IHave A Daughter

Chapter 1

Memories

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I was picking up my daughter Maisie from school today. She was nine years old and in the fourth grade. She looked like me with the blond curly hair and the tomboyish look but every time I looked at her I could see her father…Freddie. Freddie never knew he had a daughter and I don't think he would ever know now as I live in New York.

Flashback

I sat there nervously in the bathroom holding a pregnancy test. I had to wait two minutes to find out the results. The longest two minutes ever. It felt more like two hours. Finally after the two minutes I looked down at the test. Positive. What was I going to do?

I was only fifteen and scared. I knew that I would never be a good mom but I didn't want to have an abortion. I decided to go and talk to Freddie, my boyfriend and the father of Maisie about it.

I knocked the door of the apartment. He answered.

"Hey Sam," he said as he give me a hug, "What's wrong?"

"Can I come in?"

"Yeah sure. Mom is at work."

I walked in and sat on his couch. He sat beside me.

"What's wrong?" he asked again.

"Freddie, I have to tell you something…I'm pregnant and I don't know what to do," I said as I began to cry.

Freddie put his arm round me and pulled me close to him.

"I think…you should get an abortion. We're too young now maybe like in five years time if you were pregnant we could keep it. We have our whole lives ahead of us. You want to be a actress and I want to be a director we couldn't do that if we had kids."

"Yeah I know. You're right," I said wiping the tears away from my eyes.

I knew he was wrong. This was our baby and I will never be able to live with myself if I killed it.

I left Freddie's house and went over to see Carly. I decided I wasn't going to talk about the baby to her not yet anyway. I opened the door of Carly's apartment and walked in. It was like my second home.

"Carly!" I shouted upstairs to her and she came down.

"Hey Sam. I didn't even know you were here."

"I just arrived."

"Oh. So why you here?"

"Well I was just at Freddie's and I thought I would come in and see my best friend."

"Oh. So what's new with you?"

"Nothing," I lied, "You?"

"Nah, just the usual. Spencer's building another sculpture up in the iCarly studio."

"Another one? Soon there will be no room for us to do iCarly!"

"I know."

My phone bleeped. I had a message. It was from Freddie.

Got the abortion booked for tomorrow. Is that ok?

I really wanted to text him back saying no but I couldn't.

Yep. That's ok. See you tomorrow.

I put the phone away.

"What did Freddie want?"

"How did you know it was Freddie?"

"Sam."

"OK it was Freddie. He wants me to go to Groovy Smoothies tomorrow."

That night I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned all night. I was nervous about tomorrow but I knew Freddie was right. I was too young to be a mom and I couldn't afford it.

The next morning Freddie came to pick me up at eleven o'clock. The appointment was at twelve. He had just got his driving test as he was sixteen. I was turning sixteen a month later. All those years ago. We arrived at the abortion centre. I walked nervously out of the car. I really didn't want to do this. Freddie signed me in and we waited in the waiting room until my name was called.

"Miss Puckett?" a nurse called.

I stood up and walked towards the door.

"I'll be here waiting for you," Freddie said to me.

I nodded. I followed the nurse into the room.

I sat down on a chair in front of her desk.

"Hello Samantha. I'm Nurse Reid."

"Hi and please call me Sam."

"OK Sam so you want an abortion?"

"No."

"No?"

"No."

"Then why are you here."

"See my boyfriend wants me to have an abortion because he thinks we're too young and we are but I can't do it. I can't go along with it."

"It's OK sweetie. I was in the same precision as you were in. When I was sixteen I got pregnant and my boyfriend wanted me to get an abortion and I couldn't do it. I ran away and I had the baby."

"So why are you working at an abortion centre?"

"To try to stop women getting abortions. Once they realise it's their baby and a life they are going to kill they realise they want the baby and don't want to be a murder."

"Thank you so much."

"No problem."

I left the room. How could I tell Freddie? I decided I wouldn't not yet.

He got up as soon as he saw me coming and ran over to me.

"How are you?"

"I just want to be alone."

"OK I'll drive you back to your house."

"Thanks."

He drove me back to his house. I didn't talk the whole way home apart from a bye on the way out. I had to tell my mom and maybe we could move. Freddie would never know.

I walked into the house.

"Mom!"

"Yeah."

"I need to talk to you."

"What's up sweetheart?"

"Mom I'm pregnant!" I said as I began to cry, "and I don't know what to do. Freddie thinks I had an abortion."

"Aw honey," she said pulling me into her.

"You mean you're not mad."

"How could I be mad? My mom kicked me out when she found out I was pregnant and I had to bring up you and Melanie alone. I don't want you to be like that too. We'll move to New York. I have a place there."

"You do?"

"Yeah I used to work in New York so I bought an apartment."

"Cool."

"We leave tomorrow morning."

"Kay."

I packed all my stuff that night before I went to bed and wrote Carly a letter:

Hey Carls,

I'm sorry I had to leave so soon but I'm pregnant. Freddie's the dad yes but he wanted me to get an abortion and I couldn't do it. Please don't tell him that I'm moving to have the baby. I will come back to Seattle one day to live again. I just can't, not at the minute. I'm going to miss you and I'm sorry I didn't get to say goodbye.

Love Sam

I put it in an envelope and sealed it closed, then I wrote one to Freddie.

Hey Freddie,

I'm sorry I left without telling you. It has nothing to do with you it was just to do with my mom's work. Sorry! I love you.

Love Sam

Xox

The next morning mom and I left for New York.

End Flashback

"Mommy," Maisie said as she ran over to me and hugged me.

"Hey sweetie."

I think it's time for me to go back to Seattle.

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