An/So I've had the idea to make a full fic for a while. And just been getting around to doing it. So here it is, it's based on the show but I'm going to be adding some twist along the way. It will be based on the relationship of Tara and Jax. .

Author – Soa-Samcro
Type – Fullfic
Pairing – Jax and Tara
Pointofview – Jax/Tara
Rate - M(due to Language and maybe future lemons)

I Will Guide You Home And Try Fix You

Tara pov

Prologue

Walking into the corridor I felt myself relax minutely I couldn't believe I was back here, in Charming.

I stood with my back flat against the hall way as I felt the coldness of the wall press through my lab coat, thinking about the incidents to which had brought me here.

Sometimes I wondered if I really did regret leaving this town. I left and become the Doctor I always wanted to be.

But in leaving I left behind a part of me, I was sixteen when I left and I think the last ten years have banished the feeling's , thoughts I had from last time I was here .

But after my relationship with john, after he had become so aggressive and stalking towards me , I knew I needed to leave I needed to get out , and the only place I ever felt safe was this little place that I had run away from so many year's ago.

I had run back to the man I had always loved, straight into his arms and straight to the club I had once hated so much that I had run half way across the planet to escape.

No one had seen me yet and as for that little bit of hope I was thankful because I wasn't sure what my excuse being back would be, Id moved back into my dad house .

Last night as I took the garbage out I seen Donna and opie in the garden of there house cringing I knew they had most likely seen the lights on in my dad's considering they lived facing but I was hoping they presumed it was a house keeper or someone.

I knew news of my dad dying had hit, and although his drunk ass had been in a home for the last few years. After Getting the restraining order out against John and knowing I needed to leave , I had put my transfer in with charming surgical team three weeks ago and had been utterly surprised when I got a phone call telling me I had a place on the team when I was ready.

I had packed a bag and got in the car that night , two weeks ago and drove all the way back down , not caring about leaving anything behind.

This was a fresh start for me. A fresh start for me to be the person I wanted to be.

I knew John wouldn't be able to find me since I had made sure to inform the hospital I had a restraining order out and my details was to be kept privet only the administrator's at my old placement knew of my move and even they was not one hundred percent sure I had actual gone to charming.

I had left my things in hope john would presume I was just away or something. Anything to just give me more time to decide.

In truth I hadn't even thought about were else I could return to Charming had been the first place that popped in my head.

Maybe the familiarly of the place, or the people was what I needed.

I just know as soon as I had drive past the 'Welcome to Charming' sign I had felt air leave my lungs, not even knowing I had been withholding it. I felt like a whole weight had been lifted off my shoulders and like I could finally breathe.

Walking into my old childhood home had been a complete different feeling, my father it seemed had took to never throwing anything out, there was news papers from before I even left still throw around the floor.

The house was a mess and knowing I had at least two weeks before my actual medical paperwork would be at the new hospital I decided to take the time in cleaning , so that's what I had been doing , one room at a time , yet I still had so much to do.

I had started in my old room first , cleaned it all out and ordered myself some new furniture, my old room was one of the biggest in the house so I didn't see any point in moving to a smaller one , especially when mine held so many memories for me.

My first kiss.

My first sexual experience

My first Fight

My fight tears over a guy

All with the same boy.

I had smiled as I walked in seeing my old photo's still sprawled across my room, I had taken them down but only to place them in a photo album, some was in frames that I had found in the attic.

My father's room was empty which didn't shock me, I guess before he had gone in his home his carer had emptied it out, pity they didn't think to the whole house.

My first three nights I hadn't slept , knowing I wanted to at least have a tidy living room and bedroom , as long as there was some were for me to chill out and watch television , or relax and read a book I couldn't of cared what the rest of the house looked like.

I'd left a picture of my father in the living room; next to it was one of me and Jax.

It was silly really but I couldn't help the small smile that spread across my lips when I seen it , we looked so silly on the picture, it was a party his mum Gemma had been throwing something to do with the sons of anarchy club her husband was president off.
Jackson's Dad had died a few years before, and Jackson had only just started to take to Clay.

Gemma had invited the entire club around to her house, and since I was dating Jackson he had demanded I go, I had agreed because he always seemed to be able to make me agree to what ever he wanted.

My hand rubbed against the Crow tattoo he had convinced me to have on my sixteenth birthday.

The party had been well interesting to say the least, since my father couldn't be well anything but a drinker , most of the sons was very protective over me , Jackson had let me drink alcohol even thought we had been told not to.

The picture was took with me and Jax leaning against the other with goofy grins on our face , the booze we had been slipping in our drinks all night obviously showing through our future's.

