Chapter 1: Begone.

"Once upon a time, I was born in a quasi-limbo space. I grew up as marionette; and I will die as a 'marionette'. For I am not in myself- I am pented. I feel my life's everyday in 'hell'. Burning, pained all the time."

[Nagisa's POV]

(Another day starts to shine again. Another mistake, another chance, all things are recent except for me. Then, I woke up. I opened the windows and feel the morning breeze. Inhale, exhale then, I began to demean and premeditate for school. I took the shower and organized my stuffs before I alight down in parlor.)

"Good morning, mom…"

"You seemed a bit early today, Nagisa. I'm still preparing your breakfast. Is there anything that made you come up early?"

"E-eh… Nothing, really."

"Good morning, my dear-cute Nagisa!"

"E-eh?! I'm not cute! Stop teasing me dad!" *Pouts*

"Eh? Why are you denying? Ehehe. Okay, okay. Just don't pout at me, okay?"

"Hm… Okay… I'm sorry…"

"Sorry for what? Ahahaha. You really are unobtrusive, Nagisa-kun."

"Eh… I- I'm not!"

"Please be a good boy on us eh? Can you make dad proud?" *Grins*

"Un!"

"Alright, breakfast is ready!"

"Saa~ Nagisa-kun, so I can accompany you on your way to school."

"Un!"

(That time, we are all happy. Just a normal and prevalent family. As the days pass by, I feel like my life's wind is changing… I have no idea; but I felt a strange feeling about my family… I strained myself to not to think about it that much but as time is elapsing, the strange feeling never fades… I wish this one is just nothing… Like a wind…)

"Are you nervous, Nagisa-kun?"

(And my mind's transiency lost when dad starts to break the unusual 'awkward' silence between us. As I glimpse on him- I saw an illusion…)

"Eh- Eh- Ah, iya~ ah, w-what did you say dad?"

"Eh? Are you okay, Nagisa-kun? Are you feeling well?"

"Eh- ah, sorry. I just spaced up a bit- eh…"

"That's strange, huh? Is something wrong?"

"Ah, iya~ i-it's nothing dad…"

"Awww… My son's lying on his dad… Since, when did you learn to lie against me?"

"E-eh?! Ah-" (I became flustered.)

"I-I'm not lying! I- it's the truth!" *narrows*

"You know, Nagisa, we'll be late unless you enter the school beside us."

(Back then, my vision slides and I saw my school. Well, I'm a 3rd Grader- elementary in other words.)

"E-EH?! A-ah, jaa~ dad, see 'ya later!"

"Mhmmhm! Elaborate your studies, okay Nagisa?"

"Un!"

(And I my challenging day began. I seek for my room then, and took my seat quietly. Around the whole day, I was so cosh that even I, myself doesn't realize immediately. Even though, most of the students here are with me. I'm still wondering… Why did I feel that strange 'wind'?)

"Nagisa, you're spacing out. Are you okay?"

"Eh- ah, un." *Beams*

"Eeeeeeh~ Nagisa, are you really a boy?"

"Eh? Un! I am!"

"Are you blaming us? You're so cute that we can't think of you as a boy!"

"Eh- I-"

"-Show us your evidence, Nagisa!"

"Eh-"

(And there, the students strained me 'again'. I'm thinking also; why is it, my physical appearance is just like a girl? Even though, I'm a boy.)

"Everyone! Break time's done already! Go back to your seats now."

"Hai~~"

(A sigh of relief was escaped from my mouth upon hearing our adviser. Arigatou sensei, you save my life!)

- TIME SKIP : DISMISSAL -

(Finally, it's dismissal time. Most of the students are with their neither parents nor guardians already except me; waiting for my dad. Then, I feel the strange wind again. I feel something's strange… And I think this is it. My eyes widened. I saw mom, with dad together, which is 'unusual'. Moreover, my suspicions were exact. Something's might going to happen on me, as I saw my dad has a disgusted look.)

"Nagisa!"

(I heard my mom's calling me. My dad's disgusted look vanished.)

"Nagisa, how's your school? Did you do well?"

"Un! As promised!"

"Great! That's my son, Nagisa!"

"Son….."

(Upon hearing my mom's word, me and dad glimpsed on her with our orbs look inquisitively. Dad's expression reformed once again into a serious one.)

"Ah, it's nothing, Nagisa. So, want to go home now?"

"Eh, Un! I have to finish my assignments, dad. Can you help me?"

"Of course! Let's go!"

(And we walk like nothing happened. Mom and dad are talking in usual, without anything interrupting. Chuckling, teasing, the same, and the usual atmosphere surround us. With that, I try to forget first the strange feeling instead, I act normally- the usual.)

- TIME SKIP : NIGHT : HOUSE -

(Dinner has done already and all I need to do now is my homework's. I drawn out my stuffs and began working. However, before I work, I decided to have some snacks while doing my homework's. I alight through downstairs then, I pass on my parent's room before I suddenly heard dad shouting. Just like in dramas right? But the issue's a bit different when I heard my mom responds…)

"No! Nagisa's a girl! God had just mistaken on her! I'll do what I want; I will make Nagisa a girl!"

"You're totally insane! A boy straining to be a girl?! Where the hell is your brain?! No, Nagisa is a boy, and he will grow as a boy! BOY! You heard?! I said BOY!"

(I freaked out. My eyes began to unleash some tears. Why mom wants me to be a girl? So, she's aspirating for a baby girl except a boy? My mind's messed up. I do not want these things to be happened. Their dispute continues. I couldn't help but to listen. My body's froze, my ears remained open as I clearly heard their negotiation. After all, my mind's stop musing upon hearing the last words my dad released.)

"Hiromi, if you'll continue that act, then, let's divorce. I'm leaving."

('Let's divorce… Let's divorce… Let's divorce… Let's divorce… I'm leaving…')

[To be continued…]