AUTHOR'S NOTE: I've had this idea in my head for a long time. I was talking to my friend about it and she helped me with the plot idea and stuff and I began writing one chapter to see how it goes. Now I have the whole story planned out and it's a lot more organized.

I know I suck with updating my other stories, but ever had a different story idea stuck in your head that it doesn't allow you to focus on anything else? Yeah well it's happening to me. So this is the new story guys and will probably be my main focus for a while. I will update the other two hopefully soon.

Anyway, quick summary on this story. This story is called 'Painful Endearment' This is pre-BTR. The boys are 17 and Katie is 13. It will eventually collide with the show. This is a Kendall/OC... I feel like I can actually get into his character when writing, and Well wanted to write a Kendall fic :P The James, Logan and Carlos will also have their their plot in this story, they'll play crucial parts, not just hanging around. Hmm, What else can I say... It's a lot different to my other two stories just to let you know :)

WARNING: It's RATED M. I was going to start it off as Rated T but thought it contains swearing and and future chapters do contain ADULT/MATURE/DARK themes. Also this story will be full of angst, there will be smut in future chapters. I found myself very fond of writing angst and of course romancey stuff... so guys this is another story!

DISCLAIMER: Sigh. Nope Don't own BTR. But do own my OC's

Onto the chapter:

CHAPTER 1: TRAPPED

Every now and then, there would be kids on the street, owners walking their dogs, people mowing their lawn or even the neighbourhood cats wondering around. Normally there would be four teenage boys roller skating, playing their usual hockey on the road or even getting up to some sort of mischief with one of the neighbours.

But today was different. The snow was heavily falling from the sky leaving a coat of snow outside causing everyone to stay indoors witnessing the white, fluffy substance drop from the sky. Times like these, every family would be to themselves minding their own business. And in the Knight residence not only was it just Kendall, his sister Katie and his mother Jennifer at home keeping themselves warm but three other boys Kendall considered brothers were also keeping him company.

"Carlos! Stop cheating!" The dark haired Latino boy stood in front of the television in the Knight resident living room, jumping up and down causing the taller boy out of the boys, to push him out of the way to get a better look at the tv.

"James, stop pushing Carlos out of the way! He's way too short to even block your view from the television." The raven haired boy sat on the singular couch across from the two standing up playing the video game. His legs were firmly resting on the foot stool as he put his head down to continue reading his book he had brought along. However, although he refused to play video games with an assignment that was due in for Friday in school, his eyes flickered every now and then to the screen to see who was winning.

"Shut up. I'm tall enough to block his view any day! And Logan are you seriously going to sit there reading that book?" Carlos was pushing his body against James' side, while James was doing the exact same to Carlos trying to distract him.

"Unlike you guys, I actually want to pass. And maybe you should put down the video game, finish this assignment and then play it?" Logan chirpily suggested as he lowered his feet down and leaned his elbows against his thighs, holding the book in front of him whiles pointing at it.

James pressed the home button on the console and furrowed his eyebrows to connect his gaze with Carlos. Logan took that as a sign of winning and thought James would comply with what he had suggested. Carlos continued to stare at James and then connect his eyes with Logan and after a 30 second silent, James and Carlos blurted out in laughter and resumed back to their game. Logan rolled his eyes and leaned back onto the couch still finding himself staring at the fictional, controlled game that was happening on the screen.

"See, Logan even you can't control your urge to play. You've been staring at us playing for the past half hour." James muttered whiles furiously pressing the buttons on the console.

"Have not, my eyes have been fixated on this book. We have to write an essay on this and I don't even think you guys know what it's called." Logan detached his eyes rapidly from the game to stare back at his book, flicking the page to make it believable that he was in fact reading.

"Dude, I could see from the kitchen that you were totally into the game and not that book." Kendall strolled in with a bowl full of pop corn, tossing it in his mouth before taking a handful and leaving it on the coffee table, which had been push to the side. "Relax a little, with the way it's snowing outside I don't think we're even going to have to go into school tomorrow or Friday. Which gives you the whole weekend to finish our essays." He plopped himself onto the longer couch and stretched his legs taking up the whole couch.

"O...k maybe you're right. I guess the e- hang on a minute." Logan's eyes twitched and verged towards Kendall who was cheekily grinning at his friend when he figured out his little remarks about Logan doing their work for them. "I'm not going to do anything for you idiots this time. Waste your time or not, I'm going to finish this up."

"Are you sure?" Carlos had stopped playing and decided to wave the console in front of Logan's face. He was looking at the console as if it was some sort of meat. His face was resisting it but in his head he wanted to ditch the homework and play. "You know you want too?" Carlos inched in closer whispering in his ear as if he was the devil on the shoulder.

With a whiff of air, Logan closed his eyes and refocused his eyes on his book trying hard not to give into the temptation.

"Oh, Fine Give it!" He suddenly snapped, snatching the console from Carlos' hand and trudging up to battle with James.

"That a boy!" James snickered and instantly started pressing the buttons while plastered with a smile.

