Whispers of the Heart 1: Autumn Lullaby
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Summary:
"It shouldn't feel this way. He's someone I can't ever obtain. So why won't my heart let go? Did he have to be my brother?"
"I want to live. I want to run and laugh and do the things everyone else takes for granted. I want to be brave enough to love. But can I really if something like that will never work out? If I'll never really get a chance to have it for eternity what's the point of having it at all?"
Dark has a Problem something that he's had to suffer through most of his life. There's someone he likes. But if he pursues it the ramifications are just too horrible to consider. He knows it's wrong but his heart won't let go. He's trapped and he doesn't know what to do…
What would you do…?
Daisuke wants Things, lots of Things. Things like running, laughing, having fun, finding love and enjoying everything life could offer a teenager but he can't have them. They were stolen from him and now everyone treats him like a fine crystal – fragile and deathly beautiful. He's trapped and he wants out. He wants to find something precious before time runs out.
But will he find it in time… or will he lose it before he can reach it…?
Warnings: RAPE RAPE RAPE… No only joking. Normal stuff. Alternate Universe, BXB, Fluff and Waffles with some tasty Sweet Syrup on the side… Maybe. -_-;
Notice: Read the A/N at the end please it would help a lot.
Autumn Lullaby
Chapter 1: Innocent Rain
To me the day felt like it had been going on forever. I knew school could be a bore – I understood that having suffered through it for the last eighteen years – but there was just something different about the day that made it seem like it was dragging on and on. The cloudy skies didn't improve the mood and anyway the subject I was trapped in was Maths so I guess it couldn't be helped. Listening to the teacher drone on about quadratic functions and calculus was steadily becoming too much of a chore that I had to find a distraction. So I did the only sensible thing a teenager my age would do, I looked out the window overlooking the school field. I knew from my timetable that class 1-A was having a P.E class on the field and I couldn't really pass up the opportunity to see Daisuke running around like a crazy person.
My younger brother liked being stubborn even after Mom told him he shouldn't push himself too much. It was like he needed to prove something to everyone; it was kinda cute, in a way. As I scanned the field for Daisuke it began to rain and I was quickly distracted by all the other students scrambling around like startled ants trying to find shelter. Almost everyone ran to the nearest shelter escaping the pitter-patter of raindrops laughing with their friends. I had to admit it was fun watching them and it provided a distraction from the boring math class I was having. I even chuckled under my breath as a few of them slipped on the mud puddles that had formed, my brother's classmates can be quite entertaining when they weren't pestering me.
Casting my eyes back out on the field trying to catch I tried to catch sight of Daisuke but couldn't find him anywhere. I had just about given up and assumed that he had already taken shelter when a brilliant flash of red caught my eye. Off on the other end of the school field a student with startling red hair was sitting idly in the rain, hands outstretched to catch the falling raindrops. I let out a sigh of irritation as I got up from my seat causing the teacher to stop her lecture. The teacher took one look outside before she knowingly shook her head, "Okay you're excused Dark Mousy, but next time tell that brother of yours' that he needs to take better care of himself."
"Will do Miss Yanagi," I answered, flashing my killer smirk and giving an offhand salute to the teacher before running out the classroom.
It took a while to find Daisuke again having lost the advantage of the second floor view from the classroom. But when I reached him I found him in the same place when I first saw him – eyes closed with his hands stretched out. By then the light shower started to get harder so I brought an umbrella along. Silently I crept up to Daisuke trying not to disturb him before taking a seat in the step above him, unfolding the umbrella in the process. Daisuke was quite for a while with his hands stretched out, before he placed his hands close to his mouth and drank the rainwater that collected in his palm. He sighed before opening his eyes and tipping his head back to look at me.
"Hey," Daisuke smiled.
"Hey back attcha," I replied gruffly irritated at his attitude. Daisuke let out another sigh as he picked himself up from his seat and stretched.
