Title: Forever Took to Find

Author: Stephanie (AKA Damara)

Rating: K+

Disclaimer: I do not claim any ownership of the characters contained herein, they belong to Jason Katims, the WB (shame on you!) and the UPN (shame on you too!).

Spoilers: Set just after the Pilot

Summary: Ever since that afternoon in the Crashdown, things have changed between them…and every day their connection is becoming more intense. Refusing to deny it any longer, Liz decides it's time to make Max believe it too…

Prologue

Journal Entry --- September 27, 1999

It's only 8 days ago that Max Evans brought me back from death, but it feels like so much longer. It all seems like such a distant memory to me now, almost like it didn't happen. But I know it did. I was helpless as my life slipped away from me and I lay in my own blood. And amazingly, just when I'd given up hope I heard him calling out to me, "Liz you have to look at me," he'd begged. I'll never forget the way his voice sounded that day; it held a deep desperation that I'd never heard before, probably never will again. And while I'd not understood why he risked everything in those few precious seconds, I knew somehow that he'd do it all again if it meant keeping me safe. See, that's the unbelievable thing about Max, he can make you feel everything he feels without ever using words. You see it in his eyes, in the way that he moves his lips and how that drives you crazy; you see it in his face, in the way he pierces your soul with his stare. He can convey every human emotion with just one look. And unexpectedly, the last few days have shown me something beautiful about Max Evans. Something totally ironic and illogical, yet true nonetheless: he's an alien from another planet, but I've never known a person more genuine in their humanity.

Okay…so, that being said, I'm faced with the inevitable question…what next? I mean we agreed we couldn't get involved right? We're too different. But the thing is…I just don't believe that anymore. The truth is...that if there's one thing I'm quickly learning, it's that if there's anything harder than accepting the existence of aliens in Roswell, it's stopping yourself from falling in love with one…

It sounds simple enough…but as strange as it sounds…it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. It's been over a week now since that day in the Crashdown, and amazingly, somehow I've felt incredibly drawn to Max. Just like a moth to a flame, I'm just unconsciously connected to him; it's a connection that seems stronger now than it ever did before. In the day, when I know he's far away, and even at night in my dreams…I can feel him. I can't control this feeling…this urge to just curl up into his arms and wrap myself around him.

Something inside of me is aching…and I just don't know how to make it stop.

And the more I fight these feelings that I keep hidden deep in my soul, the more I realize that I don't want to fight them at all. I want to be consumed by them. I want to be consumed by him…Max Evans.

Any thoughts? Chapter 1 coming tomorrow...stay tuned :oP