Kendall and Carlos both giggled at Logan as he gave into the temptation. Both of them eagerly watched the other two battle on the screen. The four of them would always hang out at Kendall's house. James loved hanging out there because he felt a homely, loving vibe at Kendall's house than his own, and Carlos felt that Kendall's house was more fun than his. Logan loved coming to Kendall's house regardless, because of how Mrs Knight treated the boys. Mrs Knight loved the company of the boys and never minded when they came to visit. When they got up to mischief and get into trouble, it was a whole different story with Mrs Knight. Mrs Knight would drag them all down with her son by telling their parents as well. She felt like it was the most responsible thing to do. Nonetheless the boys all loved her and sometimes even saw her as their second mother.

With the snow heavily falling outside, the boys resulted in playing video games and Mrs Knight was more than happy to let them stay around until the snow had calmed down outside.

"Woah, James, Logan is tearing you apart. You suck!" Kendall swung his leg off the couch and rested it on the floor with his elbows resting on his knees. His eyes were focusing on game and his hands were clasped.

"Excuse me; Logan is clearly cheating at this game. And Plus Carlos was winning before Logan even started playing!" James nervously chuckled and slowly shuffled closer to the television. Logan could see from the corner of his eyes that James was trying to block his view and so he was determined to finish him off... in the game of course.

"HA! So you admit it, I was winning before." Carlos chortled as he bounced on to the couch excitedly, grinning towards James. Kendall could see James' frustration building up. One thing everyone knew about James Diamond was that he hated losing. He hated no as an answer. He hated when people tell him you can't do it or it will never happen. For a vain, conceited guy – as Logan would describe him – he was full of optimism and that's what all three boys admired about him. His passion for what he believes in, and mostly believes in himself, was the strongest they've seen in anyone. And that was the type of friend they loved having around.

"Pfft... noo." He once again nervously responded only causing him to twitch his left eye. And when Kendall saw that twitch he knew he was lying. James was the type of guy that hated admitting he was wrong, he hated revealing too much about himself and he was excellent at hiding what he was truly thinking. But since the four teenage boys had been friends for over 12 years, they all picked up little things about James that gave away his secrecy about his feelings and emotion. When he got too stressed James would become the biggest prick the guys would ever meet and wondered why they were friends with him in the first place. But now that's all changed. They basically let James be James in those stressful times.

"And... Finished!" Logan harshly pressed onto one of the buttons on the console, having a lopsided grin on his face, whilst slowly raising his hands in the air. "You, James Diamond, are actually shit at this game!" He laughed in victory and fist pumped in the air. Carlos jumped out of his seat and both the boys exchanged a Hi-5. Kendall shook his head, sniggering to himself and patted James, who stood staring at the screen in confusion.

"How did you not want to play this game? You're like a fucking pro at this bro!" Carlos draped his arms around Logan's shoulder and they both plopped on to the couch.

"How did I lose? I never lose. James Diamond is not capable of losing. Especially not against... him!" James voice squeaked high and he furious. He threw the console on the table and pushed himself onto the singular couch. He had a frown on his face and Kendall once again chuckled.

"Next time Jay!" Kendall patted James on the cheek, and walked off to grab a handful of popcorn before placing himself on the floor near the coffee table. "And dude, don't take your anger out on the console! That shit is expensive to buy you know!" He grabbed the console and neatly placed it on top of the television stand along with the one Logan was holding.

"I haven't played a video game in a while. That felt... good!" Logan mumbled to himself, with what looked like a permanent smile plastered on his face because of his victory. "And the fact that I won..." His eyes flickered towards James with a smug smile and he crossed his arms, getting comfy in his seat, "against James, makes it feel... better."

James narrowed his eyes and fumingly crossed his arms ignoring what Logan had just said. "Beginners luck." He mumbled back as a weak defense.

"Funny thing is, he didn't say it was his first time playing, so James, Suck it up like a man and accept you lost against the nerd!" Carlos raised his hand in an attempt to get a Hi-5 from Logan but Logan felt offended being called nerd and left the boy hanging. "Heyyy, I'm tryna stick up for you!" He whined and sloppily dropped his arm and shrugged his shoulders.

"I much rather be known as the boy with a highly distinctive brain rather than a nerd." Logan scoffed as he decided to pick up his reading book to continue reading. Carlos put his hands on the cover of the book, making Logan lower the book down, so he couldn't open it to read it.

"See, this is what I mean you're a nerd. Put the shit book down, dude and let's do something else." Carlos whined and threw Logan's book on the side of the couch. This instantly annoyed Logan and he lightly punched Carlos. "OUCH! What the fuck man? Nerd!"

"Stop calling me a Nerd! And don't throw the book like that. We have to write an essay on it!" Logan snapped back turning his body to face a frustrating looking Carlos who had a scrunched up annoyed looking face, with his arms crossed.

Kendall observed the two boys bicker and shook his head at how they would both whine each other up. He crossed his leg on the floor and leaned his back on the coffee table as he got his phone out. He wouldn't argue that Logan wasn't a nerd. But he called his raven hair coloured friend an overly –smart genius who was aspiring to be a doctor. Everybody in their school new Logan was probably one of the smartest kid they've ever had. All the teachers looked up to his smart capabilities and admired his enthusiasm in school. Kendall, James and Carlos both found it as an advantage to have a smart friend like him but also a tad annoying when Logan would always be on their case to finish up a project or do their homework. However, when it came to fun and mischief Logan would be all up for it although he would always second guess what they were going to do. The other three guys thought it was good to have a friend that would always look out for them and keep them out of trouble and straight away bonded with him when they first met. Logan would always be the guy to comfort them and help them whenever it was needed but he knew when to back off and when he wasn't needed. However, that was rare when it came to the four boys. The bond between the boys was stronger than the bond between scientific atoms that were unbreakable.

