Disclaimer: I do not own Criminal Minds, if I did Will would never exist!
This is dedicated to my gorgeous fiancee, MyxNyx. And a huge thank you to DarkBard0!
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JJ sat on her couch, her face in her hands as the sobs rocked through her. She had come home to an empty house, Will had text her to say he was doing some overtime at work, and Henry was with his parents, who had moved to Virginia after she had given birth so they could help out with him, and JJ couldn't be more grateful.
She was glad to have the house to herself for a few hours, to let all her emotions out in private, as she didn't want to be seen as weak or vulnerable in front of everyone. She was an FBI agent, she should be able to suck it up, but the last case had hit her hard. But sometimes, just like everyone else, she had to cry it out and she always felt better for it after.
Her mind was focused on the victim in her last case. The woman who had loved a man, but had ended up with someone else due to unforeseen circumstances, and then who was going to be his last victim. But she had got through it, and come out the other side alive; to be reunited with the man she really loved.
It had been tough on her, and JJ identified with the woman. For what reason, she was unsure of. They had bonded after the ordeal, and this was one of those cases that JJ was proud to be an FBI agent for. Because however much blood and harrowing experiences she saw, sometimes something came up which reminded her of why she did the job she did. Why she went against her parents' wishes and the last case was one of those.
JJ could see herself in the other woman, and if she were honest with herself, she knew deep down what her feelings were, but she was little frightened of what the response would be if she told the person the truth.
Hearing a knock on the door, she wiped hurriedly at her eyes, trying to stop the tears that were falling incessantly. Standing up slowly, she walked to the door, stopping to have a look through the peep hole, not surprised in the least at who was on the other side of it.
Opening the door, she let a small smile cross her face as she took in Emily Prentiss standing there, in a red tank top and jeans. JJ always liked to see this side of Emily, a more relaxed and funnier side of her that she rarely let out at work.
"Hey Em."
Emily on her part could immediately see that JJ had been crying. Her eyes were red and puffy, and that worried her. She knew JJ had bonded with the woman in the last case, and she was just figuring out why.
"Hey Jayj, can I come in?"
Emily asked, and JJ nodded, moving to the side to let Emily in. If she was honest, she was pleased she had turned up. Emily always made her feel better about things, about anything.
"Can I get you anything? A glass of wine?"
"That would be nice."
JJ gave Emily a smile before leaving her in the living room and heading to the kitchen. She placed her hands on the kitchen counter, her head hung low, as she took a minute to compose herself. She knew that it had been obvious she had been crying, by the expression on Emily's face when she had first opened the door. Now, she just had to keep herself together and not break. JJ didn't want Emily to see her like that, she didn't deserve that, and after all she might have had her own feelings about the case.
Deciding she had took enough time to calm herself down, JJ grabbed a bottle of white wine and two glasses, and headed back into the living room where she found Emily sitting on the couch, where only two minutes ago she had been sat alone. Taking a seat next to her, she poured out the wine, every few seconds glancing to look at Emily. Handing the wine over, their fingers brushed and JJ was sure a shiver went up her spine.
A silence fell between them, neither of them wanting to make the first move to talk, but after a few minutes, Emily was the first to break it.
"So, how are you holding up?"
Emily asked, and JJ took a breath, desperately trying to stop the tears that she knew were right behind her eyes, waiting to escape.
"I'm doing okay, it was just a hard case, you know? Some affect me more than others, and the latest was one of those, it happens to all of us."
Seeing that JJ was obviously struggling, she reached across and took her hand in hers, squeezing gently and she was rewarded with a smile. Emily knew there was something between them, something that could be really great and she was pretty sure JJ felt the same way. Over the last couple of months, there had been gentle touches here and there, eye contact through cases, and girls' nights out with just the two of them when Garcia was otherwise engaged.
But then there was Will. And Henry. JJ was in love with Will, and Emily wasn't about to break up a marriage or a family. She absolutely adored Henry, but for now she would take just being his favourite Aunt. If anything was going to happen, JJ would have to make the first move, because Emily wasn't going to take the chance to have her heart broken if it was Will that JJ wanted to be with.
"Em, are you okay?"
Hearing JJ's voice, Emily was broken out of her thoughts and quickly looked at JJ, seeing a concerned expression on the blonde's face. Emily squeezed her hand again, taking a sip of her wine too.
