Han's Boys

by Fettkat

A Father's Day Special! Guess I've been inspired by all the Solo family viggies I've been reading lately, and thought I'd jump onto the bandwagon too! So here's a little series where all his "boys" write to Han, reflecting on his role in their lives as a father/father-figure.

1. Jacen

Jacen/ Caedus

Dear Dad,

I thought it would be the easiest to stop loving you. I used to think that I could never understand you. After all, I was never the pilot Jaina is. And Mom could always somehow read you just right. We never had much of a connect, did we, Dad? Yes, that's what I used to think.
But lately, I've been wondering. And do you know who's made me wonder? It's my daughter- yes, I have a daughter!- your granddaughter, Allana. I love her, Dad. I love her more than I ever thought I could love another human being. She's the light of my life. She makes me wonder about the differences between us.

Did you ever feel this way, Dad? About us? About me? Maybe you did. I don't know, and frankly, I don't even know whether I care very much anymore. You've always been trouble, haven't you, Dad? And now you're trouble for me. Because I want to be the best father in the galaxy to her, but all I have in my head about how to do that is what I learnt from you. She has your eyes. My eyes. And I get the strangest feeling when I look into them. It's like you're looking back at me. Like you've found some way to get into her.

I will do everything in my power to keep you away from her, you hear? I'd rather die than see you take her away from me.