Kendall pushed himself up from the floor and walked over to the window. He peered through the window to see if the snow had settled to allow the boys to go out and have some fun.

"You alright man? You're a little quiet today. You would've shut those fuckers up ages ago." James rolled his eyes as he witnessed Carlos and Logan still bickering about whether Carlos was going to do his homework or not. James may seem like he only cares for himself but when his friend where lost in their thoughts or not acting like themselves he felt it was his responsibility as a friend and a brother to hear them out.

"You really think it would even make a difference to shut those idiots up? I'm just waiting for the snow to calm down a bit so we can go out." He sighed out frustratingly once again looking outside to see if the fluffy white substance had stopped dropping from the sky. "You know what, it's snowed worse than this before. Why don't we just go outside and do something."

"Um, because, my hair!" James waved his hands vigorously around his hair. Kendall's instant reaction was rolling his eyes and a light chuckle. James whipped out his lucky comb that he had always had since the age of 6, thinking it gave him all the luck in the world so he never got rid of it. "Do you know how long it takes to make my hair look this delicate, soft and so fucking amazing? I'm not going out in the snow to ruin this beautiful creation."

"Of course, how can I forget about the truly amazing James Diamond's hair? How can I be so stupid?" Kendall sarcastically remarked, smirking at his friend's big head, which he was sure expanded more than he thought it could. "Hey, how about we go down to that lake we use to go to as kids. It's probably frozen by now. We could go skating or snow fight or something."

"Why'd you want to get out of here so badly? We'd get snowed out rather than in if we go out with the way it's snowing." James put away his lucky comb and placed himself back onto the single couch. Logan and Carlos stopped their bickering and looked at Kendall who seemed unusual today. He was more fidgety than usual and his attention span was worse than a fish. He would gaze off when one of the boys was speaking to him and he was on his phone more than usual.

"Spill it, what's going on Kendall?" Logan adjusted his seating position and clasped his hands, looking concerned.

"What makes you think something's up? I'm fine guys, relax." Kendall thought he had smoothly lied but he knew the boys weren't buying it. They knew him too well and Kendall knew they wouldn't let it go.

"Kendall, you've been on your phone, checking it every 30 seconds and you love it when you're home. In fact it's actually hard to get you to come out sometimes. You may think I'm stupid, but I know things." Carlos enthusiastically nodded and blinked more slowly. He was proud of himself at how he actually can spot the little quirks that make Kendall, Kendall.

Carlos was definitely the energetic one of the group. He was what they would say, the life of the party. He was full of enthusiasm and pure happiness. He hated seeing the negative side of things and always focused on the positive. The guys secretly looked up to Carlos. But they would never admit that to him or each other. They loved how Carlos was like a free spirit and how he never let things bother him, and secretly they wanted to be like the little Latino. They thought he had the best life out of the four. Innocent or not he was also definitely a party animal as well. But Logan and Kendall would say that after many years spending time with James, he had adapted to his partying style. But he wasn't as bad as James. Some may see Carlos as a guy who couldn't take anything seriously, but when it comes to his friends or family needing help he would always be there with in a split second.

"Seriously guys, everything is fine. Let's just go out and enjoy it for a while." Kendall slowly lowered his head down and he looked at his phone again. He would agree with the boys, he just wasn't himself today. He'd been expecting a call, but also not expecting it at the same time. But because of all the positivity he felt when he's around his friend, he tried his very hardest not to let it get to him.

"Fine, but you'll eventually tell us what's going on right?" Logan showed him a comforting smile as he went over to the main door to grab his shoes.

"When there is something going on, then yeah... just maybe." Kendall smirked as he grabbed his winter Jacket and wrapped a scarf around him to keep him warm. James and Carlos followed the two other boys and Carlos leaned in to grab the handle of the door.

"Boys, where do you think you're off to in this weather?" All four boys froze on their spot and slowly turned to face Mrs Knight who was standing on the top of the staircase. She had just got up from a little nap and was heading downstairs to prepare for dinner. "It's 6.14 boys and the snow is only getting heavier. I think It would be best for you to stay indoors and maybe, I don't know finish up your homework." She walked downstairs, her hands folded on top of each other and she gazed at the boys who were still trying to come up with some sort of excuse to go outside.

"We just wanted to get some fresh air. That's all mom. I'll be back in time for dinner at 7.30." Kendall broke the silence by responding first and went over to quickly kiss his mother on the cheeks while Carlos opened the door.

"Kendall, it's a school night, on top of that, you have homework and –"

"And you promised you would do my math homework for me." Katie rushed downstairs holding a book in her and shoved it into Kendall's hand. "Remember, when you sn-" Before Katie could get any further, Kendall put a hand over her mouth to hush her up. Katie folded her arms in annoyance and raised an eyebrow. For a 13 year old, Katie was definitely the mature one out of the boys. She was conniving but sweet at the same time. Her mother thought she was up to no good sometimes and other times was proud of her daughter.

