Reality
We're put on this world for such a small time, only to eventually fade into obscurity. It's almost a relief for it to end. To let go of the tight grasp we have on reality. But who really knows what's real? Not me, certainly. We have no hope for a future, no chance of any other life other then this empty, half-life that we've always known And to think, I wasted the little time I had yearning for something that could never be mine.
Of course, I could never accept defeat. Even now as I'm fading, I can't admit that I've failed. To tell myself the truth would only be admitting my mistake. I was too blinded by my confidence to see you for what you really were: A traitor. If I had stepped back and actually looked, I would have known you could never care about me. But I got carried away, in my delusions. And I'm still the same…
You never cared about anyone except yourself. Every touch, every smile, was all a lie. I'd pray that someday you would realize the cure for the emptiness we all felt was right in front of you. When you'd touch me, I felt paralyzed. Your name burned my tongue, and you were the last thought in my head before I fell asleep. I thought, when you looked into my eyes, I saw a glimmer of emotion. A sign that you cared for me too. I see now it was nothing more then my imagination. Nothing more then the merest hope that some day you would see me as more then just another nobody. I thought that because I felt so strongly, you had to feel the same way. Even if you didn't, I could persuade you to care. But my efforts were wasted.
Even when I knew all hope was gone, I still defended you. I knew we couldn't trust you. I knew you would never help us betray the Organization. But still, I didn't tell Marluxia. I couldn't. I was weak. I couldn't bear the thought of destroying you. You were my downfall. Had it not been for you, I wouldn't be fading. I defended you when no one else would. I was there for you. You made me feel. I loved you, Axel.
We exist in a dark void of nothingness, until we fade completely, back to the darkness from which we were created. I used to think there was another way for us. A way we could be together, to escape this living hell. But I know now that I was wrong. It's time to face the reality that's been staring me in the face. We could never be together.
People with no hearts really are worthless