Chapter 1

Disclaimer: I don't own LOST. All of the lyrics I'm using in this fic are from Snow Patrol.

A/N: This is set as if Kate and Sayid got back to camp, and then Jack and Juliet came a couple days later. I'm not going to get into how or why they're with the other survivors because that's not the point of the story.

I want so much to open your eyes

Cause I need you to look into mine

Kate sat outside her tent, watching the ocean. It was a view she had missed when she had been captured by the Others. She had taken it for granted and now she felt like she had taken Jack for granted as well. Before, he had always been there, she knew she could always go to him, even after it had become awkward between them. Now it was worse. They shared hellos and even talked about certain things at times, but it never was like it used to be and she had a feeling it wasn't ever going to be the same again.

"Hey."

Kate looked up to see Sawyer looking at her.

"Hi."

"This seat taken?"

Kate shook her head.

Sawyer sat down and watched the ocean with her for a few minutes.

If things were awkward between Kate and Jack, things were even more awkward between Kate and Sawyer. He hadn't made any move to mend anything with her, he had just continued to act like the same old Sawyer, and that made her angry. Not only at him, but at herself as well.

She knew part of the reason it was so hard between her and Jack now was because she knew that he knew about what she had done with Sawyer, and that made feel her so ashamed..

"So what do you make of that Juliet?"

Kate smiled. Sawyer was having such a hard time with not using nicknames. "How much longer until you can use nicknames again?"

"Tomorrow's my last day. Sun's been watching me like a hawk. You didn't answer my question."

Kate closed her eyes. Nothing could be put past him. "I don't know. She seems all right. I haven't really talked to her."

"Jack seems to be getting pretty friendly with her." Sawyer watched her reaction.

"Then I guess she's fine."

"Do you think Jack's betrayed us?" Sawyer asked.

Kate looked at Sawyer. "Do you really think that? This is Jack. He wouldn't do that."

"Didn't you say that when you first saw him he was playing football?"

"He was pretending."

"How can you be sure? He was ready to leave this island and never look back."

Kate heard laughing, and she turned to see Jack and Juliet standing over by the food pantry, making dinner together.

Jack turned to put away something, and his eyes met Kate's.

My tongue is lost, oh, I can't tell you

Please just see it in my eyes

Kate looked away. "It's Jack, Sawyer."

You could be happy and I won't know

But you weren't happy the day I watched you go.

"Don't put too much salt!" Juliet said, laughing.

Jack grinned. "Like this?" He shook the salt and Juliet grabbed his arm.

Jack stopped and their eyes met.

Juliet slowly took her hand off of Jack's arm.

Since they had gotten to this side of the island, they had gotten much closer. No one trusted Jack as much as they used to, and they didn't trust Juliet at all. No one accepted her, much like Ana hadn't been accepted, but worse.

Jack picked up the makeshift plate, and Juliet picked hers up. They walked over to a fire and sat down.

"Mmm.. boar." Jack said, staring at it.

"I've never had it."

"Of course you haven't. You've been living in a house this whole time." Jack took some of it and put it in his mouth.

Hurley walked past them then, with a wary look on his face. Juliet smiled at him, and he quickly looked away.

"How long do you think it will be before they accept me?" Juliet asked.

"You're one of them, or at least were one of them. It's gonna take a while."

"I'm getting sick of hanging around you all the time Jack. I don't want you to think that it's your responsibility to make sure I feel welcomed."

"Hey I'm not too popular with them right now either. I like being with you." Jack smiled.

"What about Kate?" Juliet asked.

"What?" Jack stared at her.

"I'm not stupid Jack. The way you two were holding hands.. what happened?"

Jack looked into the fire and Juliet watched as he became sad and distant.

"Jack?" Juliet softly put a hand on his.

Jack looked at her, as if jerked from his thoughts, and he smiled sadly. "You know what happened. She and Sawyer… I'm not.. I can't… I don't know." He sighed.

"Yeah you do."

"It's complicated."

"That's okay." Juliet really didn't want to talk about Kate anyways. Juliet was starting to have deep feelings for Jack, but she also knew that she couldn't compete with how Jack felt for Kate. "Maybe some things just have to be let go."

"Yeah." Jack looked down and put some more of the meat in his mouth.

Is it too late to remind you how we were?

But not our last days of silence, screaming blur.

The next day Kate woke up with the same sadness in her heart. It was so painful to walk around and watch Jack and know that she couldn't be with him.

She walked out of her tent and onto the beach and breathed in the fresh air. She went over to the food pantry and grabbed an apple, noticing that not a lot of people were up yet.

"Hi."

Kate turned to see Juliet grabbing a granola bar.

"Hi." Kate said quietly.

"It's really weird being here. I mean you guys have been here a while now, it must have been hard."

"Well we did find a hatch." Kate bit into her apple.

Juliet didn't miss the hostility in her voice.

"Right. So you're back to living like this again. I'll have to get used to it."

"You could go back to your houses and electricity."

Juliet shook her head. "I want a fresh start."

"And Jack offers you that."

"Hey."

Kate backed away as Jack stepped between them to grab a mango. "Mangos." He grinned at both of them, then frowned when he saw the expressions on their faces. "What's going on here?"

Kate shook her head and walked away.

"What happened?" Jack asked Juliet.

Juliet shrugged. "I'm going to go clean up." She left for her tent, which they had pitched right next to Jack's.

Jack followed Kate. "Hey. What's going on?"

"Nothing." Kate kept walking.

Are you beginning to get my point

That all this fighting with aching joints

It's doing nothing but tire us out

No one knows what this fight's about

"Kate." Jack grabbed her arm.

Kate turned around and looked at him.

"What do you want me to say Jack?"

"I don't know."

Kate put a hand to her forehead as she closed her eyes. "I can't do this Jack. I can't.. I can't handle this."

"You can't handle what?" Jack's heart started to beat faster.

"Can you really.. trust her?"

"Yeah I can."

With my

Hands open, and my eyes open

I just keep hoping

That your heart opens

"Are you happy?" Kate asked.

Jack shook his head. "Kate, I don't understand. I thought… what about Sawyer?"

"What about Sawyer? Sawyer.. he's impossible."

"What? You thought that you could just have sex with him in a cage, and as long as I didn't know you could pretend you still cared for me?"

"Jack.. they told you that?"

"They didn't have to tell me. I saw it."

Kate put a hand to her mouth as her eyes filled with tears. "Jack.."

"Hey Jack!" Juliet called him from her tent.

Jack gave Kate a final look before heading for Juliet.

I want something

That's purer than water

Like we were