Hello, Upper East Side. Spotted. Serena Van Der Woodsen has returned. Why the disappearance, and being away for eight months, that's sneaky. You know you love me.

Xoxo,

Gossip Girl

Serena walked into her old apartment. She knew that when she was around here she would have to keep everything she did a secret. She felt bad, Nate would never know. Blair, if she found out, she would slice her throat. She couldn't help but feel sadabout what happened. Her life would still be changed.She lay on her old bed and thought about the night things changed. The night she slept with Nate. Why did she do such a thing?

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Ring. Ring. Ring.

Serena picked up the phone.

"Hello?" Serena said.

"Why do you sound so blue? You're not still depressed are you? Are you taking your pills?" It was her brother Eric.

"Yeah, Eric. I'm just tired. Wouldn't you be if you were in my situation?" Serena said.

"Fortunately, I can't be in your situation. That's a plus for me." He said. He sounded amused. He knew he shouldn't be joking with Serena right now.

"Well, I think I'm starting school again tomorrow. I don't know how I can face everybody right now." Serena said. How could she explain her disappearance? How could she shrug it off like nothing ever happened to her?

"This is for the better. You don't need anything to screw up your future. Remember, it was better for Nate's future too." Eric said.

"Yeah, and he isn't even going to know that he has a baby on the planet." Serena said.

"Shhh. You promised everyone that you weren't going to talk about it. Don't mention the baby/" Eric said. He felt Serena was better than taking care of a baby.

"Eric, post-partum depression isn't anything. It just happened so fast, I didn't even get to hold her." Serena said. It was as if it never even happened.

"Our Aunt is going to take really good care of her. She isn't very young and she has a steady career." Eric said.

"We are rich. I don't even need a career if I didn't want one." Serena said. Every time she thought about the baby, she could feel her heart rip up into tiny pieces. She shared a bond with this tiny soul for 9 months and just giving away ripped her up.

"Yes, you can have babies when you're older. Now, that is enough talk. Promise you won't say anything about it anymore." Eric couldn't stand seeing or hearing his sister so upset. "Just don't forget to take the pills; they will make you feel better." He said.

Serena suffered from Post-Partum depression horribly. It had been a few weeks since the birth and she wanted to kill herself. She went to a doctor and told her that it usually goes away on its own, but if she feels like this then he would need to prescribe her a prescription.

Serena hung up the phone and picked her new clothes out for her return to school. She hadn't had her old uniform anymore so she would have to get a new one. She got ready for bed and fell asleep. She was having a ruff time. How could she look at Nate and not think of the baby she caught a glimpse of. She thought the baby looked just like him. Same almond blue eyes and same nose. She was beautiful and she wanted her. Serena woke up, and felt like she was punched. She took her pills and went to take a shower, She didn't look any different. She got her clothes and make up on and went on her way to her old school.

People stared and whispered. Blair seen her and was shocked. She hadn't seen Serena since she find out that she had slept with her boyfriend. She wasn't in any case to talk to her. She did feel she had to keep Nate from talking to her. Serena headed up to Blair.

"Hi Blair." Serena said. She knew Blair wouldn't want to talk to her nut she tried.

"Well, well, well. Look who it is. Serena Van Der Woodsen, the whore who slept with my boyfriend and then disappeared. What brought you back is it so you can hurt me again." Blair said. She felt pure heat towards Serena. She wanted to strangle her still after all these months. She thought she was safe when Serena went away.

"Oh, please. Blair you have no feelings for Nate, and I know your sneaking around with Chuck, so stick it up your ass." Serena said. She was trying to be nice but not after that.

Blair was shocked. How would Serena know it?

"How did you know that?" Blair said.

"Oh, please. Chuck is my step brother or ex step brother or whatever. I practically live with him." Serena said slyly. She wasn't going to have Blair mess up everything for her yet.

Serena walked away and saw Nate. He was talking to a friend. He looked happy. She thought, 'Maybe it was the right decision for him'. She seen Nate look up and he looked shocked. He knew she was back from gossip girl but not back at school. He started to walk up to her.

"Serena? Where the hell did you go?" He said. He was smiling and obviously in a joking manner.

"I just had some family problems that needed to be worked out. Well, you look happy and that's good." She said. She had no idea why she had said that to him.

"I am. Are you?" He asked concerned.

"I've been better," Serena said seriously. She then smiled and forgot it was Nate she was talking too.

*Authors Note*

This concludes Chapter One. I hope you liked this and please do review.:)