So, you may think I'm a retard. I mean, I now have three stories in the works. Yeah I know, I'm a crazy one. I don't know what I'm going to do, but I'll work everything out! Haha, maybe. Anyway, have fun with this cause I don't know when I will be able to update. So, yeah. I DON'T OWN HARVEST MOON.

P.S- Italic parts are Jill's diary! I just wanted to tell you this now! Okay, go!

Chapter One

Summer 30th, Year 3

Love is a torture device. It can be oh so beautiful when it works out, but it can hurt like hell when it doesn't. Why someone came up with the idea of love, I have no idea. I know I wouldn't be saying these things had I actually had a successful relationship, but it's all I can do now not to break down into tears and wish love to hell. Why couldn't the Goddess bless my relationship with Kai? Why did she had to make his path the one that lead to Popuri? I should have been the one at the end of the dirt road, my arms held open and waiting to embrace my one and only love. It was to good to be true, I suppose. So, my one and only question is this: Why does love always run away from me, and why does it always have to hurt so damn much?

I wiped the one lone fallen tear from my face and shut my diary. It had been a week since I had last seen daylight. It had been a week since I had last talked to Kai. It had been a week since his wedding. Needless to say, it had been a rough seven days for me. I sighed to myself as I replaced my diary on the shelf and finger combed my hair. I wasn't going to let him catch me looking like a slob on his last day in the valley. I was going to march right up to him and wish him and his... wife a happy journey back to Mineral Town. If it took all of my strength, damn it, I was going to do it.

I pulled my brown hair up into high pigtails and arranged my bangs around my face carefully. I rank my shirt over my head and change into my jeans and pull on my gloves. I had work to do, then it was time to say good bye. I slammed my door behind me and the hinges creaked unhappily. I sighed, one of these days the damn door will come straight off the wall. I headed over to my barn and brushed down my cows, Bessie and Lily. I replaced their fodder and then went over to the chicken coop. I pet Lilac and Tulip on their white little heads and scatter feed on the floor before exiting the coop.

Okay, deep breaths. I slowly made my way to the beach, my heart beating a million miles a minute. I stalled for a moment around the bend, taking deep breaths and trying to compose myself. I heard a pair of footsteps sound behind me and I turned around and spotted Muffy and Griffin coming towards me with a small wrapped gift in their hands. Muffy lit up when she spotted me and she rushed forward to give me a gentle hug.

"What are you doing?" she asked, her green eyes lighting up with curiousity.

I took a deep breath, "I'm coming to say good bye to... Kai and …. Popuri." I chocked out, tears developing in my eyes.

A sympathetic look formed on both of their faces, "I know this is hard. I can't believe that asshole played you like that." Griffin said in a venomous tone and I smiled slightly.

"Thanks. That means a lot." I took another deep breath and sighed, "Well, let's get this over with."

Muffy sided beside me and Griffin took my other side. We all walked to the beach and once we turned the corner, the image I saw took my breath away. Kai was leaned against his food stand, his bandana askew and his shirt unbuttoned. Popuri was in his arms, her hair a mess and enthusiastically kissing Kai. I gasped and the two broke apart in shock. Tears formed in my eyes and I could have sworn my heart broke all over again. Kai looked at me in panic, his mouth gaping as if to explain what I was seeing, and Popuri was grinning.

I broke into a sprint towards my home and I heard a shouted "Wait!" from somewhere behind me, but I didn't slow down. I made it to my house somehow and I slammed the door behind me. I threw myself against the floor in front of it and sobbed into my lap. I pounded my fists against the wooden floor and knocked my head back against the door.

"Why? Why did you make me fall in love with him? Answer me that!" I screamed in frustration at the empty air and a fury of knocks pounded at my door.

"Jill, please let me in!" Muffy yelled to me while Lumina yelled, "Jill, honey please let us in."

"No! Go away!" I yelled back to them, my voice watery and unclear.

A soft knock landed on the door next, "Jill, will you please let us in? We want to help you." Celia begged me and I sighed and moved away from the door.

The girls all settled around me and Ceila pulled me towards her, "It's okay. Shh." she crooned and I struggled to stop crying.

All of the girls took turns bad mouthing Kai. Muffy said "He should be the one crying! I mean, look at what he lost!" and Lumina joked "If I were a guy, I would so do you!" and Celia told me "You will find someone much better than that piece of crap player. You deserve better than him." By the time everyone finished, I was laughing instead of crying.

I wiped the last tear from my face and smiled, "Thanks. I don't know what I would do without you all." I told them happily and everyone group hugged me.

"It's no problem. No one messes with the Forget-Me-Not Valley girls. We stand up for each other." Celia said proudly and we all broke out into giggles.

Everyone ushered out of the house and I was about to close the door when Lumina hesitated, "Are you sure you are okay?" she asked me quietly.

"I'm not entirely sure, but I'll be okay. I'll see you tomorrow." I told the small girl and she waved and I shut the door behind her.

I sighed and looked around at my small home. It was modest and quaint, but there's nothing wrong with that. Of course, I had no kitchen, bathroom, or shower but so what? I had essentials, like a bed and calender, and... well that's about it. I sighed and sunk to the floor. What had my life come to? I never should have moved to this damn Valley! I was doing so good before this. I had a nice ranch, a loving family, friends who would die for me, and look at me now. I had nothing, except a piece of crap house and a broken heart. I doubt even my cows would protect me from a robber. A tear fell form my eyes and I didn't fight it anymore. It was to tiring to fight for so long.

Why did he chose her and not me? Am I that bad to be around? My heart feels like it's been place into a met grinder and chopped up into small bits and mashed together again. Its still the same substance, but it doesn't fit together anymore. Some pieces are to small, some to big, and some are missing. He was my life, and now he's gone and he's happier than he was with me. Someone once told me, "If you really love someone, you will want the best for them." I love him, I really do, but I feel like what's best for him is to be with me. Why can't I have my way?