"Life's Like This"
Chapter 1: Despair
"…tell me how am I supposed to live without you…"
- a song not my own
Summary: Inuyasha chose Kikyo over Kagome. Kagome was deeply hurt so she decided to go back in her own time and never come back again. But Life has its own plans for her and in that plan, a certain Lord of the Western Lands was involved………I love SK…"
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA. I have no money, just a few hundred dollars that will never fit the bill.
A.N.: This is Kagome's POV…for your info…now with the story…
It didn't matter, isn't it? The pain and the hurt I feel inside. Even if you're with another and you're happy together, I will remain here by your side the way I promise. Even though tears continue to haunt me and pain is all I ever felt inside of me. I will still give you that happy smile. That ever-lasting smile I always give you whenever we're together, whenever the battle is over. Oh, yes… I will still remain here because of the shikon no tama…I know I'm just using it, as an excuse to still be closer to you. You have Kikyo now; she's a powerful miko as others would say. She can find as many jewels as I can, maybe even more. Yes, I'm not needed here anymore. And Shippo…Sango could always look after him. She can be the mother I will never be to the kitsune. She and Miroku are getting married while you and Kikyo are together now. And me, always the same, alone and by myself. I'm nothing but an outcast here. I'm not a part of this world, the way I'm not a part of your life. I tried my best to be of some importance to you. Maybe I am important. But that is only because of the jewel. Will you ever value me as someone other than a jewel collector? Will you ever value me as ME, Kagome, the girl from the future? Will you ever learn to place me in your heart, even in a small part of it, the way I kept you in mine? You've dominated my mind, my heart, and my soul. Your tender ways of showing you care, the way you carry me in your back, even the way you shout at me whenever I sit you in the ground. I miss it all. I wish, if only I could wish to hold you just one last time. To hug you and to tell you how I really feel. To tell you much I care for you, how much I value you. I wanted to. I really, really wanted to. But I cannot. I know if I tried to tell you I will never be able to follow my plan. My plan to get out of here, to go back to the future, seal the well and leave all my memories of you and everyone else in the past. This is my last resort. I know I can be labeled a coward because of running away from problems instead of facing it. Honestly, I don't want to do this but I know I have to…I have no choice left. This is for the best of all, especially of you and Kikyo. May you be happy together.
Good-bye Inuyasha…and…I love you…
After one last tear, Kagome jump in the well, never to be seen again.
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You like it, you like it not. Tell me and make me smile or cry. Whatever you will say, thank you very much!