Susan, do you miss Narnia?" she asked. Susan raised and eyebrow, then smiled.

"Why, of course! Why do you ask, Lu?"

"Well, it's been weeks, and none of us have spoken about Narnia the whole time, I just wanted to know if you even still remember Narnia." she said, a small laugh escaping from her lips. Susan smiled again.

"Lucy, I'll never forget about Narnia, ever." she told her.

"Well then, what do you miss the most about it?"

Susan was surprised by the question, but hid it well. Her thought first drifted to Aslan, then to Trumpkin, then to Cair Paravel, then finally to dark-haired prince astride a horse. Her cheeks turned a light shade of pink as she thought about him.

"Susan? Helloooo?" Lucy asked, waving a hand in front of her sister's face. Susan snapped out of her trance and she looked at Lucy.

"Well, I guess that I miss Prince- err, King Caspian the most. I mean, he is the reason we got to back to Narnia." she told her youngest sibling, heat rising to her cheeks. She tried to force the blush down, but to no success, so she just lowered her head as bit, hoping that her long hair would cover up her cheeks. She failed again, so she decided to change the subject. "Um, what about you, Luce? What do you miss the most?"

Lucy's face lit up at the chance to answer the question. She took in a deep breath before speaking.

"Well, I miss Aslan, and Trumpkin, and the centaurs, and the castle, and the forest, and Cair Paravel, and-"

"Okay, you miss everything. I get it," Susan cut her off, laughing.

"Well, I have to go now, I want to start asking Peter those questions!" Lucy said, standing up from the bed. She brushed off the imaginary dust from her skirt before heading towards the door.

"See you later, Su!" she said, closing the door behind her. Susan smiled for a moment before standing up and going to her window seat. She looked at the sky and sighed, thinking about her conversation with Lucy.

Caspian, she thought, I miss Caspian...tears started forming at the back of her eyes, but not just because of Caspian, but because she missed everything else. Aslan and Trumpkin, Cair Paravel and the Narnians, but most of all, she missed Prince Caspian.

He called them back. He saved her and Lucy. He helped defeat Miraz. He was now the king. He has her horn. He wouldn't see her again.

And she kissed him good-bye.

Susan shook her head and forced a smile on her face. She wouldn't cry for leaving; she would be happy that Narnia was at peace. Reassured, she stood up and took her book from the bedside table, intent on finishing it by tonight.

But as she started reading where she left off, only one thing occupied her mind, making it harder to hold back the tears in her crystal blue eyes.

Crying? I can't cry, even if I miss Caspian that much...even if I think that I love him...even if I might never see him again...No, stop. I won't cry...I refuse.

Yes, it sucks, sorry about that. I'm not really a very good writer, even though I've been writing for a while now. This took me only a day, just a few hours. I wanted something different from the usual "Susan cries for Caspian and becomes depressed" and "Caspian has to get married and Susan finds out" stories on the site, so I figured, why not write it myself?

I hope you guys enjoyed, please review! Flames welcome.