"Yeah, just thinking about different things."
Emily explained, as she took her hand out of JJ's, immediately missing the warmth that came from it and how good their hands had fit together. JJ didn't try and push any further, knowing that if Emily wanted to talk to her about something, she would.
Emily looked around, taking in the silence. After a few minutes she asked the question she had been meaning to ask since she had walked through the press liaison's house.
"Where are Will and Henry?"
"Will is doing overtime at work, and Henry is with Will's parents. They'll be bringing him home later."
JJ answered, getting over the shock quickly at the question asked because Emily never asked about Will. And JJ tended not to talk to Emily about him. Things were better between herself and the profiler when Will wasn't mentioned. What she also knew was that Emily absolutely adored Henry and would do anything for him.
"I haven't seen Henry in a little while; I'd love to see him."
JJ could see the smile behind Emily's eyes as she mentioned Henry, and the blonde couldn't stop the smile that spread across her own face.
"I'll bring him around to see you this weekend, okay?"
Emily nodded, and JJ reached over and grabbed Emily's hand again, her thumb gently caressing the back of it. Their eyes met and for a few seconds and it felt like they were the only two people in the world. A moment later, Emily broke the connection as she turned her head away. If she allowed herself, she could get lost in those blue eyes, but Will and Henry stopped her. JJ had a family, and she wasn't going to destroy it.
Finishing off her wine, Emily stood and started putting her jacket on.
"I better get going, don't want to be too late tonight. Just came round to make sure you were okay."
A little surprised, JJ stood as well. She thought that Emily would stay a bit longer but obviously that wasn't the case, and JJ wasn't about to stop her leaving when she seemed to want to go. Following Emily to the door, she nearly bumped straight into her, as Emily suddenly stopped and turned around to look her.
"You identified with Melissa, didn't you? You knew what she was going through?"
JJ just stared at Emily, not quite sure whether to be honest with her or with herself. But they both deserved it. Maybe now was the time to be honest with her. Slowly, JJ turned away, her arms coming up to cross her stomach, and Emily could only just make out JJ's whisper.
"I did."
Emily wasn't expecting the blonde to say that, and she wasn't sure quite to say next. She was confused, so she asked the next obvious question.
"How did you identify with her?"
JJ blinked away the tears that were threatening to fall, and she turned back to Emily. Any other day she would have laughed at Emily's confused expression, but she could see that she was waiting for a response.
"I'm in love with someone else."
She stated determinedly, as Emily took a step closer towards her. On her part, Emily was desperate to reach out and touch JJ, letting her know that it was okay and that she'd stick by her no matter what. As much as it would hurt her to see JJ with someone else, it was just the same as seeing her with Will.
"Do I know them?"
JJ couldn't help it, as a low laugh came from her chest. She knew she wasn't the only one that could feel something between them, or was she? Maybe she had read the signals wrong.
"You Em, I'm in love with you."
Emily stood rooted to the spot, completely shocked by what she had just heard. She had some idea that maybe there was something between them, but she never thought someone like JJ would ever be in love with her. She often fantasised about what it would be like to be with JJ and Henry. Maybe now, she may just have her wish. She must have been thinking a while as JJ's voice broke through her thoughts.
"Emily, please say something."
Slowly shaking her head and looking straight into blue eyes, she strode forward towards her. Wrapping her arm around the blonde's waist she pulled JJ flush against her, as her heads tipped down and she took JJ's lips in hers. Their mouths fused together, before Emily ran her tongue along JJ's bottom lip seeking access. She was immediately allowed it as her tongue slipped past JJ's lips, their tongues caressing against one another.
Completely lost in the kiss, Emily only pulled back when oxygen became an issue. Leaning her forehead against JJ's, she ran her thumb along JJ's bottom lip.
"I love you too. I have for a long time."
Emily whispered against the blonde's lips, but before JJ could reply, they heard a key in the door and quickly sprung apart. JJ sent Emily an apologising look as Will walked in the door. As Will looked up, he first looked at JJ before his eyes fell on Emily's. They held their contact for a few moments, before she broke it.
"I was just about to go."
Will nodded, and Emily turned to look at JJ, and she got a small smile in return.
"I'll see you at work, JJ."
Turning away, she walked out the front door leaving the one she loved behind, and Emily couldn't help the tears that fell as she headed for home.
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