First attempt in the grey's anatomy world of fanfiction. I hope you like it, i have 13 more chapters of it, written for a long long time, but i don't really know if I should continue this. Please, don't forget to give me some feedback on it!

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xkickedpuppy

Callie was exhausted. Physically, mostly, but she was tired of being always the second option. She didn't think it was a good idea to keep looking for the right person anymore. Maybe it wasn't supposed to happen and she was just cheating on fate every time she got into a relationship. Yeah, fate was definitely punishing her because of it.

She took another sip of her drink. It was strong; it had to be, because she'd rather forget about her fate and just drink it off. She had her raven hair tied up in a ponytail and didn't have any make up on. If fate didn't want anything with her, why would she keep trying?

It was so damn cold, even inside the bar, so she had her leather jacket on. From the place she was sitting (or hiding), she could see everything happening around her, but it was hard for people to see her. 'Good for them', she thought. 'At least they won't ruin their nights by seeing someone so...' she stopped, feeling tears coming up to her eyes again. She just couldn't stop crying, and it bothered her.

She resumed observing. It was a quiet night at the bar, and her friends from work were probably far from there. She thanked the leave she had just taken, because she was a badass ortho surgeon, she couldn't be seen like that if she wanted to be respected, right?

Callie saw a lot of couples slow dancing, all those happy people, all those perfect dates at Christmas' Eve. Why had she never found one? Tears started coming up her face again, but this time there was no way of stopping them. She crossed the bar, still trying to hold her tears as much as she could, surely turning some faces towards her as she passed by. 'Am I not enough? Why do these things happen to me? What did I do to deserve this?' were her only thoughts as she slammed the door shut and ran to the sink.

She looked at herself in the mirror, still asking herself those questions. She started sobbing this time, despite trying to handle all the crying the best she could. The brunette tried washing her face, but that was just useless. Things were getting worse when a blonde woman entered the bathroom.

"You don't have to come with me, you know, I'm not running away this time, I already told you that!" she said to someone outside of the bathroom, before slamming the door shut once again. Callie, trying not to get noticed, washed her face again, trying to hide the fact that she was crying. Not that the blonde would care. But trying not to get noticed was almost habit now. Of course, she failed miserably one more time, getting more sobbing as she realized why she was there in the first place.

"Hello, I'm Arizona... Robbins." the blonde said, as she looked at Callie through the mirror. Callie smiled, because the blonde didn't ask why she was crying or looked at her like she was the weird girl that ate her hair or something like that.

"I..." she tried to speak, but her voice failed her. She cleared her throat. "I am Callie. Callie Torres, hi."

"Sorry but... I saw you crying, in the corner of the bar. In fact, I have been watching you, but I think you were looking kinda bad, you know... I say a girl like yourself shouldn't cry over anyone, so I just wanted to let you know that no matter what it is, it'll get better, I promise you." Arizona said, offering the brunette a smile, touching the small of her back while Callie was still supporting herself on the sink.

"I just... Sorry, but I am in fact crying over someone. Actually I'm crying over my life... It just sucks so much"

"You know... The talk is good. Maybe if you talk to me, you'll find a positive side of your situation... I'm no specialist but, erm, well I'm a surgeon... ahm, what do you do?" the blonde asked

"I'm a surgical resident... I... recently got divorced, he cheated on me. Then I kind of moved on, you know? Got over it, But then... then she also left me" The brunette started sobbing again.

"I.. I don't understand..." Arizona said, giving her a confused look.

"What?" Callie asked.

"You... I don't understand why someone would just go and cheat on you. Are you annoying? Boring? Because obviously there is no way they are looking for someone more beautiful than you. No way. Are you not good in bed?" she stopped, realizing what she had just said. "No, sorry, that was rude" Callie laughed

"No, it's okay. I mean, I'm obviously not good enough in bed, if you consider the fact that my husband had to go around looking for another woman. And, well... This friend. Girlfriend. I don't think she found me annoying. As a matter of fact, she said I wasn't lesbian enough for her, whatever that meant... And then she left me. And now I'm crying because the world just don't want me to have someone, and I think I don't deserve it. I mean, I used to pray everyday and stuff. And now I'm just being punished because I don't do stuff like that anymore;" Tears threatened to fall from Callie's eyes as she vocalized her deepest thoughts.

"Callie is a short for what?" Arizona asked, catching Callie by surprise, changing completely the subject.

"I won't tell my name to a strange in the bathroom. I hate my name."

"Oh, please Callie" she said, giving her big puppy eyes and a pout. "Tell me". There was no way she could say no to that face, she thought.

"Calliope. I know, it's a horrible name, I just hate -"

"It's beautiful, really." Arizona stated. The blonde grabbed Callie's hands on her own, forcing the brunette to look in her eyes as she was talking.

"Calliope, listen to me. I had this chance with this girl once. She loved me, but I messed it up. I didn't love her, I can tell now, but she is kind, lovely and cared about me. She left me, and she had a reason to, and I realized that my life was sad without someone. Without her, I mean. She gave me a second chance, and I care about her, you know?" she said, calmly "What I'm trying to say is that life can give you a second chance. You just have to keep looking, don't give up. And you are just too beautiful to cry over someone. Nobody is worth your tears, I promise you. Now, I should probably get back to her, otherwise she is calling the cops... Hope to see you around more, and with a smile on your face, of course." Arizona said, giving Callie a dimpled smile. The brunette smiled back, tentatively.

"Thank you" she mouthed, wiping off a single tear that was still on her face. The blonde got out of the bathroom, with a sad face, and minutes later, so did Callie. The brunette soon left the bar, knowing that staying there would just bring memories that she didn't want to have anymore. She quickly laid in her own bed, in her own apartment, just like every other day. Only this time she was alone. She hugged a pillow and soon fell asleep.

Please, review! I'd love to continue this but I don't really know if I should.