45 days since I turned off my humanity. Honestly, after the god forsaken life I experienced, vampire and human, it is heaven not feeling anything at all. I could do anything with my life, I could be anything. I could kill and not even flinch at the screams of the innocent. Is it wrong for me to actually enjoy this? To finally for the first time in my life to actually enjoy getting up everyday and doing whatever I wanted? I could feed, kill, fuck and nothing will phase me. Who needs those pesky emotions anyways? I've never felt more free in my life. Except, my journey to never-ending freedom was suddenly cut short when the talk of the cure came around Mystic falls. Honestly, my friends would shove the cure down my throat and have me suffer as a human than see me this way. Which I can't let that happen, which explains why I started this road trip with the ever beloved Rebekah Mikaelson , who is the cause of the reason I died anyways. How ironic is this? She wants the cure for god knows reasons, and I don't want it. How simple is that? I guess stealing my ex flames beautiful vintage car and breaking his neck wasn't the best option but hey it gets the job done. But the search was cut short when word got around Katherine has the cure, and is somewhere in the wonderful 50 states hiding with it. The fact that everything leads to hunting and finding Katherine each time is really starting to bug me. Maybe I should kill her just so her name wouldn't be heard in my ears anymore. I mean, she did kill my brother, so I guess it is only fair.
The sound of my always ringing phone went off, sending my line of thought crashing down. I glanced at the number and scowled.
"Who is it?" Rebekah asked with that annoying accent of hers.
"Damon, who do you think?"
"Are you going to answer?" She continued speeding the car up.
What's with all the questions? "Probably not." I said throwing my phone in my purse.
"I'm hungry, can we stop and catch a bite?" I grinned leaning the seat back.
"Vampire puns seriously?" She questioned glaring at me.
"Eyes on the road, don't want to crash and our Thelma and Louise get away be cut short."
I heard her let out a sigh of annoyance. "No, you just fed. God do you know you are a bitch with your humanity turned off?"
"Bitch?" I grinned. "I was just thinking brutally honest. But bitch works too."
"Oh shut up." She growled turning up the radio. I leaned back in victory.
When we finally made it to the small town in bum fuck Texas, I was already sniffing the air for a good friendly face to taste.
"Elijah called and told me he was going to be here to run some errands, but I know he is here to meet Katherine." She said closing the car door.
"Ew." I gagged stretching from the long car ride.
"Elijah has a problem falling for that god damn face of yours. I can't see why though."
I turned on my heels giving her a grin. "Well you haven't had sex with us yet."
I watched her face scrunch up. "seriously god."
"Hush." I hissed eyeing a woman walking down the street carrying shopping bags.
I disappeared instantly showing up in front of her with a sly smile. Ahh, the perks of vampire speed.
"Katherine? Do you still need my help?" The woman spoke dazed and confused.
"What? You know Katherine?" Rebekah asked appearing by my side.
"No. What? Sorry excuse me, I best be going." She spoke moving past us.
I moved in front of her again, wondering if my theory would work.
"Do you know me?" I asked again with a smile.
"Of course, you're Katherine." She replied in a haze of confusion.
"She's been compelled, to only remember her when she is in front of her. She is definitely in this town. That sneaky bitch." I laughed turning towards the woman again. "Do you know where I am staying at?"
"No, but you like eating at the diner on Maine street, Creames Dinner."
I grabbed her by the shoulders moving her hair back. "Forget what we said, forget we were here. This won't hurt."
"Seriously Elena, we have to leave." Rebekah growled shoving me along. I glared at her thinking about the many ways I would kill her once she shoves the cure down her throat.
With the wonderful inhuman speed of a vampire, we made it to the diner in no time.
"There." Rebekah smiled climbing into the booth next to her.
"What the" She growled as I sat in front of them.
"Why hello Katherine, long time no see?" I smiled folding my hands on the table.
"Seriously, is this really happening." She huffed flipping her hair.
"You know what we are here for Katherine, so you might as well just give it to us." Rebekah smiled.
