"Urg." I said to the night itself as I walked around the court yards surrounding the academy's walls. As I entered a clearing I noticed sobs and slight screams coming from behind a large tree, I quickly went to see what was going on and was unpleasantly shocked to see him. He was crouched down as if to hide out of shame. Then I saw the cause of his screams... he was clawing the skin off his arm, hurting himself, and driving me crazy with the scent of his delicious blood...

"Kuran-Kaname!" I shouted grabbing his "good" arm and yanking him onto his feet but he immediately collapsed back into the trees' trunk. He looked up at me in pain both physical and emotional. I now saw the tears in his eyes that matched in time with the sobs he now so desperately tried to hold back.

"Why are you doing this?! WHY?!" I screamed as slammed his body against the trunk trying to knock some sense into him, failing apparently.

"You would never understand." he managed to get out, shaking his head, as he was over taken by loud, almost painful sounding, sobs. I looked in his eyes and saw a part of Kaname I'd never before seen. Someone softer was inside him and had finally showed himself.

"I might," I said letting his arm go and allowing him to slide down the trunk,

"if you tell me." I said following him down. "But Kaname, you have no reason to hurt yourself, none" I added.

"Why do you say that?" he asked as if he didn't know

"Because," I started, a little pissed by his ignorance "You have a beautiful girlfriend, money, power, fear, and respect, everything anyone would kill for... and yet here you are. I ask again, please answer, why are you doing this?" I repeated he stopped sobbing if only to say.

"Because, I don't want any of that!" he paused to sniffle and sob "Because there is only one thing I want in this world and I will never have it!"

"What is it?" I asked frantically "I'm sure whatever it is-" but he cut me off

"It's not a thing! He's a person!" He he said he. Kaname is- "Yeah, I'm gay, laugh it up."

"Look at me." I lifted his chin "Do you see me laughing." I said sympathetically. WAIT! Did I just touch him? Why am I doing this? Why was I relieved when he said I'm gay? I couldn't stop myself, I just had to know who he was.

"Who is he?" I asked of the broken man in front of me.

"It doesn't matter, he hates me... He hates me!" he said and sobs and cries got louder. He lifted his hand to the other to begin the masochism again. NO I cried with mind and then with my voice.

"NO! Stop it!" I screamed slapping him across the face. Oh how I hated to hurt him like that but I COULDN'T watch him do that again. Not again. He stared at me, shocked as I sank down to the grass as I began to cry a little pleading with him.

"Please stop." I whispered "Please... don't do that again and please don't make me watch as you cry and I am helpless to end it. Tell me that there is something I can do to end your suffering, something... anything... I can't bear to see you cry...... In any case please tell me who he is so that can tear him apart for making you feel this way? Please.. What is his name?"

"His name is Zero-sama" he said as he hung he head. Me? Me?ME? Me! And said Zero-sama.

"You want me? I'm the only thing you want? Wait- You think I hate you?-" I took his face in my hands and grazed his cheek with the knuckles of my fingers and leaned in my lips to his ear.

"I DO NOT hate you." I whispered "I'm so sorry I made you think that but Oh Kaname-sama if you only knew how much I love you." I leaned back to study his perfect face. His expression was riddled with confusion, followed by immense joy he leaned over and squeezed me tightly. But this embrace was short lived as soon as he touched me he screamed and retreated grasping his torn up arm. He threw curses at the wind. I once again felt the hunger rage within but dare not show him that. Instead I removed a piece of my shirt and tied around his arm.

"Here, this will help." I offered.

"It's okay, really," he winced which invited me to do it anyway "I'm fine." he pressed.

"No, it's not, you can't justify hurting yourself just because you like someone-" he cut me off yet again, (Thankfully because I didn't even believe what I'm about to say)

"You're wrong, Zero-sama I justify this because I thought I would be cursed to survive forever without the one I love. Yes... Zero I love you."