Wow this is the first fanfiction i've written in FOREVER. I hope it turned out okay. heh~
WARNING : CONTAINS BLOOD,GORE,NECRO,SUICIDE, YAOI AND SELF HARM.

I clutched my hand around the cold metal. This was the last time. The last time he would make a fool of me. The last time I would be number 2. Finally I would be at the rightful place of number 1 and L's successor I chuckled darkly and slowly opened the door to the tidy white room. Ugh the color white made vile rise in my throat. I will forever despise that color. All because of HIM. I walked in softly as to not wake the sleeping body up. I closed and locked the door turning to the bed. His chest rose and fell with his breaths. This is the last time ill see his breathing body. I felt a pang of hurt in my heart but brushed it off. I stood over him and placed my hand on his cheek, caressing it. If he wasn't such a pain in my ass I might have fallen for him...No..I have fallen for him. I love him. Which is why I have to do this... I've seen his suffering.. The same suffering I go through. He thinks I don't notice the red scars on his wrist when his to big of a shirt lifts up. He thinks I don't here the cries of pain as he slices into his skin at night. The whimpers as his sensitive scars rub against his shirt. Well I do. Because I go through the same pain. I look at his sleeping form that holds so many emotions. I feel tears slip down my face as I stare at his porcelaine face. Hes so beautiful. He will look even better covered in red. I places the barrel at his temple. He squirmed and his eyes opened tiredly coming to stare at mine. Wide grey eyes that I could get lost in for days. I saw the Confusion then slowly I saw the pleading in his eyes. He wanted this. I whispered an "I love you" and cocked the gun. He closed his eyes and the tears spilled. A smile plastered his face. I gasped at the first emotion hes shown me. I smiled holding in my sobs as I pulled the trigger. No gun shot was heard thanks to my silencer. I watched the blood explode from his head. All over his pristine white sheets, wall and clothes. I knew he would look more magical with red. His eyes went lifeless and his skin was even paler (if that was even possible) I smiled and picked up his lifeless form bringing him out of his door to my bedroom. This is where he would stay. Protected. Away from the suffering. Loved. Forever Loved.

3 MONTHS LATER

The pain. Oh the pain hurt so good. I placed the metal on the side of the bathtub looking down at the bloodied mess on my wrists. I smiled as I know he would have loved them. Kissed them tenderly and told me its gonna all be okay. I glanced at my closet door slowly getting up to retrieve my Love. My everything. My Near. His body had started to rot. It stunk horribly but I still loved him. I locked my door and sat him on my bed. Caressing his cheek and moving so i could kiss his unmoving lips. wishing desperately they would magically start moving. But i know that wont happen. I decided to kiss my way down his body. Loving his skin. It was so soft. So white. So...Cold. I couldn't stop the sobs I placed my cock at his entrance Fucking him fast and raw. I knew his masochistic side would have loved this. His beautiful voice moaning loudly as pain and pleasure shot through him. But all I got was a dead stare. I watched as my tears fell onto his face as I came hard inside him. I knew he was filled from all the previous times. I pulled out and stood up. I couldn't do it anymore. I missed my Love.. I wanted to be with him.. I laid down next to him holding him close.. I brought the gun to my head and pulled the trigger. I was finally going to see My everything. My love. My Near.

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So yeah thats the end. I know im fucked up. Heh please R&R