"How are you Elena? Sorry I couldn't make your brothers funeral. Busy bee and all."
I set my eyes in a hard smile. "It's fine, you didn't miss much anyways."
"Ooh, I see it now, Miss innocent Elena Gilbert turned the switch off. Wow how tragic and ironic at the same time. I bet the Salvatore brothers are having a field day with you now."
I shrugged with a sly smile. "If you excuse me." she added as Rebekah snatched her back and slammed her back into her seat.
"You see, you aren't going to be able to leave until we get what we came for." I spoke picking up her silverware.
"I thought you guys hated each other, I mean didn't she kill you?"
"Yes we do, but Elena is less of an annoying bitch than you are, and we both have a mutual hate towards you, so hell. It was love at first sight." Rebekah grinned squeezing her arm so tight I heard the arm give up and snap.
"Ow." She hissed. "That hurts."
"Is everything alright over here?" A waitress asked crossing her arms. "Are they bothering you Katherine?"
"Wow, do you have the whole town compelled?" I asked grabbing the waitress by her apron.
"Leave or I'll tear out your throat in front of everybody." And shoved her back.
"Wow, feisty Elena. I like it." Katherine laughed sarcastically.
I picked up her fork and shoved it into her free hand on the table.
She let out a scream of pain. "Seriously?" She hissed clenching her teeth.
"We are getting impatient with your mind games Katherine." Rebekah sighed dramatically.
"I don't have it. I gave it away." she cried out.
"Lies, lies and more lies." I smiled shaking my head. "Do you think I can do the same thing with a spoon?" I asked Rebekah tossing the spoon between my hands.
"Look I gave it away, I knew someone would come looking for me."
"Who did you give it to Katherine?" Rebekah asked tightening her grip on her even more.
"I don't -" Katherine suddenly stopped with the sound of her phone going off.
"Give it to me." I snapped holding out my hand.
"I swear, Elena you better watch your back, because I swear I will kill you"
"Oh shut up with the threats and give her the phone." Rebekah hissed impatiently.
"Fine." She replied clinching her teeth. She threw it in my hand.
"Meet me in the court-yard in 30 mins." I read aloud. "Who is this?"
"Wouldn't you want to know?" She grinned finding her composer.
"Tell me." Rebekah hissed shoving her.
"Might as well kill me, because I'm not saying a word."
"How will can you do a slutty bitch act?" Rebekah asked me smiling.
"I don't know, what do you think?" I asked making my voice higher and batting my eyes.
"Perfect. Except you aren't dressed like a slut." Rebekah grinned as Katherine kept moving her eyes back and forth between us.
"Hmmn, give me your leather jacket." I smiled taking off my blue jean one and throwing it at her.
"Seriously that will never work."She hissed taking off hers.
"Not slutty enough." Rebekah commented grabbing her purse and handing me her eye liner.
I bent down glancing at her leather peep toe heels. "I want your shoes."
Katherine let out a sigh of annoyance as she threw them at me. "Watch those, they probably cost more than your life savings."
"I'll manage."
I paced back and forth impatiently. I didn't know what to expect, it could be another vampire or a human doing her bidding. Honestly, the truth is I was just getting bored with this whole search for the cure thing. I'm actually considering just gathering what ever belongings I didn't burn down in my house and moving to Europe or something. I bet Europeans taste a hell of a lot better than the shit I've fed on lately. I closed my eyes dreaming of the sexy tanned Greek I could dig my teeth into.
"Katherine?" I warm voice asked me walking into the court.
I could tell you that voice anywhere. I looked up Katherine like to the dark-haired handsome Mikaelson brother that I used to have dark fantasies about as a human.
"Elijah." I breathed looking through my eye lashes.
"You changed your hair?" He questioned brushing the recently died red pieces of hair out of my eyes.
"I decided I needed a change." I smiled playfully, exactly like Katherine would.
I leaned into his hand as he stroked my face, hopefully playing along the best I can.
"I missed you." He whispered cupping my face. "So have I" I whispered leaning closer, close enough to draw him into my lips.