"You know mom told you never to be out in the rain Daisuke." I couldn't help but chastise him as Daisuke walked up the steps to sit next to me.
"Yeah, yeah I know all about what I can and can't do Dark, I don't need you to remind me every five minutes." Daisuke cut back looking out at the raindrops. "Look I just wanted some time alone and then it started to rain so I got stuck here." There was a mischievous twinkle in Daisuke's eyes when he turned away from sky gazing to look straight at my face, "And anyway I knew you'd come get me, what with your brother-complex and all."
"I don't have a brother-complex." I said through my frustration. "You need to be more aware of yourself, mom worries too much when you get sick. You know how easily you catch colds." I continued staring straight into his eye before he broke contact. There was another pregnant pause and I couldn't help but sigh. He was just too stubborn and he hated being reminded of the bad things in his life.
The silence continued before Daisuke broke it, his gaze fixed on stubbing rain. "Hey Dark… do you think you could… come with me today…? I-I just don't want to be alone with them again."
"Sure, anything you want little man," I answered instinctively. I hadn't placed much thought on it and anyway if it would help pass the time and distract Daisuke I didn't really see any point in not going.
"Thanks… I appreciate it." There was something in Daisuke's tone of voice when he said that to me, but somehow I felt lighter and the day didn't seem to drag on quite as slowly as I thought. I mean the lunch period bell could be heard ringing faintly in the distance after Daisuke's thanks. We gazed at each other for a while longer when suddenly something hit me violently on the back of the head.
Wincing in pain I turned in the direction of my assaulter and was confronted with a nightmarish sight. There before my very eyes was the stuff of every attractive male's nightmares… a fan girl. And it wasn't just any fan girl, it was the 'Fangirl' also known as Risa Harada. I stared, horrified as her features twisted into an angry scowl as her short bop hair bristled in indignation. She opened her mouth and I prepared my ears to be assaulted with an ear-splitting shriek.
"After all this time I can't believe you still can't tell us apart, Dark Mousy!" Risa shouted, but not in her shrilly fan girl banshee voice but rather her older twin sister's voice of indignation and I couldn't help but sigh heavily in my relief.
"Dammit Riku, don't scare me like that!" I shouted back annoyed at being played.
Riku just shrugged her shoulders and she sat down besides Daisuke, shooting me another glare. "It's not my fault you can differentiate between long and short hair stupid asshole. Hey Daisuke,"
"Hey Riku,"
"Well excuse me for thinking about my own safety and well being, I'll have you know it's because of your sister that I have this conditioned response!"
Unfazed by my outburst Riku ignored me as she focused her attention on Daisuke. "So anyway Daisuke, how have you been? I haven't seen you during my rounds in a while."
I growled in indignation, no one and I mean no one ignores Dark Mousy and was instantly miffed when Daisuke replied oblivious to his older brother's bruised ego. "Mom and Dad wanted me to get a check up with a specialist in the city to get a second opinion you know. The normal stuff,"
"Oh... why?" Riku asked concern set deep in her voice. Even I took a double take, I mean I knew Daisuke and our parents went to the city but I didn't know it was to get a check up. They told me they were going to let him relax for a while to take his mind off of everything.
Daisuke saw my expression and I knew right then he regretted telling Riku. Darn I thought Mom and Dad were edgy all week and now I knew the reason. They didn't tell me that Daisuke was getting worse. A frown etched deeply on my face as I processed this information. The only reason our parents would want a second opinion is if the doctor said something that troubled them. Last year it was to say that Daisuke had only three months and the year before he told them that it was incurable. So what could he have said to cause them to get another second opinion?
"It's nothing just an ordinary check up." Daisuke reassured Riku but I saw his eyes dart in my direction every chance he got trying to measure my reaction. I wanted to scoff in disbelief; there was nothing normal in getting a second opinion whenever Daisuke is involved. "Look it's really nothing and anyway I have a check up with Dr. Tenjo this afternoon so there's nothing to worry about. It's just normal procedure."
