All I Want
For so long,
I've forgotten what it was to feel.
I was wrong,
When I told you it wasn't real.
Shocked and torn,
I never imagined you so angry as you were then.
With my heart worn,
I left you alone to let you mend.
I cried for the first time in forever that night.
I felt the warmth on my cheeks and tried to wipe it away.
It was so wrong, that it was right.
A phrase I only had thought was a cliche.
When I ran for you,
I wanted to make it right.
I found that you had left,
Disappeared into the night.
I searched forever.
I cried out your name.
For the first time ever,
My emotions displayed on my face.
When you came back, you ignored me.
I knew it was what I deserved.
When you shut me out, you made me see,
That I could hardly fix this with words.
I saw you the next day,
Wrapped in another man.
I forced myself to turn away,
And covered my face with my hand.
I made myself go back to my normality.
I made myself become the emotionless mess
That you seemed to love back then.
Ulquiorra...
My name on your lips made me freeze,
It was hard to understand what I felt then.
I turned around and looked you in the face,
As stoic as I had ever been.
I love you.
The silence of the room engulfed me,
As my emotionless mask faded away.
I wanted to make you see,
That I really felt this way.
I love you, too.
It was hard to understand,
The sharp turn of the things I needed,
When suddenly everything became you.
Grimmjow...
I tried not to cry as you held me,
And I realized what I needed to do.
I lifted my head, pressed my lips to yours...
All I want is you...