"Sorry. I know you don't feel exactly the way I do, Bells. I swear I don't mind. I'm just so glad you're okay that I could sing and that's something no one wants to hear." Jake laughed his throaty laugh in my ear and I looked into his dark eyes, I wondered if I should cross this line. Would I lose my friend, my sunshine when everything was dark? Could I bear to live without him if things didn't work out? Would he even accept me in my current damaged state? So many questions, yet time was running out. I knew he wouldn't wait forever, he needed these blurry lines cleared up just as much as I did. But how could I clear them up when I was so torn? I knew Ed..., uh, HE wasn't going to come back and even if he did things would never be the same because Jacob put me together when I was broken. I needed Jacob in my life, he was my life support when I felt that my life was over. So couldn't I just give him all that I had left of me, even though there wasn't much? I knew he would take whatever I could give, and then maybe each day I would get a little better and give a little more. So I decided right at that moment, as I leaned over the seat to touch his beautiful russet face, that I was strong enough to cross that thin blurry line because of him.

"What's up Bells, why are you acting so weird?"

I wasn't sure if I should just kiss him suddenly or if we should talk about it but I knew my Jacob and it wouldn't really matter to him. So I ran my hand down the side of his face. Then I grabbed his waist to pull him closer, so he could kind of get the idea where I was going with all this weirdness.

"I kind of...um...love you Jake." And suddenly I pressed my lips to his before he could say anything. Before long I felt his warm arms wrap around me and I knew this is where I wanted to be, where I needed to be. Only Jake was able to bring me back when everyone else failed. We pulled away but continued to stare into each others eyes.

"So what does this mean," Jake asked. "Well I hadn't really thought that far but I hope it's the start of something good. You mean a lot to me Jake."

"Wow Bells, I can't believe this happened. I mean this is exactly what I wanted, but I swore I would have to break you down some more with my charm or save your life a few more times."

I laughed, "Well you're probably still going to have to save my life, you know how clumsy I am, but seriously does this change things?"

"Well...yea it does, but in a good way," he said. "We'll just act the same towards each other but throw in some making out."

I trusted him so much that this made all the worries for our future go away. I actually looked forward to our time together as a couple. So many new things appeared in my future with Jacob that weren't there with Edw..., ugh I had to grab my chest. Why does his name cut through me so deep? "Are you ok?" Jake asked. "Yea, just a little chest pain, I'm fine."

"Soooo should we like tell Charlie and my dad and go on dates and stuff like that? I'm sorry I'm not really good at stuff like this, I don't have much experience but I'll learn and then this won't be so..."

"Jake, stop! You're rambling and making this awkward. Let's just go in the house and watch some tv."

"Sounds good." Then he leaned over and gave me a light peck on the lips. "I could get used to this" he said. So could I, I thought. We walked into my house holding hands and I could see Charlie. He obviously had been staring out the window for some time and now he was running to look busy. "Did you see your dad?" I chuckled, "Yea, he's probably jumping for joy right now."

As we entered the house Charlie was sitting at the kitchen table trying to look occupied. "Oh, hey kids. What are you guys up to?"

"Dad, we saw you, but we're just going to go watch some tv."

"Ok, have fun, I was just about to head over to Billy's. I'll tell him you're here Jake. You guys want some pizza or something?" he said as he walked towards the door.

"No, we're fine dad thanks."

"Ok, I like you Jake but not too late."

"Sure thing" Jake replied. When Charlie left we went to the couch and I laid my head on his firm yet soft body. It felt so safe and warm, like this is where I belonged. I asked Jake if he wanted something to eat, "I told my dad no so he would hurry up and leave, it was way to awkward for me."

"Yea, me too but no I'm fine. I don't want to do anything that would make you stop laying on my chest right now. Maybe in a few days." I laughed and leaned my head up, as he leaned his down, for a soft but passionate kiss. We watched movies and mindless shows until it was time for Jake to leave. I walked him to the door and we said we would see each other tomorrow.

"I'll miss you Jake."

"I'll miss you too but its only a few hours and I'll dream about you like I do every night." I kissed him, we said I love you's, and shut the door. I went upstairs and changed into my pajamas. As I walked toward the bathroom I thought I saw something flash by my window. I walked over to look out the window. Maybe it was Jake, but I didn't see anything. It was probably lightening, oh great a thunder storm. As if I didn't have enough trouble sleeping. I continued to the bathroom and brushed my teeth and hair. When I was done I jumped into bed and thought about how Edw...ugh...what's his face, used to sneak in my room. I wonder if Jake would start doing that as time went on? Probably. As I started to drift off I looked at the full length mirror across my room and I saw a face. A face that looked just like Alice. But it couldn't be Alice. They left me without a trace or second thought. I jumped up and ran to the window but no one was there. My heart was racing. What had just happened? Was it a dream or hallucination? I wasn't asleep so it couldn't have been a dream. Right? I thought only crazy people had hallucinations. Right? I don't know what it was I saw but it definitely couldn't have been Alice. Right...