Is it sad that I just sit here and think about him? Is it sad that I want him to be beside me right now? Or is it just stupid of me to think in such a way?

Well, that's how I feel all the time. We're really close friends but when I'm around him I feel something more. I always want to be around him at any given time but… I can never get as close as I wish to. I can never have him hold me or kiss me like he does in my thoughts. It makes me sad when I think about it. I just want to cry in my room all night because of the thought that he might not like me or guys at all-

"Italy? Are you still up?" Romano had came in asking if I wanted to come with him over Prussia's house.

"Uah… Yeah, sure. But why? Plus it's, like, 11 something p.m."

"I don't know why really. Prussia invited some people over and then Spain asked if I wanted to come. We're waiting on you, so do you?"

The phone starts to ring but I wasn't sure about getting. "… I'll be down there in a sec, okay." He went on down after I answered my phone. "Hello?" I ask. A deep voice was on the other line. Just hearing it made me shake.

"Hey, Italy. Prussia's having one of his mini-parties or whatever. Wanna come over?"

It was Germany. My heart had stop for a minute than got back on track. "Italy? Are you still there?" He asked. I can feel my mind wondering and then I snap back to reality.

"Oh! Uah… Yeah. I'm coming with Romano and Spain." I said back finding it so hard to form the words I had on the back of my mind.

"Cool, I'm glad you're coming. I'll be waiting outside for you." I can feel a tone of happiness within his voice. I start to blush and felt my body melt. "O… Okay. See you soon." I hung up the phone and whet down to get in the car.
The whole why there I was shaking and thinking a bit too much. I was so happy to see that he'll be waiting for me, but at the same time I was thinking about how to act when I see him. I also thought to myself; how he got my number if I just got my phone last week? And I never came around to ask him for his number.

We arrived at Prussia's place and there were a lot of people outside. A mini-party I thought to myself. It was hard to see Germany until I got out. He looked up from this phone and started to smile. "Hey Italy!" He waved at me, I almost thought I was going to faint. For some reason, tonight I felt different and I don't know why. I ran to him and smile. He starts to apologies about the people here and told me that Prussia invited more than he had thought.

"Come on in, I kind of want to get away from this damn party." He leads me up to his room; on the way there it was hard getting through all the people. He opens his door and a blast of cold air hit me good, I can remember stepping back a little.

"Hua? Oh, sorry about the air. I keep the A.C running a lot. Do you want me to cut it off?"

"N-no, it's fine." We go in and I get really tense and uptight. I've been in his room before but never alone. And I've been around him lot! He taps me on my shoulder and I jumped.

"Are you ok? You seem nervous about something."

"I'm fine, really. It's just…" I stopped talking. How can I tell one of my best friends that I don't feel okay about being in his room? Or, hell, being around him? God, I just wanna run!

"Just what? Is it really the A.C? Cause, you know, I can turn it off."

"No it's not the A.C, really. It's… It's just… I don't know." I sat down on his bed, thinking as he came to sit right beside me. Germany had seen that I was crying before I can recognize it myself. I can feel his arms wrapped around me. My heart had stopped once more.

"Italy, please tell me what's wrong. I hate to see you like this. I want to help you." The way he was holding me was like I was like I was in my dream. But I never cried in those dreams… Or in my thoughts… I know I shouldn't be crying like this.

"I'm… I'm okay… Germany. I keep telling you that nothing's wrong"

"Stop saying that. You're sitting here crying your eyes out and you're telling me you are okay."

"Look, I don't know what's wrong so I can't tell you...!" I yelled out, He looked at me hard and I felt scared. "Ger…Germany?" He moves closer to me. He pushes me down, leaning over top of me.

"W-what are doing?!"

"You won't tell me what's up so I have to make you tell me…"

He puts his hand on my chest and slowly slides it down. I start to blush like hell and my body was on fire. He starts unbuttoning my shirt and places his lips on my chest. I try to move but Germany has my hands pined. I begin to yell at him to stop but he wouldn't let up at all.

"Ger…Germany… Please stop..." I end up crying again. When he sees me face he leaned up. He pulled me up by my hand and held me closer to him. We sat there, his arms around me, him staring down at me with a really serious face.

Somehow he broke me down. I held him back and started to cry. I then tell him why I was acting so weird at first. I thought he would be shocked and tell me to get out. Instead, Germany kissed my forehead and lifted my head by my chin.

"If you really love me, will you show it?"

I froze; my heart started beating faster when he said that. "Show… You?" I ask.

"Yeah, show me. Like so…" He moved in slowly, pressing his lips onto mine. I kept my eyes open in shocked, it caught me off guard and made me wanted to push him back. However, I didn't. I just laid there and took it all in. His tongue slipped in my mouth and it felt weird at the start but soon it became much more pleasurable.

I wrapped my arms around him tighter as he got closer. I couldn't breathe but I didn't care. I wouldn't even mind if I'd died like this. Germany let up and removed his shirt, then mine. His hands were cold dud to the air around us; I shivered at every touch he gave to my chest. I let a soft moan leave my body soon after another one, and another, and another to the point where I couldn't stop.