The taste of Elijah was much sweeter than I could ever imagine and it made me wonder why I haven't tried this sooner. I let him deepen the kiss, letting his smooth tongue glide into my mouth. My hand immediately tangled itself in his always perfectly styled hair, almost wanting to permanently glue him to my lips.
He drew back suddenly eyes wide with confusion. I could feel him studying every inch of me with his dancing eyes.
"Elena?" He whispered eyes searching into mine.
I rolled my eyes pushing him back. "Well, guess I don't make a good Katherine after all. What gave me away? Was it the hair?" I laughed pushing my bangs out of my sight.
"You were dead Elena." He replied in a hard voice.
"Yeah, Rebekah made me drown to death off that bridge." I said absentmindedly picking a rose out of the garden around me and twirling it in my hands. "But I presume you know the process when you die with vampire blood in your system. You come back."
"Elena, please know you are in my deepest regrets. I never wanted this life for you.." He drifted off eyeing me sadly.
"Glad to know you are in that train to." I laughed.
"What?" He questioned as I threw the rose to the ground.
"Did you know my brother is dead?" I asked with a sly smile.
He let out a sharp gasp. "No, no, let me get to the best part. You're little girlfriend broke his neck to get the cure. Did she tell you that?"
"No, she did not. Elena, I am so.. I can't even fathom how much sorrow I feel for you now. He was your last family member to wasn't he?"
I nodded shrugging my shoulders. "Alls well, ends well."
"Elena." He breathed eyes sharpening to mine.
I ignored him taking a seat at the bench and crossing my legs dramatically. This whole Katherine thing is fun to play.
"Elena look at me." He growled suddenly in front of me. "Whaa-" He cut me off cupping my face in his hands and forcing me to stare at him.
"You turned off your humanity."
He let go off my face turning away, pacing back and forth.
"Why would you do such a thing?"
"Don't even question my decisions when you're hooking up with Katherine Pierce. What did she tell you she changed? She is a new vampire?" I laughed. "Did you think she would change?"
"Enough of that Elena." He snapped crossing his arms.
"How long has your humanity been turned off?"
"Why does it matter to you?" I huffed impatiently getting bored.
"Have you killed?"
I smiled slyly. "Here and there."
I almost watched his jaw drop 10 ft. "Elena.."
"Elijah." I replied mocking him. "What do you expect? Did you really think Elena Gilbert, the one with emotion and feelings coming out of her ass could handle losing a brother? On top of all the other people she lost."
"You talk like you are a whole new person."
I cocked my head to side with a smile. "Oh, I am."
Elijah eyed me sadly, losing his hard features. "This life was never meant for you."
Suddenly he looked up past me. "Ah, Rebekah I should have known you were part of this."
"Nice to see you to brother." She grinned shoving Katherine down to his feet. "Found something of yours." She added with a hard laugh.
I watched Elijah look at Katherine with an expressionless expression.
"Elijah." Katherine whispered standing up.
"Did you kill her brother for this cure?"
"Elijah I -"
"Did you Katherine?" He hissed, ice shooting from his words.
I almost wanted to smile. She bowed her head down in shame. " I did, I did what I had to do to survive."
"Go Katherine. Before I end your life right here at my feet. I don't want to see you, hear your name, even remember you exist. You are dead to me." He hissed.
I heard her let out a whimper. "Please."
"Leave." He growled turning his back to her.
She turned towards me giving me a look that would kill. I gave her a smile back and waved her goodbye.
It took everything in me not to laugh at the situation. Hey is laughing an emotion? Least I'm feeling something right?
Elijah fixed his tailored suit, gaining his ever calm composer.
"You guys are coming with me. " He snapped grabbing my arm.
"Hey let go." I hissed trying to break free.
"What? We are we going?" Rebekah asked following him at his feet.
"To Klaus."
"What about the cure?" Rebekah hissed.
"It can wait. "
"No, I'm not going without the cure." She snapped coldly.
"Then leave Rebekah no one is stopping you." He replied just as coldly.
