A/N: So uh yeah... I have a problem. There I said it! Blame the plot bunnies if your tired of me putting up soooo many new fics. I hope you enjoy it though, and that Puck isn't too OOC. I'm trying to find someone to do a onexone glee RP with me but its hard. Enjoy as I Tried my hardest. (Set during season 2)
Disclaimer: I only own my own characters and any songs that I make up. Enjoy!
It was just another day that blurred together along with the other ones, school, glee club and dance. I never participated in glee club, I just hung around because I needed to be somewhere other than the library or any given classroom. I couldn't believe that my boyfriend had broken up with me again as I got a slushie dumbed on me by his new girlfriend. Two months have passed since then and I always try to avoid them but I always end up seeing them.
I asked Mr. Schue if I could just sit in and do my homework while being quiet because I didn't feel right anywhere else. Mr. Schue was fine with it of course, but not everyone in the glee club was pleased about it. Rachel would bring up that I would probably be telling Vocal Adrenaline their plans and that I never participated. Even if I was in the glee club I wouldn't want to participate today. I was just to miserable and sad to even want to, though I never showed it. I knew how to put up a guard on my emotions since I was thirteen. When Rick, my second boyfriend, came around I slowly let my guard down as I learned to trust him and that lead to two break ups later and that was when I put my guard back up along with the bad habit of smoking once and a while.
"Mr. Schue I don't understand why Nova can just sit in here and do nothing except study. She can't just sit in here forever." Rachel complained to Mr. Schue.
"It shouldn't be a problem Rachel, she hasn't been disruptive at all and-" he started before I cut him off.
"If you want me to sing, I'll sing." I looked at her before I went up to Brad and told him Miserable at Best. It was how I was feeling but I would wear their t-shirts every so often so I could just use the excuse 'I'm singing a song from one of my favorite bands'.
"This will be good." Puck stated as he looked at me, I sent him a glare before I looked to Brad before he started playing and I started singing,
"Baby, don't cry, I know
You're trying your hardest
And the hardest part is letting go
Of the nights we shared
Ocala is calling and you know it's haunting
But compared to your eyes, nothing shines quite as bright
And when we look to the sky, its not mine, but i want it so
Let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there and)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I'll bet you get the nerve to walk the floor
And ask that girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
You're all that I hoped I'd find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn't take
Cause nothing feels like home, you're a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay
Because I know I'm good for something
I just haven't found it yet
But I need it
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there and)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I'll bet you gets the nerve to walk the floor
And ask that girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best
Ladada ladada ladadaoh ohhh
And this will be the first time in a week
That I'll talk to you
And I can't speak
It's been three whole days since I've had sleep
Because I dream of your lips on her cheek
And I got the point that I should leave you alone
But we both know that I'm not that strong
And I miss the lips that made me fly
So let's not pretend like you're alone tonight
(I know she's there and)
You're probably hanging out and making eyes
(while across the room, she stares)
I'll bet you get the nerve to walk the floor
And ask that girl to dance, and she'll say yes
Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
But without you I'll be miserable
And I can live without you
Oh, without you I'll be miserable at best." As I finished I looked to Mr. Schue who looked a bit concerned after my performance.
"Nova, are you okay?" He asked me.
"I'm fine Mr. Schue. It's just a song. Can I continue my studies now?" I asked him. He nodded. I went back up to my seat as I continued doing what I was doing.
I ignored the rest of Glee club and once it was over I went to the nearest exit to see that it was pouring. I grumbled before I ran to my car and got in the front seat of my 70's Volkswagen that was painted like a galaxy. I didn't have to leave right away since I had a half hour to kill before I had to be at the studio so I decided to sit in my car, listen to music and smoke a cigarette. I turned on my 'break-up' playlist and lit my cigarette after getting my zippo lighter that was iridescent and a Marlboro light. I lit it and took a drag as the tears started to slowly fall. I ran my hands over the sides of my legs where the cut marks were scarred there from the night that Rick broke up with me a second time.
I took a drag as I sat there listening to the melancholy music as the tears streamed down my face. I was sitting there for a few minutes before I was startled by knocks on my window. I wiped my tears and paused my music. I rolled down the window to see Puck.
