Title: Death Is Not Forever

Synopsis: Dean Winchester is the life-mate of an elf named Nessie. She travels with Sam and her daughter, Alex. Gunner was added to their clan. John Winchester does approve of the elves, which causes tragic consequences.

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Chapter 1

Dean and Sam were packing up the car. One of Bobby's friends had called with a possible vengeful spirit. Suddenly, their father's truck came barreling into the salvage yard. His truck barely missed the impala. Sam dived on the other side of the impala to avoid being hit. Dean had nowhere to go but into the trunk. As soon as the truck stopped, John opened the door and fell to the ground. He was badly beaten and appeared to have been shot several times. Dean had a trouble getting out of the trunk. He had landed on one of their knives. Luckily, the knife only nicked him. Dean and Sam ran to their father.

John looked up at his sons. "I I couldn't save the family. He took another family. Burnt their house to the ground. He got away before I could use the colt. Still have the colt. You have to finish what I started." John passed out. Sam and Dean picked him up between them. They knew he was bad off and they had to get him to Nessie.

In their hurry to get their dad into the house, Sam unknowingly brushed some of the salt away. They ran into the house with him. Dean started yelling for Nessie. "NESSIE, we need you NOW."

They put him on the couch. Nessie did not hesitate to run to John and assess his wounds. She knew John hated her, but she would never hesitate to help him because he was Dean's father.

He had three bullets still in him. "Dean, we have to get the bullets out before I can fix him. I will do what I can so that he doesn't die, but we need to hurry. He's lost a lot of blood." Nessie felt something different about John but she ignored her feelings. She needed to concentrate on his injuries.

Bobby ran and got his extensive med kit. Over the months of hunting together, they instinctively knew what to do. Alex put her hands on John's legs to help regulate his blood pressure, heart rate, and pain level. Sam had Bobby and Gunner hold John down. Dean put on gloves to get ready to remove the bullets. Nessie bit her lip and bit John's lip.

Nessie recoiled from him. He tasted strange. She stood and backed away from him. Dean was incredulous. "Nessie, what the hell are you doing? You've got to help him. I know he doesn't like you, but do it for me." Dean looked at her pleadingly.

Nessie looked terrified. "Everyone get away from him. He He's possessed."

Sam, Gunner, Dean, Bobby, and Alex were flung to a wall. They were stuck to the wall. Dean was struggling hard. "Dad, don't do this. Fight it."

Nessie stood her ground. She didn't know why she was not stuck on the wall with the others.

John/Demon turned to her. "Well, aren't you special? You could actually tell that I was in here with just a taste. Do I taste as good as Sammy?"

"It's Sam and he doesn't taste bad like you do, you Son of a Bitch. How did you get in here anyway? We have salt lines." Nessie was trying to channel Dean's bravery, but she was terrified. Dean yelled, "You tell him, baby."

"You are a little spit fire. I can see why Dean likes you. I bet you're quite the hell cat in bed. I could so enjoy you. I want to hear you scream. You can thank Sam for letting me in. I pushed him a little and his foot moved the salt just enough for me to get in."

He reached out and grabbed her around the neck and lifted her up. She struggled against him.

He threw her to the wall opposite from the others and she slowly rose up the wall. He cut her and she immediately healed. "Oh, this will be fun. I can cut and carve and hurt you and not worry about you dying on me. I'm going to love you, Nessie." He stabbed her, but she didn't scream. Dean was so proud of how brave she was. Nessie knew she was not going to survive. Her only regret was that her family would not have to watch it. John/Demon licked the blade. He closed his eyes with a look of pure ecstasy on his face. "Oh, you do taste exquisite. I would drink you dry, but I know that elf blood and demon blood doesn't mix so well, but you are tempting.

"Let her go. Dad fight him. Don't let the bastard win. Fight him."

The John/Demon looked at Dean. "Dean, Dean, Dean. You're daddy is so weak. If I leave, then he's dead. He's lost too much blood. See I want the colt. He's a stubborn bastard and won't tell me where it is. I figure you would know, but if I were to torture you, you would never say. So I get to play with the elf. I can inflict a lot of pain without killing her. Okay, let's have some fun or are you going to tell me where the colt is?"

"I don't know where it is. We left Dad a few weeks back and he had the colt. We haven't seen or heard from him since. You should know that. He doesn't approve of my elf."

"Yeah, I do know that you left, but I also know that your dad thinks you do know where it is, but I can't get the location from him. There just isn't enough of him left for me to get the answer from him."

John/Demon ripped the front of Nessie's shirt and fondled her breasts. She glared at him and pushed as hard as she could. Her nose started to bleed, but she knocked him over a chair.

