Is this the world we really live in? This sad sad sorrow world full of loneliness,sorrow, depression and disappointments? Everyday I sit here with my hands waist and feet strapped to this bed full of thoughts and looking at that grey depressing ceiling with 30 tiles, I guess I did deserve to be at this hell hole! However I just did what the inner voices in the back of my mental soul told me to, than again those voices are the reason why I'm at this mental institution. I been here since I was ten years old cause, the speakers told me to burn my foster parents to the ever lasting hell! I was ten and I burnt the little white house those sick people lived in, they told me to do it and I obeyed and it felt very blissful and right! I been here nine years, they apparently "tried everything" to make me better and banish those alluring voices! The displeasing truth is I don't want to get better and rebelled against every solution, only because those sweet calls give me direction,control, and sweetened bliss! I assure you are wondering why I am strapped down because I have a strong sensation to cut my neck and arms, also I like to bite the nurses to watch the innocent little people rattle, churn, tremble and scream bloody hell! Call me a sick human being but I am only human right? Humans are digusting betraying creatures! My name is Angel Fallen that's the name my real parents gave me, I still use my first parents last name only cause I do not like my foster parents and I absolutely dislike thname last name Trent. A sick last name! Everyday when those people put neetles in my arms, and shove pills down my throat, I imagine what it would be like to love someone to feel and lock lips with another living being, and what it's like to communicate with someone I haven't spoken or slipped a syllable out of my unused mouth in nine years! I wanna speak I want to go outside and feel grass see the sky, feel the wind, rain, snow, pounce around in wet mud with my bare feet, touch a human being, experience an encounter with a majestic untamed animal! Hear the wind make music with the earth, and maybe bathe myself also learn to read and write! This person walked in disturbing my thoughts completely and the figure asked. "Angel? How would you like to go out?" This strange beautiful man said with a sharp smile treating me like I was a five year old boy! I processed that lovely question and my mouth widened the straps all over my bad banged against the metalneed making the tall human jump back in fear like a scared bird!