"Yes, Katie! I will do your homework when I get back. Patience baby sister!" Kendall raised both of his eyebrows up silently pleading for Katie not to rat on him. Kendall had secretly snuck out one night to go to the movies while he was grounded. James and Carlos thought it was the perfect idea while Logan felt guilty the entire time. He felt like he was hanging around with an escaped- prisoner and totally disregarding Mrs Knights regulations. Kendall needed Katie's help to distract their mother from entering his room, to help him escape and come back in the house, and he was successful. But he had a price to pay since Katie kept his secret. He promised to do her maths homework every day for two weeks or she'd snitch and Kendall had two more days to continue her commands.

"Whatever. Don't let me down big brother." He shrugged her shoulders as she took the maths book away from his brother and placed it down onto the coffee table.

"Do I ever?" He rhetorically asked as he smiled a warm smile. His biggest mission in life was to never let down his mom and baby sister. After the rough year they had, he was determined to not make it any worse for either of them. "Okay, see you later mom." He called out to his mother who was in the kitchen, grabbing the meat from the fridge.

"Kendall, I never said you could go?" Mrs Knight walked over to all the boys as they were slowly dispersing themselves one by one by going outside in the cold winter weather.

"Mom, Please! I just need to get some fresh air. I'll be back soon I promise. Please. I just need a little time." James, Carlos and Logan suddenly felt Kendall's shift in mood. It almost looked like Kendall was desperate to get out of the house for some odd reason and they still could not put a finger on why he was acting so oddly. Mrs Knight connected her eyes with the dark blondes, olive green, insistent eyes and felt like her son needed a little time to himself. She sighed in defeat and waved her hands gesturing her permission for the boys to go.

"You win. Make sure you're wearing warm clothing and don't get into trouble. And be sure to be home by dinner." She leaned on the frame of the main door while Kendall and the others started trudging into the snow. Her tone of voice was covered in concern when she said she wanted Kendall to return home. "Will you boys be here for dinner?" Mrs Knight called out to the others before they disappeared.

"Dad's going to be home for dinner, and so Carlos' parents want him home for dinner." James spoke as he smiled politely and wrapped his arms around him keeping himself warm.

"And Mom also wants me home tonight, but thank you for the hospitality Mama Knight." Logan grinned warmly and rubbed his hands together creating friction, to create warmth.

"Anytime boys, no need to thank me every time." Mrs Knight chuckled and held on to the door preparing to close it while she watched the other boy disappeared from sight. Mrs Knight was hesitant to let Kendall out these days. She had the fear that every time he went out he'd disappear and not come back home. She feared that every time he went out.

"Love you mom." Kendall called out before joining the other three and tightening the scarf around his neck and putting on his glove.

"Love you too." She warmly smiled whilst leaning her head on the side of the door and holding the towel against her chest tight as if she was hugging Kendall. She closed the door behind her and sighed.

"Mom, you worry too much." Katie snapped her fingers to get attention from her mother. Katie hated seeing her mother so fragile this year. She was keen on keeping her happy.

"I know sweetheart. Just-" Mrs Knight got interrupted by Katie who rolled her eyes every time her mom brought this topic up: when Kendall went out.

"You have to let him live his life mom. As much as he can be such an annoying brother, he can also be the best brother and the best son to you. And you know that. This year was just a little bump on the road. Now we're free. And driving smoothly." Katie sighed out reassuring her mother that everything was fine and would be.

"How did I give birth to such a wise daughter?" Mrs Knight giggled as she put an arm around Katie, side hugging her, putting a smirk onto Katie's face.

"Just know I go that from you... Not him." She folded her arms and then gave in by giving her mother a warm hug. "Now, what's for dinner?"

The snow was deep but it was most certainly not the worst it's been in Minnesota, well for now. The four resulted in a snow fight in a forest they use to play in when they were kids. Even at 17, they acted as if they were still 5. Nothing changed with the boys when they first met. They were still like brothers. Picking on each other, fighting with each other, they were sad together but most importantly they always laughed together. When one of them was down the mood with all of them would mirror.

"Logan I told you not to aim for the face! For fuck sake man I need my face for my future!" James uttered frustratingly and grabbed a hand full of snow, darting it at Logan. It hit the side of his face and Logan was pushed to the floor because of the full force of the snow ball thrown at him. James stood there laughing and pointing at him and suddenly Carlos came running from nowhere smashing a snow ball -not too hard- onto James' head aggravating the hair-loving boy.

"Carlos! That was epic man!" Logan could barely keep himself up because of his laughter. He held his stomach trying to compose himself but he couldn't physically stop himself from laughing.

"You fucker!" James screamed out viciously running after the energetic boy around the forest, still being in the peripheral view of Logan and Kendall. Kendall silently observed while sitting on a tree bark not to high from the ground, continuously looking at his phone but also looking at the boys having their snow fight. It was necessary for the boys to have their traditional snowball fight every year but today he just wasn't feeling it. And the other three could sense it straight away.

