HI GUYS THIS IS MY NEXT RIN/SESSHY STORY! Yay! So compared to mothering instincts this is way different! It's a modern time and it's a little more angsty and darkish...well at least for me! Anyways I like to experiment with my writing and try lots of different things but remember I 3 Rin and Sesshy together to the end! Review any comments or critique or suggestion of what you'd like to see! THANX GUYS ^.^
"Woman…Woman."
Cold. Pain. So much pain. Where am I? why can't it go away. Everything. Just go away. I feel pressure on my shoulder. Ouch. Everything. pain. I crack my eyes open. So dim. Gold. Not dim anymore. But cold. Cold gold eyes. Man. Silver. So cold. Beautiful. Gone. I want to know his man. He's not like the other man, dark. This man is light. Hope. Beautiful. Gone. Wait! I don't want to leave anymore, not him! No! darkness...
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"BEEP….BEEP….BEEP"
I feel the bells and whistles of my mind slowly focus and whir alive. I feel funny. I peel my eyes open. White. Too much white. White walls, white covers,.. white bandages. Panic from somewhere deep and ominous in me rises up I feel like I'm choking. I can feel noises coming from me but all I can look at our white bandages. My tongue darts out and I feel crusted blood on my lips. Louder noises strangle out. Screams now. Someone's screaming. I think it's me but I'm not sure. I'm not hear. I'm reliving pain and fear, blood and sex behind open eyes. I didn't want it! I-I I said NO! Nurses are all around me yelling at me. Why are they yelling at me. My eyes spin around crazy, unfocused . I see silver hair out in the hall through a window. A man. With gold eyes. Everything stops. My screams stop. I'm staring at the man I fought the darkness for. He saved me. An angel. No more screaming but the nurses are still pattering around. His eyes are locked on mine. He turns to leave.
"NO! DON'T!" I scream feeling the nurse next to me flinch. But the man stops. Turns around. Walks towards the door. The door to my room. He comes and stands in the doorway. I can feel a small smile crack my lips. It's probably a ghastly sight. I don't care.
"Sweetie, Sweetie this is Detective Sesshomaru. He found you last night. He's going to ask you questions later, when you're feeling better, but not now you have to rest, so he has to leave." A nurse states.
"Leave? Lea-ve? No-nononono! Don't! don..! I feel the panic striking back hard and fast.
"Stop. Now." A voice, his voice commands. Cold. I immediately stop.
"I-I don't want you to leave..don't please. You saved me. I-I need you!" I whimper tears stinging in my eyes. "Sesshomaru." I whisper. I'm grasping the white bed sheets to my chest feeling my heartbeat pound away in my chest.
His eyes are still emotionless but he acquiesces and folds his body, his tall lean body, into an ugly chair by the door. All the nurses have left except one, and she has this peculiar look on her face and shoots an apologetic smirk towards Sesshomaru. I frown. I didn't like that look. Maybe Sesshomaru didn't like the look either, because I hear a faint growl coming from him and by the time I can move my head, which hurts alot, back towards him the nurse has scurried away and out the door.
The room feels really quite now as I look at him. The jarring beep beep of the heart monitor only makes the room feel more quite and bare. I can feel this pat-pat in my heart and this dull panic buried deep in me. But I'm ignoring it. I'm good at ignoring bad things. Instead I study him and his angular face. The most striking feature are his eyes. I know they look cold but I feel nothing but warm with him in the room. I feel safe. Next I notice these strange markings on his face, two magenta stripes on his cheekbones and a purple moon on this forehead. So he's a demon. A twinge strikes again, the Dark Man was a demon. But my eyes flick back to Sesshomaru's gold eyes and the twinge goes away. They Dark Man had red eyes, bloody red eyes. Next I take in al his silver hair, long and shiny spilling on to his lap and some hanging of the side of the chair. It's really pretty I think internally.
My eyes are really droopy feeling and my body still hurts so bad. I feel like I got raped I think dryly and somewhat incoherently, oh wait I did! Ha-ha. The dark humorous punch-line makes my lips twist into some type of shape that's supposed to lean towards a smile. I'm still looking at the man. He hasn't said anything accept those 2 words but he's here. I feel safe enough to sleep because he's here. Even though I have a million things I want to say, to ask really, sleep creeps up and darkness fades in on me. I feel a little bubble of panic flutter when Sesshomaru dims but I remember that he still has to interview me so I don't put up to much of a fight. But right before I completely fade into the dream realm bloody eyes flashed and followed me into my nightmares just like they followed me in life.
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… it's always so cold! I think to myself as I snuggle up in the alleyway where the two building block me from the biting wind. My raggedy jeans, tee shirt, and thin jacket don't do much for warmth. 'I wonder if Antonio is still at his store, I bet he'd let me sleep in the back room tonight! Right by the fire brick stove I think delightedly', 'and his sister Maria said she might have some old clothes that I can have!' warm thoughts fill my head as I think of going to Antonio's pizza parlor. They have been so kind since they've known me! Why I bet if they knew I was a homeless orphan they even let me move in I think with a grin even though I know my shy pride would never that fact be known.
