Hey guys its been a while since i've gotten up anything new...Havent been in the mood to write. I dont know how long ago i wrote 'Let me forget' and promised you all a dialoge version. I know it took me a LONG time but here it is. Its not exactly like the poem version I plan on changing many things and as for updates...I wont make promises, I want this to actually be an OK fic in my eyes so i'm going to take time to write it out and make sure not to rush the fic like i tend to do with my other ones. Now clue how long it will be at this time.

This chapter is really short and i'm sorry for that.I'm really wanting to know what you the readers to review and let me know what you think. Now if you want a glimpse of what MAY happen you can read the poem version which is completed. If you do read that please review it as well!

Oh yeah I guess i should put this warning :Pairing is Hiei/Kurama...Fic will be angsty, but thats what i'm good at. XD

Title : Waiting To Forget

Chapter 1: Eyes Like Stone

Date Completed: October 3, 2005

I sit waiting at my window. Its pathetic of me really because i know you arent going to be coming back this time. God how many nights have I spent awake since he died just staring into nothing? It feels like my souls been ripped in two, as if my very life has been taken from me. This feeling is hell. My gaze drifts to the window again, I see the branches rustle and my heart jumps.

It couldnt be...

A cat comes out from the darkness, and I let go the breath I had been holding in.

you're being stupid. You know that wasnt him..

After drawing the blinds I fall onto my bed. Even that held memories...I wish I could just destroy every thing in this room that reminded me of him. Pushing the thought aside i try to force myself to sleep. I feel something new swell up in me, an anger i couldnt believe. Why did he do this to me? If he had just let me die...

I feel for the chain holding the small crystal dragon around my neck. I remember when he gave it to me.

"Why do you humans celebrate the day of their birth?"

I turned from my work to look at him. I was wondering what the hell was making him ask that question out of the blue like that. Yes it was my birthday but I really doubted he of all people knew that.

"I'm not really sure why Hiei, its just something we've done for hundreds of years."

"Humans are strange creatures.."

I merely chuckled and returned to my work. Minuets later I heard him move, his feet pading quietly on the floor. Out of the corner of my eye I saw him place something on the edge of my desk. Before i could even turn around he was gone.Out my window and into the darkness.

I picked the item up and stared at it. On the chain there was a small black crystal dragon, with flaming red eyes. A beautiful makai piece.One that back in my old days i would've stolen. I smiled lightly, somehow he found out it was my birthday.

That explains the question..But its odd of Hiei to do something like that even for me.. I thought as I placed the chain around my neck fastening it in place. I swore then that i'd never remove it.

I didnt care anymore about my silent promise. Ripping the chain from my neck I held it up into the light. Its garnet eyes stared back at me.Reminding me of his eyes the day he died, How cold they were. Cold and lifeless. The crystal shattered with a small sound, as the necklace collided with the wall.

"I want to forget you" I say quietly.

Blegh please tell me what you think. Again sorry for the short short chapter.