"If you're sure that's all it is…?" Riku said uncertainly and I knew what she was thinking. Even she knew something bad must have happened for Daisuke to get a second opinion.
"I'm positive so why don't we change the subject. It's lunch time and I really could do with something to eat," Quick as a flash Daisuke got up from his seat as he zipped past the students that were gathering in the field. Riku and I stared after him for awhile before we looked at each other worry etched in our features.
"Hey Dark do you know anything about what happened…?" Riku asked, she knew a little bit about my family's situation when it came to Daisuke and his condition. It was sweet of her to worry about me like that.
"No, they conveniently forgot to tell me about it. Dammit I hate it when they do that! Now I'm going to be in bad mood for the rest of the day!" I was annoyed with the way my parents behaved around Daisuke. Like he would keel over at any moment and I especially hated the way they treated me, hiding things about Daisuke's condition so that I wouldn't worry too much. But they're going about it the wrong way, all this cloak and dagger routine makes me worry more. I mean any sane person would worry if someone they love kept getting worse day by day and there was nothing they could do about it.
I've been in love with my brother every since I was old enough to remember. I know it's disgusting, it's wrong and sick, even I'm ashamed of myself and my unnatural attraction, but these are my feelings and I've been living with this guilt for the better part of my young life. There was no beginning to my obsession, it was just that one day I had a revelation and I knew I was in love. I'd always been over-protective about Daisuke even when we were in preschool. I wouldn't let any of the other kids anywhere near him and I guess my obsession to monopolize him turned into possessive love. I've tried to stop it, I went out with almost anyone who asked me hoping that I might forget about Daisuke but nothing seems to work. My parents thought it was cute the way I dote on Daisuke, they used to say I had such a brother-complex. It was a good thing they didn't pick up that it was something deeper than that or else I was screwed. They already have me in counselling sessions over Daisuke's condition, they don't need me go to therapy because I'm in love with my little brother, my blood relative.
"I really think you should talk to your parents, Dark. It would be good if you told them that they shouldn't hide things from you." I looked at Riku contemplatively before she picked herself up and dusted her skirt. She began walking off before she turned around and shouted at the top of her lungs. "I just think you would be better off without your parents having hide things from you, brother-complex. Now come on, Miss Yamagi wanted me to find you so you can get your stuff from the homeroom."
I groaned out in frustration having forgotten my missed Maths class. 'Great! I'm so going to get chewed out by the teacher big time.'
A/N: Okay I have a new story up on top of my other ones. LOL I know some of you are wondering. What! A new story what about a new chapter for your other fics. Well they are currently under way I just need to edit them and they should be ready soon, so please be patient.
This story came about after I was watching some Korean dramas. Damn them and their addictiveness. They must inject them with nicotine or something. Anyway I was watching this collection of series' that corresponded with the four seasons and I thought I had to make a fanfiction similar to it so ta da here it is. The series in question is called the Endless Lovesong and the four seasons are as follows. Autumn In my Heart, Winter Sonata, Summer Aroma, Spring Waltz. Now the plan with this fiction is to mesh every story element from most of these four seasons and make it into a four fiction series. I'm starting my version of the Endless Lovesong (dubbed 'Whispers of the Heart') with this fiction Autumn Lullaby, and then I'll progress later with the rest going from Winter Ballad to Spring Concerto to Summer Bolero.
Currently the plan is to make it a three part fiction with the last Summer Bolero being a collection of oneshot epilogue stories within the same universe. The names for the rest of the fictions are of course subject to change. Right now these are just the prototype names of the future works until I find something more suitable. I'm a little iffy about what to call them so I've been looking everywhere for the names of different types of musical composition to see what fit with my image of the seasons. If anyone has any suggestions they would be appreciated. I don't really like calling Spring 'Concerto' but it was either that or 'Minute'.
Anywho that's all I have today so Read and Review I guess and remember if you have any musical composition selection please tell me, I'm in desperate need of help.