Sometimes when you're alone you try to make him happy, try to make him stop frowning and maybe even have one of those little uplift of lip corners that looked so much better on him than the ever constant furrowed eye brows that were sure to give him premature wrinkles, though you were pretty sure that neither of you thought about wrinkles, so it shouldn't even be getting mentioned. Because you love him dearly and don't want him to be angry or sad anymore
You know you will never get a full blown grin from and you know he will never be all joyful and carefree, he isn't Feferi or Nepeta and you don't want him to be either, it makes you sad to think that the witch had been killed by the prince and thoughts on the rogue make you feel so guilty because you killed her with no mercy and she was your friend and you don't know why you killed, you can't remember much of the why's from when you apparently went crazy. When you start thinking too much you start panicking, you think maybe you are losing your mind again and you don't wanna kill any of your friends again, Karkat will make those soft shushing noises that are so calming and will gently hold you and rock you until you stop your pathetic panicking and you start to feel just like your old self again, at least until you start thinking again.
And sometimes, when the universe has enough miracles to spare, when you try to make your moirail happy and you start babbling about pointless and stupid random things like you used to, Karkat will smile softly and gently pap your painted cheek, the one that isn't covered by scratches, he will lean against you and you will both fall into a sort of distant sleep until the nightmares begin.
You are Gamzee Makara and things are healing. There are still miracles to be discovered.
Bwaa, the original moirail fluff I planned for the 'Sometimes when you're alone...' prompt. Not as cute and fluffy as I would have liked, but meh, better than the original one I wrote with this prompt. I'm starting to really like writing these 8D