Carlos instantly stopped when he say the dark blonde hair gazing into the distance. He looked at James who shrugged his shoulders and stopped running after him when he knew what Carlos was talking about. Both the boys looked at Logan who raised his eyebrows and bit his bottom lips. They were concerned for their friend. He was the leader of the group. They would never admit it but the boys would always think it silently. Kendall was always the one to cheer the guys up no matter what. He was always there for them and always came up with the plans when they got into trouble and how to get out of it. They all would agree that he could be a bitch and a sarcastic ass when he was in a pissy mood and they knew if he was pissed off they should never mess with him. He was always the best advice giver out of them and they looked up to him because of how strong headed he was. One main thing about Kendall was he hated, absolutely hated it when the guys were in a horrible mood and today, it was his turn to 'not be in the mood'. They knew Kendall wasn't coping with what happened with the family well. He'd been too quiet and spoke when he wanted to. He would have those days were everything is fine but today he felt like nothing was fine and the boys knew if either one of them were in his situation, Kendall would be the first one to know what to do.

"Kendall, come on man, what's going on with you today?" Logan trudged through the snow and pulled himself up on to the branch Kendall was sitting on. Carlos and James jogged over to the two and rested against the tree trunk looking up at Logan and Kendall.

He didn't respond to Logan. Instead he checked his phone, what felt like 1000 times to the boys.

"Dude, why do you keep checking your phone? I bet it's a girl? It's a girl isn't it? Little Kendall's got a girl aye?" James insisted annoyingly and smugly smiled whiles leaning onto the tree trunk. "Which bitch is troubling you man? And how come we didn't know?" His tone of voice changed instantly when he thought of the possibility that Kendall could be hiding a girl away from them. Carlos eagerly played along also trying to lighten up the mood.

"At least when Kendall or If Kendall had a girl he'd stick to one and not just 100 like you James." Logan rolled his eyes and lightly chuckled, causing Kendall to lift the side of his lips up but it didn't stay for long.

"I'm just irresistible okay. Plus these girls throw themselves at me. All I do is satisfy myself by get-"

"yeah, yeah yeah, we get it James, you remind us every day. Sex is a life style for you. We know." Carlos laughed and shook his head in disbelief at how his friend was so full of himself, which he actually found quite respectable... sometimes. But he knew it wasn't a girl troubling Kendall.

"Um, guys I think we should go indoors somewhere, the snow is falling heavier than before." Logan started panicking a little and pushed himself off of the branch and Kendall followed his action. Kendall rubbed off the back of his jacket getting off the excess debris from his Jacket. Yet he still didn't speak but once again stared at his phone.

"We're 20 minutes away from home, and if we walk it back to any of our house we will more or likely freeze to death. I need to get inside quick before my paws tighten! Not good for my complexion and my hair, don't ev-" James dramatically panicked and got cut off before his 'break down' could go any further.

"Dude, I am beginning to question your sexual preference." Logan commented, smirking at his own reply. James wouldn't deny how metro sexual he was. He cared about every aspect of his body because he believes that it's what he has to care about to get his fame life in Hollywood.

James playfully pushed Logan on his shoulder and it even made Kendall lightly chuckle. "HA. HA. Funny. But I'm a ladies' man. And I'm pretty some guys want me as well." James lip curved up as he smugly smiled. Logan was sure his friends head was getting bigger than ever and to shut him up he throw snow on his face, which worked but silently aggravated James. Kendall stared at the two and chuckled lightly again and walked along side Carlos.

"Ahhh, see he does know how to laugh." Carlos grabbed onto Kendall's cheeks and squeezed it when the boy started smiling.

"Carlos, your hands are fucking freezing. And don't ever do that again." Kendall finally broke his silence and Carlos was laughing at how he made the boy speak and the other two couldn't.

"Okay now that you're speaking what's- okay you know what can we quickly go inside, we are going to die if it keeps snowing like this on us." The panic was back in Logan's voice and they were all starting to shiver uncontrollable. For them to get home it would take a 20 minute walk and they weren't too sure whether they'd even survive by the time they got home.

"Nearest shelter we find, we are going in!" James almost screamed getting a little worried about him and the other guys' safety.

"Guys, I know a little abandon house just 3 minutes up the road. No one lives there and we can go in there for now, until this blizzard calms down." Kendall suggested as he grabbed onto his Jacket tightly, hesitant to let it go, thinking he'd get picked up by the breeze and be blown away.

"This is why you have to speak to us and not be silent; otherwise we'd be lost without you!" Carlos shakily answered whiles keeping his gloveless hand on his helmet and the other hand buried deep in his huge winter coat. They walked through the blizzard with their head in front taking the lead whilst pushing through the wind and snow that was picking up its speed rapidly.

After struggling to walk through the storm they finally arrived at the designated destination given by Kendall. The abandoned house most certainly looked abandoned. It may not have shattered windows, but the walls of the house were white, with dirt covering the house from top to bottom. The porch had broken wood and the front yard was covered in snow but the weeds and grass was peering through the thick blanket of snow. Logan had an odd feeling about this house and wasn't sure if he wanted to spend his time in there.

"Kendall, are you sure this place is safe? What if there's druggies, or –" Logan uncertainly spoke before taking another step towards the house and onto the porch.

"Prostitutes?" James casually suggested, nodding his head before entering the wrecked home.

"Yeah prostitutes in there. Well I highly doubt it actually. We're the only idiots to be out in this time of day, when the weather is this bad." He huffed and quickly ran into the house when he felt a strong breeze pass by him almost jolting him off the floor. "I rather be in there than out here actually."

