I've been waiting
for the end
of this begining
to see what death would bring
I know it's a cruel wish
but non the less
it's what i choose
what I've longed for
Even though you made sacrifices
to bring me back
gave me love
and acceptance
I coudn't help
but feel recentment
for your smile
laughter
every breath you breathed
at these moments
I've wished
for your death
even as you
wished for my life
Your love angers me
yet I can't help
but stay
as your voice calls
claiming
the very soul
I wish to free