The picture had actual been taken a week before I left , looking at it I wondered why I left , since I looked so happy on the picture , but I knew that although I was happy with Jackson , I wasn't happy with how our life looked like it was going.

Jackson was one of them boys every girl liked , looked at as if there eyes was twitching with the sheer beauty of him, when he would look at them , they would either giggle or squeal , up to the age of ten I had rolled my eyes at them girl's.

He had been my best friend since I could really remember.

My first day at school I had fell over and scraped my knee a small little boy had come over to me and held his hand out to me, offering it to me and helping me up, he had pulled a lollypop out of his pocket and told me when he fell over his brother gave him a lolly and told him to suck it until the pain went.

Wiping away my tears I remember smiling slightly through my tears and taking the lolly he was holding out , we had both sat crossed legs on the floor while sucking the lollypops and I had to admit after my third lick I had forgotten all about the harsh redness marking my knee.

The young boy had smiled holding his hand out chuckling he was called Jax and that I could be his friend.

The rest as people say was history for us, we become inseparable , I spent more of my time at his house , his Mum become almost like mine , special occasions like Christmas and things she invited me and my father over , usual ending with him falling asleep drunk. Or causing a scene either way it would end up with me staying on the sofa.

When we had reached school we was put in separate classes' for some things and jax had kicked the teacher telling me them it wasn't fair , I had been brawling thinking of my comfort blanket that he had come to be like being separated from me , but we had been told we had to and went with the stride.

By the age of seven we was only in one class together but spent our lunch and every other time together , Jax had male friends and I had girl friends but we still always ended up not more than a few feet from each other.

It wasn't until we was Eleven that I had started to look at him different , we had always held hands and hugged and kissed each others cheeks , but it seemed after that age the slightly touch or look from Jackson and I was blushing like his favourite red truck toy.

I think Gemma noticed before us, since she would tease us and smirk every time I would let my hair fall from my face curtaining my beetroot cheeks from him if he would compliment me or anything.

Jax it seemed had got his feelings a little later than me, on my twelve birthday he had practically dragged me home, which was odd since he was missing from school and I presumed he was ill, as soon as I had got to my house he was sat on my door step smiling before telling me he had been busy and wanted me to come and see something very cool he had been working on.

Curious and smiling at the happiness radiating from him, I followed him smiling as we reached his house both panting and puffing for breath; I had leaned down with my hand on my knees as I playfully glared to him.

As we both got our breaths back I had leaned up smiling, as he pushed the door open and pulled me in I think a gasp actual left me as I looked around Pink balloons filled the walls with banners, and there was a small tea party displayed out on the long table, sandwiches, crisp and other bits that caused me to practically jump on the spot at the excitement in me.

"he did it all himself" Gemma's voice rang out as I smiled to him pulling into a huge hug as I felt his arms wrap around me causing me to have a huge silly grin across my lips.

He had give me a present, a small heart pendent that he had put on for me, causing me to giggle, I leaned forward with out thinking and placed my lips against his pecking him quickly before pulling away I was very bold and looked him in the eyes as he smiled goofily back at me, we grabbed my hand before pulling me running to the living room were a cake was that Gemma had set out, we sat down holding hands laughing and joking as Clay told us silly jokes.

That night I think I had smiled constantly as Gemma and Clay gushed over us, usual I would have been embarrassed but it seemed nothing was bringing me down from my high of knowing Jax Teller had chosen me over all the other girls in our school.

That night we had both stayed up watching our favourite films on the television he had in his living room Gemma had agreed I could sleep over and we had a carpet picnic in the garden, I fell asleep with my head on his shoulder as we leaned against the sofa laughing at one of his shows he liked to watch repeatedly because he could say the phrases before the cartoons.

"Tara" I herd looking up breaking me out of my thought's I let the wall hold me up as I seen the man who's face had haunted my dreams for nearly ten year's, the man who's voice I had herd numerous times over the year's the man who I had come back for.

Jax Teller.

Reality it seemed had hit.

I'm Dr Tara Knowles and I'm back in Charming

A/n so I'm hoping this is ok, I'm going to work on the next chapter and decide after the feedback from that whether to continue or not. I'm hoping people like it as I have the storyline I want mapped out in my head, but we will see.
Next chapter is going to be the night Tara left. {It's just to give some back ground information really. There will be a Jax point of view in there as well} This chapter was just to bring us up to speed really with Tara being back in Charming , and giving me a gate way to let me begin the real fun with the story.

Let me know what you guys think.