"I walk pass this every time I'm out and it's just empty. I heard they're going to tear it down and build something here. But it's our only shelter for now." Kendall reassured the worried boy as he slowly closed the door behind him once he entered.

The inside of the house wasn't how they thought it'd be like. James was pretty sure there would be rats running around and a horrid smell in the house. But the light wooden floors in the room didn't seem too filthy and it smelt like the outside cold weather in the house. Carlos thought they'd be dead bodies or even a killer lurking around in the place. Of course with a mind like Carlos you'd also think bunny rabbits were playing hide and seek upstairs. Logan didn't want to admit to the other guys that his speculation of how the house would look inside was a complete misconception. He was certain the place would be broken into piece inside; things would be shattered on the floor and spiders and web prowling in every corner. But it was just like a house that hadn't been lived in, for years. Nothing frightening or tantalizing about it whatsoever.

They all sat in the living room in the house with only 2 chairs present. Each boy decided to sit on the floor and leaned against the walls, waiting for the blizzard to die down a bit.

"So, who was it that said it wasn't as bad as last year outside?" Logan was tearing off an old newspaper and scrunching it up into a ball, throwing it in front of him trying to make it touch the previous newspaper ball he had thrown in front.

"I believe that would be Kendall." James snatched the newspaper out of Logan's hand and also made a newspaper ball to throw at Kendall to show his annoyance for his idiotic decision to go out.

"Hey! It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be okay!" Kendall spoke in his defense throwing the newspaper back and James, causing it to slightly mess James' hair.

"We're gonna diee!" Carlos suddenly cried out with no tears exactly but with his exaggerating voice, when things went wrong. He buried his head in his hands which were in-between his knees.

"Don't be ridiculous Carlos; this is going to die down soon. Kendall called up mama knight, who called up our parents so we are going to be fine. Just need to keep ourselves warm!" Logan logically spoke, rubbing his left arm with his right hand to keep himself ventilated.

"It's going to be alright man. Although it is kinda dark in here. Logan do your scientific thing and make light in the room." James fidgeted with his fingers and tilted his head as if he knew exactly what he was speaking about, when in reality James had no clue what he was saying.

"I'm not a magician idiot! And we all have are our phones so we'll keep it on. Clearly you're not a genius James!" Logan spoke sharply rolling his eyes at the boy and his uselessness. He grabbed the newspaper from James again and decided he'd keep himself occupied by reading it rather than tearing it apart.

"Did we not go through this conversation a million times? I'm no genius; I'm going to be famous soon. A singer in fact. The genius thing is just not for me." James leaned his head back onto the wall and looked up at the rugged looking ceiling, looking into his future of when he finally makes it in Hollywood as a successful singer.

"More like, no matter how much you try, you will always be stupid!" Carlos snickered at his response, causing Logan to grin and hi-5 Carlos. Kendall however went back into his own little bubble again. James nudged Carlos with his knee to his knee to get his attention and pointed at Kendall. He was sitting besides Logan but a little further away. Logan caught onto to why there was silent in the room and everyone's eyes shifted to Kendall.

"Come on man, you told us everything was fine and we knew that was bullshit when we first asked you, we're like your brothers, now tell us what's up?" James complained at how silent Kendall was being once again. By now they would've been playing some stupid game, or even had some snappy remarks from him. But Kendall was so disconnected, he didn't even realize James was speaking to him in the first place.

"Huh, what? Oh sorry." He brought his head up, smiled a fake smile and lowered his head again. Kendall didn't want to speak about it, but that's all he could think about. "Just got a lot in my head today I guess?"

"And sharing is caring, now spill." James shifted his body so he was facing Kendall and stared at the boy till he felt uncomfortable and opened up. Kendall disliked opening up. He liked taking on others problem but tried to keep his problem as far away from others as possible. He was what you would call a people pleaser.

"Just leave it. Looks like the blizzard is calmin-"

"Kendall, we're not leaving till you tell us." Logan sternly spoke also adjusting his seating position so he was facing him.

Kendall sighed out. He put his phone on the side on the floor and clasped onto his knee while he slightly crossed his legs. "I thought he'd call. I thought he'd check up on us every now and then since he left. I know it's been 7 months and the last time he spoke to me and Katie was the month he left but that was it. It's like he completely ditched us." He stared at one spot on the wooden floor and gulped. He wasn't going to cry he knew that for sure. He was all out of tears.

All three boys looked at Kendall sympathetically and finally realised why he was so focused on his phone. He was expecting a call from his dad.

"He's a douche man. It just shows he doesn't care so you shouldn't either." James pointed out. He leaned on his arm whiles he placed it behind him and stretched out his legs and crossed one over the other.

"Yeah I know. But whenever the weather gets bad here or when it even snows a little he would always call up to see if we're okay. Every time he's away on a business trip he'd call to see how everything is and how Katie and mom are. But this year, not even a single call." His voice cracked a little when he remembered all those times he would call when they were still a family. He gulped in again and tried to keep himself composed. When his parents split he tried to be strong but let it all go the day his dad left them. Everything was fine one day and the next day it all went downhill.

