Dear Jacob;

I need to write you this because… I can't say it to your face I am too afraid of what you'll say. You've been there ever since… he left, and through that time I've felt something I never felt with Edward, it was a warming in my chest, the warm feeling spread right throughout my body; it took me a long time to realise what that was, it was my heart, the emotions, the feelings I felt for you. You're my sun Jacob, my light, my rock, my shoulder to cry on, my best friend… You're everything I need in this life.

I've be spending all my time thinking about you, every moment I get it you who surrounds my mind. When we were inside your garage last week, you wrapped your arms around me when I told you about the nightmares that had been plaguing my existence. It was the first time since I moved to Forks that felt right at home, at ease... It was almost as if being in your arms was my refuge, my safe house, my home; it was the place I knew I would always want to be. I don't know what happened in those arms of yours but I know I want to feel that every single day.

Jacob, I guess that what I am trying to say is that I am in love with you. I love everything about you, how you're so kind and considerate when it comes to my feelings, or anyone else's for that matter. One thing I know for certain is that I don't want to be away from you… ever. I understand if you don't return any of these feelings, especially when I've been denying you for about a month or so. Love isn't simple, it's never easy; but without you anywhere in my life I wouldn't be able to breathe; I'd feel so dead inside. So if I told you now that I thought you and I were meant to be… Would you agree? Or would just think I am some crazy self-centred girl who doesn't know a thing about love?

I love you so much Jacob Black, without you in my life there would be no sunny days, no clear skies. The world would always be raining down on me. Whenever I felt sadness, you were the first person I came to because I knew I could trust you, I knew you wouldn't tell me to suck it up and grow a pair. You listened, you understood me.

Bella.

That was the letter in my hands at this very moment as I stood in front of his house in the pouring rain, deciding on whether or not I should give it to him, it was the letter that would change everything… for the better; or for the worse. This very letter held all of my feelings, the vulnerability of my heart. Swallowing the pit of doubt inside my stomach I walked up those three steps that lead to man inside that stole my heart.

"Bella" Said the familiar smouldering voice behind me, the sound made the drums in my heart pound in an untimely rhythm. "Bella, what in god's name are you doing out here, it's raining like crazy and there is a storm on the way" He had a hand on my shoulder as he looked down into my eyes in anger. "Bella, you're freezing."

"I came to give you this." I mumbled in a shy whisper, putting the envelope in his hands. "Please, just read it. I have to go now; Charlie will be getting worried. Goodnight Jake" He opened his mouth but I shook my head, taking in his appearance; he had changed in so many ways. His long, beautiful, glossy hair had been cut short, a tattoo laced his left arm and his eyes… his eyes had changed from child-like to a manly stance. "Jacob, you've changed." I mumbled surprised. "What the hell happened to you? You cut your hair off… and you got a tattoo." How could he have changed that much in less than a week?

"Bella… We can't be friends anymore." Those 6 words broke my heart, twisted it… "It's not you"

"It's not you, it's me right?" By this time I caught sight of 3 men behind us, in the comfort of the woods, watching intently like they were hearing every single word Jacob and I said to each other. "Why Jacob, tell me the truth I don't want to hear a lie" Something inside him snapped as he glared at my shivering body.

"Because Bella. I. Don't. Want. To" he emphasised. "I don't want to be your doormat, the guy you go to just for comfort, to fix you; you're not a car Bella, you can't be fixed; you're too broken!" And for a second I captured a look of the old Jacob; but the old Jacob had sadness in his eyes, a longing look as he saw the tears well up in my eyes. "Goodbye Bella… I'm sorry" I watched as he shoved past me walking inside his house and slamming the behind me.

I let a small sob escape my lips… He didn't love me back; he was going to read that letter and then laugh in my face telling me how stupid I was to believe that he might actually have feelings for me too. The rain was starting to pick up as I made a feeble attempt back to my car; timing my footsteps in case I lost my balance and fell flat on my face.

"Why doesn't anybody want me?" I wept as I started the car, driving away from Jacob Black. Who could want you? You're broken beyond repair; nobody want's Edward's leftovers. That's all you are, sloppy leftovers. I stopped the car on the edge of the border when my tears were too much. I cried and cried until there were no more tears left to shed, my sobs overpowering the sounds of rain pelting down on the rooftop of my car.

"Bells, where on Earth did you get off to?" Charlie asked in a serious voice as he flicked through the pages of the newspaper. "There is a storm; it's too dangerous to- Bella, what's wrong?" When he saw my tear-stained expression he got out of his seat and placed a hand on my shoulder. "What happened, Bells?"

"Nothing dad, I'm fine" I sniffed walking past him.

"Bella, you're not fine. You've been crying, you're sopping wet and you look like the dead" He huffed, looking into my eyes expectantly. "Now what's wrong?"

"I just don't want to talk about it. Dad, please just leave it." Before he could open his mouth I said "It's not about Edward, in case you were wondering" I walked past him, trying to hold in the tears that were threatening to escape. "I-I I'm going to ta-take a sho-wer d-ad" I sobbed as I walked past him, sliding my fingers through my damp hair.