"You say you've stopped talking to her! I'm not an idiot. I know you are still talking to her, just not online! You're texting her and calling her! How fucking stupid do you think I am?" I screamed at him
Edward had been trying to deny that he had been texting Tanya for weeks now, but I knew better. I'm not an idiot after all. I could see him pulling away from me. Feel us getting more distant with each other. He kept asking if everything was alright. Of course I said yes. I was sick of having the same argument over and over again.
Edward knew of my past. He knew why I was hesitant with girls who were friends with my partners. Yet he allowed Tanya to comment on me even though she didn't know me. She had never met me yet she felt that she could judge me and call me crazy. Just because I was a bit protective of my partners.
And I had every right to be. My last boyfriend, Jacob, cheated on me with my best friend. So when girls got close to my partner, you think I would be allowed to gets little protective... A little jealous.
"What's wrong Bella? Why are you acting like this? I've told you that Tanya's just a friend. I've told you she is not my type. You have nothing to worry about" Edward said, trying to reassure me
"You're joking right? You didn't seriously ask me why I am acting like this did you?" I asked shocked
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Could he really not understand how I was feeling. How it made me feel when I knew he was talking to Tanya over me? Or that she was the reason that he was delayed? Distracted? If he really couldn't figure that out then why the hell were we still together? Why was I even bothering anymore? He knew exactly what had happened in my past. And not just with my ex... Going even further back than that. He knew what I had been through. He promised that all I needed to do was tell him when I was feeling uncomfortable... Yet when I did, I was labelled the crazy, physco one. When I was simply asking, based off conversations I had seen him have, if he still wanted to be in the relationship, it was me who was in the wrong. Well I was over it... I couldn't handle it anymore. I'd had enough heartbreak and I don't think I could handle another one.
"If you really don't know what is wrong or why I am acting this way, then maybe we should go our separate ways..."
I didn't want to break up with Edward, but I couldn't keep fighting the same fight over and over. It just made my heart break every time and I couldn't deal with it anymore... I needed to feel comfortable... I needed to feel safe and happy... And if I was worrying about what my partner was doing when he was talking to other girls, this just couldn't happen.
"I'm sorry Edward, but I just need some space... When you've decided where Tanya stands in your life, get back to me. Maybe then we can pick up where we left off..." I said defeated and turned and walked off...
Maybe this was wrong but I couldn't help but do it.