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A/N- So, there's this fic challenge, where you put your music player on shuffle, and write a drabble for each song that comes on, within the time that it takes to play. I made my own spin on it, in which I write one drabble per emotion, and write it in the time it takes to play the song I associate with that emotion. So I apologise if any of it seems rushed, I only had a few minutes in which to write most of them.
Drabble #1- Acceptance (Even If It Kills Me-Motion City Soundtrack)
It happened to more people than she cared to think about. Sometimes the numbers and statistics would sneak in, and just sat in the pit of her stomach, making her feel sick with the weight of it all.
But she could turn it off. She had that power. The victims, they were the ones who had the never ending memories following them through their lives. They had to go to therapy, and needed a lot of time to heal. Olivia? All Olivia had to do was have a few drinks, or take a bubble bath, or pop in a movie. Go out with her friends. She may have had to carry some of the victims' emotions while she worked on a case, but her day had an end.
At least...it used to.
Sealview happened.
And she lost her "off switch". As much as she tried to flip it, to tell herself and everyone else that she was okay, she could deal with it, she wasn't okay. She couldn't deal with it. There weren't enough drinks, movies or hot water to rid her of what had almost happened there. It bothered the hell out of her, losing herself to something that hadn't even happened, so she didn't deserve to be feeling these emotions, that was something reserved for the real victims.
But she was a real victim. Just as much as any one of the manila folders holding the worst moments of a person's life, that were filed away in the precinct. Just as much as any case she was handed. Victim. That was her. Only, she refused to accept it.
She had to accept what had almost happened to her. What had happened to her.
And then she could move on.