"Liar." Everyone turned to look at Nessie. She had managed to get off the wall. "You're a liar. John is still there. I can feel him and he's fighting you that is why you don't have the location. John Winchester is a strong willed man. He won't go easy. He can hear me."

"How did you get off the wall, you little bitch."

"You underestimate me. For some reason, everyone does that." She had her hands on her hips and had her most defiant face.

The John/Demon flung her back to the wall. She hit her head and saw stars. Bobby and Sam had been trying to recite an exorcism, but the demon had knocked them both out. Gunner and Alex did not have one memorized. Dean couldn't recite one without a book. He felt that their only chance was Nessie or his dad. "Dad, fight him. You're the most stubborn man I've ever know. Don't let him kill my Nessie. Please, dad."

The John/Demon's eyes went from black to hazel. He seemed to be dizzy. "Dean?"

"Dad?"

Before the demon could take hold again, Nessie used her telekinesis to hit him with a huge book and knock him out. Immediately, everyone was dropped from the wall and fell to the floor. Nessie ran to the John/Demon and was trying to drag John/Demon to the devil's trap. Dean saw what she was doing and pulled John/Demon the rest of the way under the trap. Bobby came over with a chair and rope. They pulled John on to the chair, which wasn't easy because he was a big man. They tied him up and waited for him to wake up.

Dean looked over at his elf. Her hair was pulled partially out of her braid. She had blood on her shirt from where John/Demon had slashed her and she was holding her shirt closed, but she seemed okay. Dean pulled him to her and held her close. "You were amazing, baby."

"I just channeled Dean Winchester. He's a real badass." Dean laughed at that. "But seriously, Dean, your dad is hurt very bad. He might be hurt too bad for me to fix him. He could die if we exorcize the demon."

"Can you fix him with the demon in him?"

"No, I can't fix him with a demon still in him. If the demon has been him too long, I may not be able to fix him because his blood will be too tainted from the demon."

Dean lowered his voice so that only Nessie could here. "But I thought Sammy had demon blood. It has never stopped you from fixing him."

"It's different. Sam just has some demon blood mixed with the human. The demon blood is too diluted to hurt me and he does not have a demon in him."

"We can't leave the demon in dad. We just can't. He would rather die than have that thing inside him."

Sam had heard their conversation. "We'll have to exorcize him and Nessie'll have to work fast. Maybe we could get the bullets out, while he's unconscious."

Nessie looked at Dean. "I can pull the bullets out using my gifts as the demon is leaving the body and then I can try to fix him enough for him to live, but there is a risk that it won't work."

Dean rubbed his face. This situation was so messed up. Bobby walked toward them. "Dean's right, we can't leave John like this, but he might die. We have to try what Nessie said."

John/Demon woke up and started laughing. "Well, well, I guess you all know that if you cast me out, then John is hell bound. Too bad, I can't enjoy the little elf anymore. Don't worry; I'm sure my boss will delight in you." He looked at Nessie with a filthy look on his face and licked his lips.

Dean threw holy water on him. "Who's your boss?"

"Oh, that would be who you call the Yellow Eyed Demon. I won't tell you his real name."

They tried to get more information, but he wasn't talking. They were careful not to hurt the body any more than it was already hurt. Dean finally nodded to Sam to start the exorcism and Nessie got ready. She would have to move fast. Before Sam could get halfway through, the Demon shook his head. "Nope, you aren't sending me back to hell. I'll be seeing you again." Black smoke erupted from John's mouth and he screamed long and loud.

Nessie did not waste a moment. She pulled the three bullets. She pulled the worst injuries from John. She began to bleed from the three bullets wound and from her nose and mouth. There was too much demon blood mixed with John's. John had been too tainted by the demon. She looked up at Dean. "De De, sorry, he was hurt bad. The demon had been in him long enough to heavily taint his blood. There was too much, too much demon blood, sorry."

Nessie collapsed. Dean knelt next to her. She was dying. She could feel herself slipping away. John woke up and looked up at everyone. "Could someone untie me, please?" Bobby and Gunner untied John.

Alex and Sam knelt next to Nessie. "Momma, please don't die. Please don't leave me."

Nessie coughed up blood. She was trying to fight, but she felt so tired. Dean had tears running down his face like Alex and Sam. John knelt near them. "I'm sorry."

Dean did not realize the risk was to her and not his dad. He would have chosen Nessie over his dad. "Nessie, why didn't you tell me that you were the one taking the risk? What can we do? How can we help you?"

"There is nothing that can be done. I love you Dean."

