A heart filled with scars

Summary: How bad can things get, when all you do is look from afar and try to stop the undying pain in your chest. SasuNaru.

Pairing – SasuNaru, KakaIru, may also have others.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto.

Rating – M (it probably will contain lemon later on)

Chapter 1

He loved her very much, and so did she. They were very cute couple, they looked perfect together and everyone thought so too, so no matter how much I loved him, I could never tell him because she was like a sister to me and if I had said anything it would have hurt them both, so I hid myself behind the façade of best friend and I made sure that no one ever finds out what I really feel, well no one except Shikamaru, who somehow found out, I wonder why I was surprised when he asked me about it, he is too smart for his own good.

I watched Sasuke from afar, the looks he gave her when he first come back to the village after we both defeated Madara, the way she looked at him when he wasn't looking, him asking her out, they…moving through the village holding hands, kissing… almost all the time while we were waiting for Kakashi, making me curse him for his lateness, or myself for my shattered heart. Soon I found out that other people were finding out about those painful feelings of mine, Kakashi and Iruka tried to tell me that I should move on, that Sasuke would never look at me in the way I wanted him to and I knew they were right but it seems that my heart doesn't like to listen to either me or anyone else. I remember their engagement, the way their eyes shinned with happiness, her asking me to be their best man and him nodding with a smile, I said yes of course, she smiled and hugged me and he nodded at me in silent thanks. I remember her telling us she was pregnant and how happy they looked about it, he showed emotions that only she could make him show, and in that moment I wished it was me, but I knew it would never happen.

Three weeks from that day something happened…

Tsunade-baa-chan got a signal that around the border of the fire country a group of 3 shinobi was seen, they were apparently missing-nins and I, Neji, Kiba, Lee and Sakura were send to find them and either bring them to Konoha or kill them.

We found them quickly and I, Neji and Kiba fought against them while Lee stood close to Sakura on the other side of the battlefield, he was supposed to protect her and she was ready to heal anyone of us.

We won the fights and tied up the three missing-nins and we were just turning to go to Sakura and Lee but when we turned we saw Lee being thrown around two foots in front of us and the new guy had a kunai to Sakura's throat. Our eyes widen and we all made a move to go at him but he moved his kunai closer to her throat, making small drops of blood fell and we stopped in our tracks. She looked scared and put a hand on her stomach and it made my heart clench in worry.

"Untie my friends or the girl dies!" The new guy said and he sounded too serious, so we did what he asked, but just when his teammates came close to him he smirked and cut Sakura's throat. I remember the horror in her eyes and the pain in my chest. We attacked, I made a quick Rasen-Shuriken and hit the guy who had hurt Sakura, he was still smirking even when he was dying… that smirk and face I would never forget it. After killing him I went to her side. I tried using Kyuubi's chakra to heal her but it was too late. In matter of second she died in my arms. We all cried, right there, right then. I wished I could move through time so I could go back and save my little sister, sadly I didn't posses such a power.

We went back to the village, going to the hospital to leave the body for examination and then we went to the Hokage to leave our report. We all had puffy red eyes and Tsunade understood immediately and then her face filled with horror and pain and tears started falling down her cheeks.

"Who wants to tell Sasuke?" She asked and I looked at the ground, trying to lessen the pain but with no effect.

"I should tell him, we were in the same team once upon a time, it should be me, the one to tell him." I murmured, I tried to think what pain he would feel to lose the person he loves the most and his unborn child, and I regretted saying it should be me telling him, 'cause I didn't want to see the pain in his eyes, but it was too late, I already said it and it looked like everyone thought it was a good idea.

Not much later I found myself in front of his door. He opened it and his eyes filled with horror only from looking at my face. I told him everything and then I moved to touch his shoulder but he jerked back and then he glared at me with hate. He hit me once and it send me flying backyard, I fell and he was over me in a second, hitting me again and again, talking while doing so, I guess his word were the reason I didn't fight back, and he needed to venture his pain on anyway.

"WHY? WHY? WHY?" he yelled, then he fell quit for a second. "You let her die on purpose didn't you?" He yelled at me, his hits going stronger. "You wanted her place that much, that you saw the opportunity and let her die! I wish the one who died there was you, demon!" He yelled and my eyes, which were purple by now, widened as much as possible. I tried to say something but his hits didn't give the opportunity to do so. I felt myself slip and the last things I saw before I passed out was Kakashi catching Sasuke's hands so he wouldn't hit me anymore.

Next thing I know I was waking up in the hospital, feeling like I had been in hell, in seconds my mind were filled with the memories of the last time I was awake. The wounds that Sasuke gave my body were nothing compared to the pain I felt in my chest, dying would feel so less painful than this. Right then I thought that dying was a good idea, he wished me dead anyway, and then I heard steps coming closer to my room and I did the first thing that came to mind, I used hiraishin to teleport, ending on Yondaime's head. I looked at the village and I wondered what should I do? Should I listen to the voice of my heart which just wanted to die right now, should I try to keep on living like nothing has happened, like I have done so many times before, or should I just leave and begin a new life somewhere else. I did not know, but then going to Whirlpool sounded like the best idea. I summoned a little toad and wrote a quick message to Tsunade, telling her that I didn't feel like staying in Konoha any longer; saying that she can make me a missing-nin if she wishes, because I didn't care anymore.

Next thing I know I was heading toward Whirlpool, hoping to find at least a little happiness there.

Sorry about the sad ending, but imagine writing while listening Ishtar – Horchat Hai Caliptus…

This story had been running through my mind for about 2 maybe 3 months and i finally decided to publish it. It will probably be 3 chapters long and the next chapter is almost ready, probably will be out by the end of the next week.

Hope you like it and please review ^_^

Until next time...