Jennifer and Keith Knight were once upon a time the happiest married couple people had come across. When Kendall was born things did get rough but they somehow went pass it. After Katie was born things were still pretty rough, but they let it pass. As years went by they argued every day. Kendall would take Katie away from them and they would hide in his room till things calmed down. Keith would get too angry and start throwing stuff around, but he never threw anything at Jennifer directly or Kendall and Katie. But he did let out his anger on his two children. When things got really bad Keith and Jennifer decided the best thing to do was split. Keith was getting harsher every day with his words. Not only hurting Jennifer with the words but also Kendall and Katie. As much as he tried to apologise, Kendall would always hold it against him. Before he left he promised his kids he'd call and check up on them every day but he didn't even do that. When he left, he just left. He called 3 and half weeks later, not to see how they were but to schedule a day for him to collect the rest of his belongings. Kendall lost hope and had a little breakdown and his friend were there to help him through every step of the way to get over his 'douche bag' father. But he had a little intuition that Keith would at least call to check up on a snowy, blizzards day like he would every time it snowed but not even a message. And that's why he'd been staring at his phone all day, just to see if he would even bother with his family... Ex-family.

"I know it must be hard to get past. But the only thing we can say is we're here for you. Forget about him like he has forgotten about you. He's not worth the worry man." Logan assured him and moved his hands onto his shoulder tightening his grip a little to show his support.

"Just leave him. Ignore him. Forget about him. Live your life; don't let him hold you back!" Carlos tried to restore the happiness. He kept his positivity high and wouldn't back down until his friend was smiling again.

"I'm just mad at how I looked up to him and how he disappointed me like majorly. I'm mad at how I let him ruin not only just mine but Katie's life as well. She's only 13 and she had to witness his fucking attitude and fucking anger. And I'm fucking pissed at how he has made my mom insecure and how he hurt her. I feel like a fucking idiot looking up to him." Kendall's hands fisted and his grip around his knees tightened. He hated how he saw Keith as a role model. But know all he saw Keith as was nothing but a man who ruined his family, and he just wanted to forget about him. The other boys stayed quiet looking at the floor not knowing how to respond. They just let Kendall get his frustration out. "Now I feel like it's my responsibility to be the man of the family and to not disappoint. I don't want to fuck up like him. And now I know every time I go out, mom has this fear that I'd walk out on her and Katie. I would never walk out on them. I don't want to be like him."

"You're not even an ounce of that man Kendall. You're the complete opposite of him! He walked away from this, he's a wimp for giving up, and you're a fighter dude. You guys have got no correlation whatsoever." Logan tried to boost his confidence. He tried to get a little smile out of him and tried to at least change the melodramatic atmosphere in the house.

"Trust me Kendall, you can never disappoint anyone. So many people in school look up to you." Carlos moved in closer with the other boys and grinned calmly nodding at Kendall. He crossed his legs and watched Kendall smile a little.

"No they don't. I just need to stop thinking about all this and move on." Kendall sighed out of relief when he got all of that off his chest. "I need to move on. Not give a shit basically." He picked up his phone and put it in his pocket not bothered to even look at it. He was done caring.

"Yes! That's the spirit. Now can we get out of here? It's too dark and I'm getting a little freaked because I think I heard a noise." James squealed quickly jumping up from the floor and running outside. The blizzard had calmed down and they were set to go home.

"Thanks guy needed that boost to let it out. No matter how annoying yous are, I love you guys." Kendall muttered loud enough for the others to hear as he zipped up his jacket and walked ahead.

"And the sappy side to Kendall knight comes out!" James chuckled and ran over to the dark blonde, draping his hands over his shoulders. "We love you too man! Just don't hold back. Even though the house is a little freaky, we should totally go back there tomorrow or every two days just to talk or mess about. Well preferably mess about without getting caught or getting in trouble. It's not like they'll break it down anytime soon. Who knows they might just give it to us."

"Pay for it James and we have a deal!" Carlos laughed as he suggested. He put on his helmet and put his hands deep in his jacket pockets shivering from the cold breeze.

"But why not. If there isn't school tomorrow, we'll meet back there. And then after that why not on Saturday or Sunday." Kendall cocked his head interested in what James had said and agreed with the idea. He thought it would give the guys some time together without their parent intruding. They could just sit and talk or even play indoor hockey without getting in trouble.

"And I'll tutor you guys there and we'll do homework." Logan cheerfully added to their plan and all three groaned at his idea.

"Of course you'd suggest that nerd." Carlos threw a snow ball at Logan and quickly jetted off carefully trying not to slip.

"Shut up Carlos!" Logan grabbed a hand full of snow and aimed it cautiously throwing it at Carlos and it landed on his shoulders. Kendall and James laughed at the two and joined in the little snow ball fight.

"Aww fuck, I have Katie's maths homework to do. And it's 8.45." Kendall suddenly exclaimed when a trigger went off after he looked at his watch. They all dropped the snow in their hand and looked at each other with wide eyes. They knew Katie was capable of opening her mouth to rat on Kendall, which would get him grounded longer than before. And so they walked extremely fast to get home in time.

"You gotta love Katie!" Carlos chuckled as they rushed home.

"Meeting at the house today right?" James leaned against his locker which was two lockers away from Kendall's. He smiled flirtingly and waved at a brunette girl that walked pass him and Kendall looked at James rolled his eyes while shaking his head at how ridiculous James was when it came to girls. He wasn't bad ridiculous, he was just a ladies' man. He would hit on any girl he sees walking pass. And if the girl was desperate enough, as Logan would phrase it, James would take her on a date and do the deed. He would proudly say he's slept with many, many girls. And Logan saw this as a bad habit and a bad influence to Carlos. Carlos already copies his partying style and Logan is worried he may take James' root of sleeping with girls for his own satisfaction without even considering the girls feelings. But then again Carlos respected girls as his mother always taught him to do so.