Nessie coughed again, but she looked at John. "It's okay. It wasn't your fault. Demon had been in you for too long. De, there are instructions in my bag for Alex's transformation. You will have to help her prepare."

"No, momma, no. I can't go through it without you."

John watched Dean holding Nessie and crying. His eldest strongest son was devastated by the impending death of the elf and it was his fault. In that moment, John could no longer hate the elf. She had tried to save them all from the demon. She had healed him and now she's dying. "Is there nothing you can do? She's magical isn't she?"

Alex looked at her grandfather and then her dad. "She pulled too much into herself and there was too much demon blood mix with yours. She's leaving me." Alex began sobbing. Gunner and Sam held Alex and tried to comfort her. She held her mother's hand knew her mother's essence was leaving.

Dean was sobbing unashamedly. He couldn't believe this was happening. She had been so close so many times and had always pulled through, but even he could tell that she was gone. He kissed her one last time and felt her heart stop. He rocked her lifeless body. "You promised never to leave me again. You promised. How how could you do this to me? How am I supposed to go on without you? Please, please come back." Sam knelt down beside Dean and encircled Dean and Nessie and rocked with Dean.

Bobby got a blanket to wrap her in. Alex knew the blanket would not be needed, but she was too distraught to say anything. A blue light began to emanate from the body. Hope surged through Dean. "Does this mean that she's coming back?" He looked to Alex for confirmation, but she sadly shook her head. Her mom was truly gone.

They all watched transfixed as she appeared to shrink and dissolve. Suddenly, there was no body lying before them. A blue light the size of a large blue marble rose from her clothes. It went to John and touched his forehead. He felt forgiven. Next, it touched Gunner's forehead and he felt extreme protectiveness and love for Alex. Next the small orb visited Bobby and he felt devotion and trust. Sam was next. It seemed to dance and jump in front of Sam before touching his head. He felt love and knew it was Nessie. He heard the words "I will always love you little brother, please take care of Dean. Don't let him lose his way." Sam promised that he would stay near Dean. Next the orb went to Alex and sat over her heart rather than her forehead. One small tear shaped piece of the orb fell into Alex's heart. She felt nothing but a profound love from her mother and heard the words "You are my angel. I'll always love and watch over you."

The orb finally made its way to Dean. It disappeared inside his chest. Dean gasp from the amount of true unconditional love. He had never felt so much love before. The orb left his chest and settled into crystal of her necklace lying on her shirt. Alex picked up the necklace and put it around her father's neck. He didn't seem to notice. Dean heard the words. "Always keep this necklace it carries my essence, my soul. If you miss me hold the necklace and think of me and I will be with you. I never meant to go so soon and I'm sorry." Dean could not speak. Tears flowed freely and he held the necklace. He could see Nessie standing in front of him, but no one else could see her. She smiled at him and brushed her lips on his and disappeared.

As they both cried, Dean pulled Alex to him. He had to take care of his daughter. He would do everything to keep her safe. He had to find the yellow eyed demon and kill it. "Dad, what are we going to do about mom?"

"What do you mean sweetheart? I think she's here in this necklace. I can feel her." He smiled sadly at Alex.

"I know that is where her soul is, but she can't stay there forever. Her soul will only survive for a few months in the crystal. We need an elfin priest to release her soul to heaven. We are lower beings to humans. Our souls cannot go to heaven without the proper invocations."

"Well, I guess you and Sam will have to find the proper invocations so that she can go." Dean sobbed on the last word.

"No father, we cannot. The invocations are only passed down orally. They are forbidden to be written down. We need to find an elfin priest or priestess that will be willing to do this for us."

"Alex, do whatever you can. I I need to be alone for awhile." Dean walked to the bedroom that he had shared with Nessie. He lie down on the bed and put his head on Nessie's pillow. It still smelled like her. Dean started sobbing into it. Nessie was truly gone.

Bobby looked at John. "Dean is going to want to kill the yellow eyed demon now. Do you know where the colt is?"

"Yeah, I know where it is, but I'm not telling anyone. I'll use it to kill the demon." John knew that he would leave tomorrow morning. He was going to kill the demon without Dean and Sam. He didn't want it to kill his children like it had killed Nessie. John felt guilt over what happened to Nessie. He knew that he was to blame. He should have understood the bond between Dean and Nessie. He should have opened his eyes and really looked at the two of them. He was a bastard. He would try to make it up to Alex if she would let him.

Gunner was holding Alex on his lap and rocking her. He knew how horrible it was to lose his mother. Seems Dean, Sam, Gunner, and now Alex had all lost their mothers. Why did evil things always go after mothers? He had really liked Nessie. She seemed to always know when he was unsure and needed encouragement. She never looked down on him and she was completely open to his relationship with Alex.

