He never loved me. He never wanted me. I was nothing, but some ugly, dirty, disgusting faggot. How could anyone boy like me. I'm… wrong. I'll burn in hell for what I am. He's happy. He's got Larxene, the girl of his dreams. But… Why can't I be content with being his friend? Why do I want so much more from him? He doesn't even know I'm gay. If he knew he'd hate me, I can't say a word. I can't believe I ran away when I seen them. They were.. kissing, right in front of me. He looked like he was enjoying it so much. God, I'm a fool.
I was sitting up at the clock tower, eating my ice-cream. Soon, Axel was at my side. We always came here after school. I looked at him, still wearing his favorite black hooded trench coat. His long crimson hair swayed as a light breeze rolled along by us. The sun set shone so brightly, and his skin seemed to glow bronze. He was so beautiful.
"Hey, Roxy. How's it going?" Axel practically purred, looking at me with those pure emerald eyes.
"Hey, ok I guess…" I muttered. Goddamn it, why do I have to feel so shitty now!
"Roxas, something wrong?" He sounded curious. Did he even care? Why would he, his life is so goddamn perfect.
"No, it's not all right, you're so lucky."
"Why do you say that, I don't have anything special." Ugg, he's so stupid.
"Yes, you do! You have Larxene, the person you've always wanted, the person you've always loved. Who do I have? No one. Like who'd want me, just some ugly faggot, disgusting and vile."
"What? Roxas, you're gay?" Axel looked at me in disbelief, his eyes wide open. For the first time, it looked like he really cared. Well, I'm gonna hurt him like he hurts me. "Like, I don't min-"
"Yeah, Axel. I am gay. Are you going to hate me too, like how everyone else would? Are you gonna hit me, tell me how worthless and sinful I am? Well, I got news for you, buddy, I get told that by my parents, whom I confided in, EVERY FUCKING DAY! So I don't care what you say, you can't hur-"
And then he leaned forward and kissed me, his soft lips brushing against mine. It was so… blissful; I was on a permanent high. I felt like I was flying through the clouds. He flicked his tongue against mine, and I never wanted this taste to go away, this moment to end. Then he pulled away, a smile on those most magnificent lips.
"B.. But I thought.. you and Larxene… " I mumbled incoherently.
"What about her. I knew it wouldn't last, Roxas. I wanted to try and be straight, because I knew I was gay, and I was afraid of that. But now, I know. I really like you Roxas, and I want you to like me too." He put his hands on mine, looking in my eyes.
"But what about everyone else?"
"Do you care what they think? All I want is us."
I put my arms around him, and buried my head in his chest. He smelt so clean, soo… fresh. "I don't care, not now. Us. That... sound good."
And then I thought about our ice-creams, and I peeked down, and seen them down far below, side by side, melting into the pavement outside the station doors.