"Fine. You know what, I won't forgive you for this." She hissed disappearing.
"Hey, hey can I get an opinion in this? I really don't care about the cure as long as it isn't used on me. So you really don't have to force me to go anywhere."
"Elena, this has nothing to do with the cure. I'm turning your humanity back on, I can't leave you like this."
"Seriously what is with you people in wanting to turn my humanity back on." I growled as he pushed me towards his black Mercedes.
"Salvatore brothers, what a nice surprise." Elijah snapped holding me against the car.
"Let her go Elijah." Stefan said walking towards us with Damon at his heels.
"Oh my god, what is this, an intervention." I hissed under my breath."
"Just let her go, and you can have the cure." Damon added holding a small black box in the air.
My eyes eyed the box with wide eyes. "I'm glad you aren't to injured with that broken neck of yours." I smiled hardly, trying to defuse the situation from the cure.
"Oh shut it Elena." Damon sighed . "Just give us Elena back, and you'll get the cure."
"I could care less about the cure. I just want to help Elena, because obviously just two months in your care she was turned into a vampire with her humanity turned off."
"We want to help her turn it back on Elijah." Stefan sighed crossing his arms.
He opened up the passenger side door and shoved me inside like I was a rag doll. "Ow easy." I hissed. My eyes darted back and forth for an escape path.
Wait. Who knows where Elijah is taking me. Hell, honestly at this point it would be a hell of a lot less annoying than the Salvatore duo looking at me with like a lost puppy all the time. Maybe, he'll take me to Europe or something like I've always wanted to go. I smiled snuggly. Maybe this was the escape I was looking for. I would rather go off in the unknown with Elijah then go back with Damon and Stefan any day. I hated the way they looked at me like I was just another project to work on. I would rather gauge my eyes then leave and go back with them.
I huffed dramatically as Elijah climbed into the driver's side.
"So I guess I'm held against my will until I decide to you know, flip the switch?"
"Elena, I owe this to you. I promised you I would look after you and promised your safety, and I let this happen. I feel deeply remorse by it, and I know the old Elena would want me to try to bring her back."
"Then you might as well dive off Wickory bridge and go search for her dead body."
I watched him grip the steering wheel. "Like I said." He continued through clinched teeth trying to compose himself. "I owe you this at least."
I had no clue where we were going, nor I did not care. As long as it was as far away from Mystic Falls as possible. Being around Elijah was different then driving with Rebekah. With Rebekah you constantly had to fight the urge to slit her throat while she is sleeping.
He kept to himself, mostly lost in thought as I. I did though, keep stealing glances at him through my peripheral vision, just out of mere curiosity and boredom.
I could remember why I thought he was so hot back in the day. I mean any guy in a handsome tailored suit would be hot right? Him sitting here next to me, so close should drive me wild. But honestly, I felt hungry and numb. I moved my eyes back out to the passenger side window.
"Can we stop and get food? I'm parched." I complained with a smile after seeing the welcome to Louisiana sign.
"Here." He sighed reaching behind his seat for something.
I felt him throw something in my lap. My nose immediately scrunched with disgust.
"A blood bag?"
"Yes." He replied coldly, opening one for himself.
"Can't we stop and get something.. fresh? And warm." I asked innocently, watching him suck into his.
Seeing his face change from the perfect composed Elijah to a hungry black-eyed monster was a strange sight to me. Honestly, if I had human Elena feelings I probably would have been terrified. This new Elena was kinda turned on.
"No. We need to make to New Orléans before 11 a.m tomorrow."
"So we are going to New Orléans?" I questioned happily. Who needs Europe when you had New Orléans.
"Yes, since you'll be with Klaus"
"Klaus?" I interrupted biting into mine.
I could feel him watching me as I happily let the black-eyed demon out of me, sucking every last ounce of the disgusting cold blood into my system. I dramatically drew my head back letting the sweet taste run down my throat before turning my face back to normal.
"Yes." He spoke clearing his throat. "Like I was saying. Klaus believes witches are conspiring against him there, so we are taking care of some things."