"Yeah, gotta go home and let mom know then I'll meet you guys there?" Kendall closed his locker after grabbing a couple of books and putting it in his bag. "And dude, when are you going to give it a rest with these girls. You've probably slept with half the girl you flirt with?"

"That's where you're wrong my friend. I will know if I've slept with them because I get this gut feeling when I've slept with them for example," James started walking along side Kendall in the hall way ready to go home. There were a group of girls just outside of the school entrance, "you know the cute blonde in the middle of those girls," He pointed slyly towards a short blonde girl - both of them would agree that she was cute - surrounded by her brunette and another blonde, "I didn't sleep with her, however, the girl beside Blondie, the brunette, yeah totally did her last month." He proudly smiled at his achievement. James would take the girl's feeling into consideration, but if she wanted it, he wasn't going to back down.

"James logic of course.. Something I will never understand." Kendall throw his bag over his should and held it by the handle as he began to part way from James.

"Well it's for me to understand so... you're kind of irrelevant when it comes to my Logic. How about you? Done any girls then? Well have you actually been on a date recently?" Before James walked off the opposite direction to Kendall who stood on the sidewalk beside the school trying to get Kendal to talk about his personal love life and Kendall saw it coming.

"Well, been with one every day, that would just be wrong if I didn't sleep with one every night?" Kendall sarcastically remarked causing James to mockingly laugh.

"Dude I'm serious."

"So am I. Okay no. I'm just not interested in any one and don't want to be wasting time on someone I'm not interested in." Kendall honestly replied. He knew that honestly was the best policy especially when it came to his family and his friends, who he considered pretty much family. "Anyway, See you back at that house, I'll be there in 30."

"I guess we know what we're going to be talking about in the house. See you later man." James cheekily grinned and drifted off the opposite direction. Kendall saw him 'accidently' bump into a tall brunette girl and knew James' flirting game was on. He shifted his eyes away from him and continued walking home.

He quickly ran upstairs once he arrived, and changed his clothing and his shoes into something more comfortable. Before he could leave the room, he heard a knock on the door. Kendall fidgeted with his shoe lace before yelling 'Come in'.

Mrs Knight walked into his room with a cheery smile on her face. "Honey, are you not going to eat anything before you go out?"

"Already ate mom. Have you seen my other shoes, I can't find it." Kendall began to search his room and in his closet frustratingly looking for his black vans instead of his current white vans. He wore a red plaid shirt and simple black skinny jean. He felt more comfortable in it than he did with what he wore to school. Mrs Knight looked under his bed and found his black vans and also grabbed him a jacket to wear as it was chilly outside. "Thanks mom. I'll be sure to be home by dinner." Kendall left his room after giving a quick kiss to his mom and yelling a see yah later to Katie and grabbed his phone.

"Don't be late, and I have some news to share." Mrs Knight called out before he disappeared, still plastered with a huge grin.

After 35 minutes he made his way to the house. For the past two weeks the boys had been going there and hanging out and messing around. They played games, talked and enjoyed the silence sometimes in there. It had been abandoned for too long and they thought they'd make some use of it. Kendall could see from a distance James' head and Logan's back while Carlos was turned to face them, so he only got to see the side of his face. Carlos' eyes were furrowed and his arms were crossed. Kendall thought maybe because he was late they were annoyed. They would've gone in without him when they arrived, but they all stood there confused.

"Hey guys, sorry I'm late wanted to change." Kendall jogged up to them when he was yards away from them. He grasped for a little air before he reached out and saw what the boys where looking at.

"Does anybody know when they moved in?" Carlos asked curiously. They all stood in front of the not so abandoned or dirty looking house with their heads cocked and a confused expression.

"When did new tenants move in, I thought they were going to break it down soon any way?" James questioned whatever was going on in front of him. They'd become so fond and attached to the place that they didn't know new tenants would actually move in.

A woman in dark brown hair, who looked like she was in her mid 30's walked out of the house to look at her front yard. She smiled at her view and then walked over to the moving van. "Cassidy, bring that up to the living room." She spoke to someone in the moving van and retreated back in the house frustratingly. The boys hang out area had been taken over.

A/N: CHAPTER 1 COMPLETED! Well guys what do you think? Good? Bad? Boring? Wtf? Anything? Lol Okay so this chapter had some angst and it introduced us to the characters. I feel that starting off a story is difficult but with this story it has a lot more going on in the first couple of chapters.

Okay so this is just getting started. We will be introduced to a new character in the next chapter. And trust me when i say this story is going to get dark pretty soon. I'm excited to start this story and hopefully the next time I upload will be on Wednesday or earlier, depending on the reviews of this chapter.

Ahh So excited for this story and to share it with you guys. Had this idea plastered into my head for a very long time. The chapters are longer by the way, is that a good thing or bad thing lol And so much is going to happen in this story.

Would absolutely love it if you could review on this chapter to let me know what you think! Hugs and kisses to everyone! Lots of love xoxo

Avery :)