Tortured Dreams
An Uncontrol Project
By ArmorGod
What has happened to everyone? Omi has turned to Schwartz. What the hell is with that? Aya is being Aya. Yohji doesn't want to accept reality. We have to kill Omi. It sucks, but that's what we have to do. Why is it so hard for Yohji to accept? He got pissed because I can accept it, but why shouldn't I? Maybe he needs to shed some emotions too.
Emotions. They almost got me killed. Granted, they did lead to the transformation at my core. The new me. I could have taken Schuldig and Omi out. I had my claw under Omi's chin. One simple thrust up and it would have been over. As for Schuldig, I should have aimed higher and taken his heart. I could have ended this all right then. Hindsight is 20-20. I won't make the same mistake again. Schuldig likes to make people hurt. I made him hurt. I liked it!
Who is next? I like the idea of Farferello going down next. Or maybe Crawford. Nagi, I think he can live. He's young enough that maybe he can change. Who knows, I might want to recruit him for Weiss. We'll have to see. It's amazing how the world is changing. Two weeks ago were nothing new, but now Omi is the enemy and then you have Eden in the picture.
Eden, what am I to do about you? I can kill you if I have to, I just pray that I don't have to. Why DID you leave Rot? It surely wasn't for me, although I really wished that it were. Was it Aya? Does he know? Did he do anything to encourage it? I hope I know the answer to that one. If I can't trust Aya with a woman, then how can I trust him with my life? I don' t want to kill him, but it's not like I would lose sleep over it either.
It was just a few days ago that I was bitching about how I wanted out. I don't think that way any more. I just want what is mine. I want Eden too. She'll see that she should be with me. I'll just deal with things as they come and destiny will take care of the rest. If she doesn't love me after that, so what. She's just a woman. I'm done letting myself get led around by the balls just because she is the single most beautiful woman I have ever met.
Schuldig is another anomaly I'll have to deal with. What is his deal? He says that he was giving me pleasure to annoy me. He knows that his mere existence is an annoyance to me. Why give me pleasure? Personally I think that he wants something more than to annoy me or even to kill me. He wants to break me. It won't happen. I'm too much for him now. He's really nothing more than a bother, a pimple that needs to be popped to be erased from memory forever. He's going to be fun to kill. I may not want emotions much, but that will be one joyful exception.
Farferello is the last to worry about. How do I hurt a man that doesn't feel pain? This will be interesting. Injuring him is possible, but hurting him isn't. I think I have it. As he lay there bleeding to death, I could always tell him that I am god, just before his life fades away. That will certainly be fun.
So much to do and to think about. The world is going to have to deal with the new Ken, like it or not!