I know I should have been scared of Klaus, but honestly I could care less if he was around me or not. I mean it's not like he could use my blood to make his hybrids so my life was in no danger.
"Why does he think that?"
"Klaus is a very paranoid man. He thinks everyone is conspiring against him."
"I don't blame him, I mean we all have. Many times." I laughed wiping off the corners of my mouth.
I felt Elijah's eyes move to me. "How can you defend him? I mean I know why I defend him, because he is my brother. But you, he ruined your life. How do you feel remorse?"
"First of all. It's not remorse, because that would imply that I feel emotions and we both know that s not true. And I know he ruined my life, but you just get over things sometimes because you have to."
"Pretty wise words for someone who claims they can't feel."
I ignored his snide comment leaning back in my seat.
"You can compel vampires, just compel me to turn on my emotions."
I heard him let out a low chuckle. "If I wanted to do that I would have done that already."
"Why don't you?" I asked feeling the tiredness of my day creep up on me.
"You have to make that choice for yourself Elena."
I wasn't sure what I replied to that, because before I knew it I was drifting off in soft sleep.
Vampires don't really sleep, since our bodies are dead we don't need to replenish ourselves. We kind of just go in this weird rest state I guess you can call sleep.
Faces around me blurred in and out of my vision. Jeremy, Bonnie, Caroline, Damon and Stefan All sitting around my living room laughing. I wanted to get up get away from there endless happy smiles and laughing but something made me sit down and watch. "Sweetheart. Come help me with dinner" I heard a voice say. "Mom?" I whispered as my mom walked from the kitchen carrying a salad bowl. I almost wanted to go hug her, but something stopped me. I didn't want to. These faces, which all stopped laughing and was staring at me with sad eyes I didn't care about. Something clicked inside my head. "Elijah." I hissed as I watched him come from the kitchen. "Get out of my head."
"You don't miss this? Being apart of something. A family?"
"No." I snorted eyes moving across the room. "Is this your sad to attempt to get my humanity back on?" I forced myself to wake squinting the bright light hitting my face.
"Really Elijah." I laughed stretching. How long was I out? I glanced at the clock on the dashboard. We should be almost there. Damn, I haven't slept that long in forever. I suspected Elijah had something to do with it.
"I would appreciate if you would stay out of my head when I'm sleeping."
"It was worth a shot. I didn't expect you to catch on." He sighed. I glanced at the new world around me. It was like I went to sleep and I woke up in Oz. Everything was colorful and full of life. Crowds filled the streets, looking at all the Mardi Gras decorations and dancing along to the different bands in the street.
"Welcome to Bourbon Street Elena." Elijah smiled slowing down and pulling over. "From here we walk."
I didn't mind, it would be nice to stretch. God the people around here smelled delicious.
"Try and keep up." He added closing the car door behind me. "This city, is amazing." I grinned eyes dancing between the locals and the tourist. I could hear a trumpet playing something in the background. I followed Elijah through the crowds, smelling the world around me. Everything felt so alive, and dreamlike. "Where are we staying?"
"Follow me. And keep your head low for now."
I gave him a glare and followed unwillingly.
After hours of what it felt like walking, he turned into a large open square patio, with two story antique looking apartments on each side. The gates closed behind us, sealing us in.
It was quiet in here, even though the loud hustle of the streets were behind us.
"Klaus." Elijah called out loudly. I turned away absentmindedly looking at the details of the place behind me.
Huge exotic trees grew around me, all wrapped and connected with lights. Antique dark brown tile danced around the floor giving the place a New Orléans feel.
"Ahh Elijah I see you're back." I heard Klaus say leaning against the rails.
"And what do we have here?" He questioned with a sly smile and narrow eyes.
"Klaus." I spoke eyes fixed on him.
"Elena?" He added with wide eyes. I watched him walk down the spiraling stair case.
"You don't smell human, and you're no longer dead I presume" He gathered stopping at the last stair. "How interesting."
