Tie off the tourniquet; stem the bleeding

Dull the pain, I can't think through this

Someone screaming inside me

Where is my soul hiding?

Lie awake, listening

Never be caught unwary

Demons lurk in the dark,

Waiting to devour me

And I wait for the fire

To fall from the sky, fall on me

Only me between you and all the dark

The danger is in your head

But it's not all in my mind

Life is frightening, a feat just to live

And I'm wondering,

Do I have to?

Tie off the tourniquet; stem the bleeding

Dull the pain, I can't think through this

Someone screaming inside me

Where is my soul hiding?

And all I remember is loneliness,

I cannot feel a mother's kiss

You fled this world in selfishness

And left me feeling empty

Drowning in this sense of futility

No matter how hard I try,

I hurt for you, share this pain,

I can't stand to see you cry

And in the end, nothing changes

And light gutters into darkness

The only ones who would have helped us,

You have made sure never will

Tie off the tourniquet; stem the bleeding

Dull the pain, I can't think through this

Some one screaming inside me

Where is my soul hiding?

A then my darkness was swept away

To be replaced with a burning fire,

My hands are blackened

As they reach through the flames, reach for you

Will you save me? I'll die if I stay here

And you shine so brightly, angelic light,

You seem so beautiful

To my clouded eyes

And even while I beg you,

Swallowing my pride

To submit myself to you

You will throw me away, uncaring

Two may play your game,

I'll pretend I don't hurt

And I am going to punish you for hurting me

I will die for love of you; I can't live this down

Tie off the tourniquet; stem the bleeding

Dull the pain, I can't think through this

Someone screaming inside me

Where is my soul hiding?

I'm tired of being strong,

It's my turn to give in,

Because you won't listen,

And I'm so scared of living

Renouncing all that I've lived for,

All I've ever loved has abandoned me

And filled with hopeless despondence

I rise up and call Death to me

In a moment, all defenses bared

I'll stay at your side when all others fled

I feel like I've been here before…

Kill me instead!

Running through my body,

All the pain I've ever felt, intensified through fire-ice

And this is worse because

I can see you, smell you, I feel you on my skin

Tie off the tourniquet; stem the bleeding

Dull the pain, I can't think through this

Someone screaming inside me

Where is my soul hiding?

I would do anything to stop this pain

Is this what it feels like to die?

But no, I can hear my own tortured breathing

I can feel my heart pounding, struggling to stay alive.

Stop!

Stop trying to save me; I don't care anymore…

And now, you've gone and chained me to this world

Smile, cynical, this prison is worse than in your eyes

And bound by my daily life, pleading to end this petty existence

I have fallen below my own standard

Tie off the tourniquet; stem the bleeding

Dull the pain, I can't think through this

Someone screaming inside me

Where is my soul hiding?

But now I go to him with hope.

Is that what you would call hope, or just another vent?

But inside, perhaps, I want to find salvation

You would hand me deliverance from my own destruction

I don't have to hide anymore,

Barefaced for the first time in my life

Don't laugh at my fear; I've never learned not to be afraid

But you take my hand, wipe my tears away, you hold me tight

Always I've been strong,

Misguided understanding of courage

Now I'll unlock my cage, and come with you,

Knowing that nothing can harm me anymore

Is this what they feel, what they call love?

I know now, I was wrong before, so confused

Wisdom derived from mistakes, I'll not make the same mistake again

I don't have to dream, this is real…