"I'm not in the mood to be hit on." I looked at him as I took another drag.
"Why are you here? Don't you have to study somewhere?" He asked.
"I need to kill time before dance. I don't have to be there for a half hour, why do you care so much?" I asked him.
I watched him shrug, "I thought you were some kind of prostitute." He kidded.
"If you want a ride, get in. If you want to try to have sex with me, take a hike." I looked at him before he went to the other side. I unlocked the door and took another drag before I started the engine.
"What happened to your car?" I asked him.
"Isn't smoking bad for dancers?" He asked as he avoided the question.
"Once and a while isn't bad." I told him as I drove out of the parking lot.
"So what's with sitting in on glee club all of a sudden. I remember that you would be in the library with Rick all last year." He stated.
"Things change. Where do you live?" I asked him before he told me. "Any milfs lately?" I asked him nonchalantly as I took another drag.
"I told you that your next." He smiled at me.
"And I told you that wasn't going to happen." I looked to him before I turned on his street. I put out my cigarette and drove into the driveway.
"Your welcome." I stated.
"See you, Red." He said before getting out. I sighed before I drove off to dance.
It was another night if practicing swing with my partner Mike. I focused on swing more than any other class. Ballet and point tip were the dances that I was weakest at and strayed away, though I could do the occasional lyrical and acro dances. When I was a child ballet was my strength but as I grew older I enjoyed swing and tap with some jazz and hip hop. I tried aerial silk once and took some lessons but that was all I could do since my parents cut me off from lessons because dancing was more important along with stretching and becoming more flexible to get into an excellent dancing school. I wanted the dream too but I wish my parents let me experiment with the things I wanted to do.
When dance was finally over I made my way back home to see an unfamiliar car in the driveway along with my older sister's. That meant my older sister Kayleigh and my older brother Josh were visiting. I grabbed my school bag and dance bag along with my keys, phone, lighter, iPod and my cigarettes. I opened the door to see Kayleigh.
"So two months and you are back in the game?" She raised an eyebrow as she gestured to Puck who was siting in the other room with my younger brother and sister, Connor and Cassandra. I walked up behind the couch and looked at him.
"What are you doing here?" I asked him. He turned around and gave me his famous smile.
"I was just concerned about you after what you sang today." He looked to me, obviously lying about his excuse.
"I'm fine as I said. Now you can go." I stepped aside playing along with his little lie, before Kayleigh injected, "But what about your English project?" She asked as as looked at me. Puck stood up as I looked to her then to him.
"Yeah, I thought that you might want to get started on it." He looked to me before he grabbed his bag. I sent him a quick cold glare before I looked to my older sister. "Oh yes the one on Wuthering Heights. Why don't you tell Kayleigh about what the two houses stand for." I smiled at him,obviously throwing him under the bus for lying to my older sister and probably my mom. I left the room and went upstairs to my room. I set down my things in a corner of my room that was meant for my bags. I put my iPod, and phone on my bedside table. I hid my lighter and cigarettes in a secret compartment of my bedside table. My room was like a steam punk Paris theme that I made my own. The walls were a nice light brown color that gave it the antique look with cogwheels painted above my mahogany bed with Paris sheets. The bedside table I custom ordered for when I needed to hide things. I had a vintage vanity with my makeup on it and there was still had some pictures of Rick and I, hidden away. I had a desk and a pretty armoire, besides that was two bookshelves with my speaker system that was on a clear shelf. I also used my laptop for pandora and my xbox to play during my down time. Connected to my room was my own bathroom.
"So where do you hide them?" I heard Puck ask.
"I don't know why you are talking about." I told him nonchalantly
"You know exactly what I am talking about." He looked at me as I turned around to see him sitting in my computer chair.
"No." I looked at him and crossed my arms. "You should go, you already know that I won't have sex with you. It will be the same answer as last year. I don't want to cause any rumors in this house." I looked to him as I crossed my arms.
"Then can I least get a kiss, Red?" He asked me.
"No Puckerman, now leave. If anyone asks just say that something came up." I shrugged before I shooed him out and locked the door. I got ready for bed, hoping that the next day would be better than today.