Gunner would never forget when Nessie had pulled him aside. She told him about the role that he would play in their clan. He was embarrassed at first, but Nessie quickly put him at ease. She had told him that when an elf female turns ten, she needs her virginity taken so that she can transform to an adult. If she has no mate, then she will forever be a child and will never be able to have children of her own. Nessie told Gunner that she had seen him in a dream and knew that she was to be the one to mate with Alex so that she could transform. He had been worried because he had never been with a woman. Nessie told her that didn't matter and that Dean would explain the specifics before the day. She knew that he would be gentle and kind to Alex. She wasn't worried and he shouldn't worry either.

Sam picked up Nessie's clothes. He couldn't stand to see them just laying there on the floor. Nessie had been like a sister to him. He loved her so much. She had made him believe that it was not his fault and the demon blood did not make him evil. What he did or didn't do is what made him good or evil. She always told him that his heart would always lead him on the right path. "Oh, Nessie, we'll all be so lost without you. I'll try to take care of Dean and Alex, but I'm worried that I'm not strong enough to help them through this. You suffered so much in your short life. "

Dean laid on the bed and thought of his elf. He remembered the first time he really noticed her when they were in high school. She was so tiny but she had such spunk for someone her size. She was like no one he had ever met before. He felt drawn to her and didn't really understand why. She could look right into his soul. He remembered how she healed Sam. He had just left her in her front yard after she had healed Sam. She had told him to not have guilt about it, but he had. A year later, she had shown up and asked him to take her virginity. It was the night that Alex was conceived. He thought he was saving her from Malcolm, but he had doomed her to a life of captivity, beatings and rapes by the order of the elfin counsel. He remembered when he first found out that he was a father and Nessie had been basically in prison because of him. He had tried to find Nessie and Alex but he had no luck. He was so happy to be reunited with Nessie and Alex. Nessie had been so selfless. He remembers how she had saved Sam from the werewolf bite. Nessie always wanted to help. She seemed to know instinctively what someone needed. She did little things to show her devotion. She always made sure that they had clean clothes. He remembered the first time that he saw her sewing a button on his shirt. His heart swelled at the sight. He remembered how caring she was with their daughter. He thought his mom would have been like her. He was amazed how she always knew the right things to say to Sam to help him with the loss of Jess and the demon blood he carried. He remembered all the times they made love. The thought made him cry again. To never feel her body against his was too much to bear. "Nessie, what am I going to do without you? I feel lost." He cried himself to sleep like he did the night his mother died.

"Dean, Dean, can you hear me?"

Dean startled. He opened his eyes and saw Nessie lying beside him. "Am I dreaming?"

"Yeah, Dean, you are dreaming. Sometimes, I can come to you in your dreams. We have much to discuss."

Dean reached out and touched her face. She smiled at the touch. "Don't be lost, Dean. You're the clan leader. You know what needs to be done."

"No, no, I don't know how to live without you."

"You know Dean. You are clan leader."

"I need to keep the clan together."

"Yes, Dean. I love you."

"Sam and I will accompany my father. We'll go after the Yellow Eyed demon and kill it before it has a chance to hurt anyone else, but I can't leave Alex."

"Dean, I have left instructions and an elfin female contact that can help Alex prepare. You can trust the contact. She is good and will never harm Alex. She was present at her birth. Give my journal to Alex. You need to leave Alex with Bobby and Gunner while you go after the demon. It will be hard to leave her, but she will need the time to get ready. Gunner and Bobby will take good care of her. The contact will become a second mother to her."

"What about you? How long can you stay in the crystal? Alex said that you need an elfin priest to perform an invocation so that you can go to heaven."

"Don't worry about me right now. I am safe for several months just don't take off the necklace even in the shower. I am using some of your life-force to keep my soul in a stable condition. Hope you don't mind."

"If it keeps you safe, you can take all I have."

"I won't need enough that you will even notice the loss. Love me in your dreams."

She reached up and kissed him. Suddenly, they were nude and gently loving each other. Dean never wanted it to end, but of course it did. Her last words were "Dean, I will always love you. Remember you are clan leader and even your father must answer and follow you now. Everyone has a destiny, Dean, even me. Death is not forever, Dean."

She was gone. "Wait what do you mean, death is not forever?" She did not answer.

Dean woke with a start. He looked down and realized he'd had a wet dream about Nessie. Then he remembered everything that was said and done. He had a renewed purpose. He was clan leader and he would do as he needed to do. He would find out what she meant by Death is not forever.