"G…Germany." I moaned, "Germany, wait... Is it really okay to do this here? I mean, everyone's right downstairs. Anyone could just walk in-"

"The door's locked, 'member? If anyone wanted to come in they'll have to knock." He said with smirk. I sighed and nodded. Slowly, I set up and whispered in his ear if we can go all the way.

"Are you sure?" He asked. "This is your first time right? I don't think we should push it."

"Awww. Its sweat that you care but I really want this. I've been wanting for this for a long time now. I can't stand with just thinking about it."
He looks at me and asked, "You've thought about it?" My face rose up and I started to blush.

"W-well... Uammm."

He stands up and starts to laugh. This only makes me blush even more.
I had also gotten a little mad cause I thought he might have been making fun of me.

"Stop laughing…! I'm serious, Germany!"

"I'm sorry it's just, you weren't the only one." He said with a soft smiled, "Come here."

I got up and came closer. He whispers in my ear – Are you ready? – And I couldn't help but shiver. I nodded slowly and got down on my knees in front of him. Opening his fly, I can see he was already hard. Germany asks once more if I was ready. I yelled, "of course!" He pulls out a straight, throbbing length. My eyes gotten wide and my body felt heated. I take a deep breath before stroking it.

Germany moaned; I can feel his body shaking. I began to stroke faster, putting more force into it. He bites is lip to keep him from moaning louder. "Should I…?" I asked. He nodded at me, so I begin to slowly open my mouth and too in the bed of his length.

It tastes sweet and sour at the same time. I didn't like but I didn't hate it either. "I-Italy…" Germany sighed as I went deeper.

"Ah! Ugh…Ughhh…" The sounds Germany made had my stomach turning. I still kept on deep throating, though. Soon, I started gag. I release from him and began to cough. "Italy, are you okay?" He asked.

"Ugh, yeah… I'm fine. I'm sorry."

"There's nothing to be sorry about. It felt awesome." He smiles and kisses me. "Haha, this isn't over Italy. I still haven't came" A deep grin formed upon his face. It seems to scare me a little.

He lifts me up to my feet and lays me on the bed. He slowly takes off my pants and boxers. Once again, he smiled at me. Slowly, he said, "You're as hard as I was." I couldn't look at him anymore and blushed until my face was pink to red.

Germany guided my head back to him and kisses me deeply. He lifts off and tells me that this might hurt.

"I… I know. Just be genital… Please?" I said back with a worry smile. He placed two fingers on his lips, then to mine.

"… Of course." He takes his fingers from my lips and held my legs up on his shoulders, entering me slowly. I gasped and moaned, digging my nails into his back trying to take it. It really did hurt and I wanted to cry, but I thought – Haven't I cried enough? – So I stop myself and let out loud a bunch moans and groans.

He goes in deeper and starts to thrust faster. I can feel heat from between my legs. Germany's face became read as he kept to this rhythm.

"You're… Kind of tight Italy…" He says. I looked off to the side, trying to forget about it so I can focus on loosening a little bit.

"Ger…Germany! I feel like I'm a-about to cum…Ugh…"

"Don't yet. I'm not near to done."

He starts to thrust faster than before and even louder gasp came from my voice. It didn't hurt anymore, instead it felt good. It was something I wanted and finally got. "GA-GERMANY! I CAN'T HOLD IT! I… I GOTTA!"

We finally came at the same time. I shivered as the feel of cum went through me. It felt so hot, so good, I almost lost my control. He slipped out of me and placed his dick on top on mine, leaning down to lick the cum from my chest.

"How was it?" Germany asked.

"It… It was great… It hurt a bit but I liked it..." I answered, smiling at him as he smiles back. A knock came from the door, which had startled me. Germany held my hand for a second. He got up, fixed his pants, and then went to get the door.

He slightly cracked it. "Yeah?" It was a girl at the door. He seems to look as she was the same age as Prussia… Maybe.

"Duuuuude! You gotta come downstairs! Yo bro is, like, sooo fucked up. Dude's singin', and dancin', and a bunch of shit with Frannie, and Tonnie. It's so damn funny. C'on."

"Ugh, yeah I'll be down in minute."

"Sheeeeet, you might miss sum'em, bruh."

When she left he closed the door and came back over. Germany set beside me and pulls the covers over us. "Hua? I thought you was gonna go and see the show?" I began to ask. Again, he put his two fingers over his lips and then on mine.

"Why? I rather be here, with the person I love." He said softly, slowly moving closer to give me a passionate kiss.

It was one of my favorite nights ever from last year. I couldn't get it out of my head; Therefore, I wrote it down. Germany and I had other romantic times within a year, but this… This was the best out of all of them. I had gotten to hold Germany like I dreamed and he held me back. I got to go all the way with him like I dreamed. And now, now we're more than friends, more than best friends. We're lovers. And I'm glad for that.