"When Rebekah killed her, she was turned." Elijah spoke finally moving past him on the stairs.
"How interesting." He repeated sarcastically. "There is something about you though.. something else."
I narrowed my eyes growing impatient by his constant question asking.
"Elena Elena Elena." He laughed walking towards me. "Love you flipped the switch haven't you. Ah. That's amazing." He laughed clapping his hands loudly. "I now see why he brought you here. I bet you want her to turn it back on." He guessed looking back and forth between us. He let out a harder laugh like he just heard the joke of his life.
I watched his blue eyes fix towards mine. "I simply couldn't care less if you flipped it or not. But you might be of use to me after all."
"What do you mean?" Elijah questioned as I crossed my arms with annoyance.
"I need a strong female vampire I can show off at my side and someone who wouldn't let emotion to get in the way of my plot." He replied moving my hair from my eyes.
"Plot?" I laughed. "Let me guess, you conveyed up another scheme to rule the world am I right?"
"Elena." Elijah warned.
"No. I haven't yet. He spoke letting out a hard laugh moving past me. "See I need someone to look the part, act the part. I need someone willing to do whatever it takes to get the job done. And it would help that everyone would be envious of me with this beautiful Petrova doppelgänger by my side."
"I'm sure if Elijah asked nicely Katherine would be more than likely want to." I replied slyly glancing at Elijah.
"But how fun would it be with the one and only Elena Gilbert by my side , with her switch flipped off. Ooh the Salvatore brothers would rage with fury. Maybe I should invite them to tonight's festivities." Klaus laughed loudly.
"No thank you." I added with a sarcastic grin. "I'd rather go back to Mystic Falls. I didn't come here to be someones puppet. I was already that home, and I had to tolerate those people. You, could rot in hell for all I care."
"Watch your tone love." He growled grabbing my face.
"Klaus." Elijah hissed suddenly by my side. "Let go of her."
"Isn't that what you came here to do? I know you didn't come back so my dearest brother to flip your switch. You came here to live. I can give it to you, the life I know you crave. While you're by my side you could possible do what ever you simply wanted. The endless freedom you crave, I have it Elena dear." He smiled throwing me to the ground.
"No Klaus this isn't happening. She is going to turn her humanity back on, she isn't going on a murderous rampage with you." He hissed as I sprung up instantly.
"But doesn't that sound so much fun." I grinned speaking up and brushing myself off.
Klaus turned towards me surprised, almost bewildered.
"Elena no, this isn't you. The more you kill, the more lives you take, the harder it will be for you when you finally do flip your switch."
"I don't think you have the knowledge to tell me who I am anymore Elijah." I replied turning closer to Klaus.
"What exactly do you have in mind?" I questioned with a smile.
"Ahh." He clapped laughing. "Perfect."
"Elena. I didn't bring you here for this, I"
"Enough of that Elijah. Elena dear just wants to live, to be free from her morals, am I right?" Klaus interrupted.
I stared off into the distance letting my mind grow blank. Elijah was starting to annoy me like the Salvatore duo was with all the turn back on my emotion non sense.
Seeing Klaus stand here with his twisted blue eyes, all the hatred I felt towards him for destroying my life, vanished. All I could think about was how wild he was in bed, and hey maybe that isn't such a bad thing to question.
Knowing they were waiting for my answer, I let my long hair fall from the twisted bun off my head, letting the dark curls shower around me.
I could smell the sweet perfume of my shampoo drift in their direction.
Elijah cleared his throat awkwardly.
"Honestly, I could careless about morals or emotions or whatever the petty bullshit you were throwing at me." I spoke turning towards Elijah.
"And." I added before Elijah could interrupt. "I haven't experienced anything as a vampire, hell I've been drinking out of blood bags since day one. I want to feed, kill and move into the direction I like, and if you a problem with it honestly like I said. I. Don't. Care."
"There you go brother. " Klaus laughed clapping his hands. "Let me lead you to your room my love."
I smiled triumphantly at Elijah's stone cold face taking Klaus's hand.
"Show me your world."