Peeking my head out of the alley again I feel the biting wind slap my cheek and feel the icy rain and quickly readjust my plan. Well tomorrow then I think happily settling among some cardboard boxes. 'after all walking in the rain for at least 2 miles will only give me a cold!' it's late in the day, the time of day where back when I had a family me and mom would sit by the fire and read while Sota and grandpa bickered over the newest modern inventions. Grandpa had a thing with the past. Thinking about the past doesn't make me sad anymore cause I think, 'might as well keep the happy memories then taint them with sadness'. Letting my mind flit like a butterfly from past to present, and stopping to comment and make little goals I pass time.
"crack!" I snap out of my thoughts and tense in between my boxes.
I hear shuffling feet and heavy breathes walking down the alley. Being an orphan has taught me to be wary about strange people. Not everyone was very nice. The feet shuffle closer and then I see him. Just a man. 'He seems so thin' I think looking at his tall lanky frame, 'And a mess' I amend pityingly looking as his long matted black hair with a greasy sheen to it. It seems that he's just about to pass out of the alley way when he stops and looks strait at me. The little pity I felt at his appearance jumps to fear as his menacing bloody eyes pierce me to the ground.
"What a pretty girl!" he chuckles darkly, "And all alone and homeless? Why no one would miss a thing like you!" my stomach clenches as I clamber to my feet like a startled colt. Ready to bolt.
"Leaving so soon baby? But I'm not done with you yet, I haven't even started!" and then he lunged at me before my brain had even fully processed anything.
I hear myself let out a shriek as his fingernails dig hard into my arm. His Smelly warm breath fans across my face as a gag and try to pull away.
"Stop please!" I say with a quivering voice still squirming.
(RAPE SCENEWARNING SKIP IF YOU WANT)
"Oh? Little bitch has manners? Doesn't mean I'm not gonna touch you, hurt you, kill you." He chuckles again leaning forward and biting my lips. Hard.
That seemed to get him going. And me to. I started screaming. And he started hitting. That bite started everything. I feel myself thrashing and screaming and crying and all I can feel is him hitting me my face my breasts my stomach. I feel him rip my jeans off and I start screaming louder as I feel myself thrown to the ground, the dirty cold ground, I feel him laughing and all I can think as he's raping me is why? Why can't anyone hear me? Why me? Why is this happening to me? And I'm still screaming as he finishes, his dirty body all over me and his big hard hands around my neck squeezing. My screams sputter out and my thrashing lessens and darkness and pain are all I feel and see as coldness soaks me. But what I hear? All I can hear is his sick laughing echoing in the alley….
(END OF RAPE SCENEDONE)
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I wake up sweating and in pain but the walls are white, not gray and the hospital room is warm, not cold and wet. I immediately turn my head towards the ugly chair by the door. It's empty. My heart starts beating faster and red eyes flash in my mind and all I can think is that gold is the only thing that will make it stop. I start screaming. And screaming and screaming and screaming. And the nurses come flying into the room and start yelling at me, but I keep my eyes trained on the window, hoping his silver hair and gold eyes will come rushing to save me again. But there not coming and as soon as I realize that my shrieking goes up a notch as real deep shattering panic and despair eat at me and I start thrashing at all the hands that keep pulling and touching me.
"SESSHOMARU! SESSHOMARU!" I scream and I see a nurse running out of my room. But I don't focus on that, all I focus on is the red eyes that are swallowing me up and how I keep trying to replace them with gold but it's not working! Suddenly I feel dizzy and my eyes close. 'I don't want to go! Not back to my nightmares' I think desperately. But all that answers me is dark chuckling. '.sesshomaru' I repeat. 'Save me!'
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"Riiiing, Riiiiing!" my phone is ringing. Annoyance. I flip it open.
"Detective Sesshomaru Takahashi." I state coldly.
"Detective Takahashi! Thank god you answered! Please you need to come back to the hospital now! That rape victim, that girl you brought in she woke up and started screaming bloody murder! All she kept screaming was your name and sir you just have to come back we don't know what to do to calm her down except sedate her!"
I was holding the phone an arm's length from my ear and the nurses voice was still loud and grating. There was also a piercing screaming in the near background that made my ears ring. I recognized it as that girls. The nurse was still babbling like an idiot but the screaming stopped much to my pleasure. I flipped my phone closed with a sigh. I suppose I would stop back real quick.
Driving back to the hospital from the police station I nodded at the relieved nurses on the way to the girls room. Walking quietly in I peered at the girl in the hospital bed.
Her whole face was mottled shades of black and purple and a sickly brown and a big gash slashed her lips and the side of her face and her hair was a matted bloody brown. It was hideous. But what was strangely unsettling was the was her broken lips trembled and how she was shaking and tears were spilling out her blackened eyes.
"Sesshomaru…" she whispered in her sleep, "Save Me!"