Chapter 1
I was still in russia looking for my loved one, Dimitri. he was out there somewhere and i was going to find him. I wasn't going to give up till he was saved or dead.
It killed me to think that I might have to kill the man that i was once in love with. i wanted nothing more than for him to be a dhampir again. i miss the man that held me through all my was always keeping me safe from harms way. He protected me all the way up to the day he was turned stirgoi. that was the hardest news that anyone has ever told me. that cut me deep to my core.
"Dimitri is gone!" i mentally screamed at myself. i had to stop thinking that he was going to be anything but. the tears leaked from my eyes, and i mentally scolded myself for showing a sign of weakness."Well, well, well, if it isn't my little Roza." the harsh, familliar voice said from behind me. i turned around so fast that my vision went out and i lost my balance. i felt some cold, strong hands catching me. i didn't know what the fuck was going on.I was so scared that i just punch the first thing i saw when i opened my eyes. but the only thing is...my eyes wouldn't open. i was thinking right there that i was dead. someone had killed me without me knowing they were even around.
"What the hell is going on here. i wasn't waking up. i didn't even remember falling asleep." i was getting frantic. "Rose just calm down. nothing is going to happen to you. you just fell asleep. Dimitri isn't going to hurt you. he wants to fight you. that is how he is." i told myself mentally. i some reason, i still felt cold hands on my lower back. then i heard yelling. "GET AWAY FROM HER! YOU GET AWAY FROM HER NOW!" Who ever it was, was human. he didn't stand a chance. i heard this sickening cracking sound. and then nothing. I was was gone once again. "Damn it" i screamed mentally. suddenly there was a shifting in my dark dream, and Adrian appeared. he must have seen all the cuts and other marks from the fight because he had a worried look on his face.
I got up and looked him in the eyes as if telling him to get on with it already. he just looked at me and cleared his throut, and told me "Lissa wants to know how your doing". "Well tell her i'm doing just fine, and don't tell her about what you see now. Or i will hurt you. and don't think that is a threat, cause it is a promise. Got it." i told him in a harsh voice that must have startled him.I noticed how i must have sound. "I'm sorry, Adrian. it's just...Dimitri got away for the second time this week. It is so frustrating." i was so...idk scared that i would grow old and die before i set Dimitri's soul free. I was petrafied at the how i just knew i had to keep trying till the day came where i would free him. i will die trying if that is what it takes. I wasn't going to let him live that like for the rest of his life. I wasn't going to let him live as a stirgoi. that just isn't what i wanted for my soul mate that has died because of another stirgoi. He took the love of my life from me. And if i saw him before i kill Dimitri i would sure as hell take his life. Or whatever life it was he was living.
I was going to get my revenge. Even if i lost my own life in the process. I know everyone would misses me and wants me to come home, but i just can't. not till i know that Dimitri is put to reast for good. i would leave him the was he is. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if i did.I can't leave him like that. i won't leave him as a monster. I love him, and i always will love him. I wish there was a way to make him see that i would go to the end of the world for him, but he don't have those kind of emotions.I wish i knew i was to save the man that i love. "Adrian. i want you do see if there is a way to turn a stirgoi to his/her former state." he just looked at me like i was nuts."Rose, there is a way. But i don't think I am going to tell you so you can bring back that monster." i just looked at him as my anger flared up inside me. "Fine. if you won't tell me. then i want you to leave me and my dreams alone. and don't return. even if Lissa wants to to check in on me." and just like that, he was gone, and I started to cry. I woke up on the ground with rain just pouring down and blending in with my tears. There was no one around to pick me up from the bery spot i lay in. Not even someone that i wanted to be around right now. i want someone special to me to just hold me colse and to never let me go. "Dimitri. Why...?"
I just laid there and cried all night. I felt so broken. So alone. Everything i have ever wanted was gone. I didn't have anyone to love anymore. I was all alone. When the sun finally came up, I got up and walked to a motel to clean myself up, and to get some sleep. It was only a matter of time before i found Dimitri again. And this time i am going to kill him like i should have done yesterday. I was weak yesterday. I won't be woeak today.I pulled off my pants and shirt, so i was only in my underwear and bra. I walked into the bathroom, and had to walk right back out to get my bag. one i was in there again, i turned on the the shower and striped off what ever close i had on. I jumped into the shower and just let the water run down my back before i started to wash my water felt so good that i never wanted to get out. I didn't want to keep going on with my life. I just didn't want to live anymore. So as I bathed, I thought about any way out that would be more suitable then just sliting my wrists. I was just thinking of ways to end my piece of shit life I was living right now.
I have people out there that love me, and I'm sure they will miss me, but they will move on. Someday. I pondered my thoughts as i got out of the shower. I just...found out the best way, well in my mind it was a good way. For others it is just something that shouldn't happen to anyone. I was thinking about asking a stirgoi to just suck me dry. I just thought about that till I heard a light knock on the door.I went and looked in the peep hole. and you would never guess who was standing at me door. I'll give you one guess. If you guess Dimitri you were right. I opened the door, and before I could stop myself from saying it was already out. "Please! Just suck me dry and get it over with. I am begging you. I am not in a fighting mood right now. this is your shot."
He just looked at me like i was stupid, but he didn't waste any time jumping at my plea. He jumped on me and just bit down. Hard i might add. So hard that it made me scream out in pure pain. I was just loving that he was going to suck me dry, but not before i stake him. I wasn't all stupid. i was still going to kill him, but just at the same time he killed me.I waited till i was feeling weak. But not so weak that i wouldn't be able to shove my stake through his heart, but i wasn't quite there yet.