Understanding
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NOTE: Song lyrics
Bakura's thoughts
Chapter 1 –
You hold the answers deep within your own mind.
Consciously, you've forgotten it.
That's the way the human mind works.
The human mind had always baffled me. Not even science could really explain how it worked.
Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us
to entertain, we reject it.
We erase it from our memories.
The Pharaoh lost his memories…so sometimes we don't really have a choice.
But the imprint is always there.
True…the Pharaoh had some feelings from his memories…which proved they were just forgotten consciously.
(Can't wash it all away)
You can't wash sins away.
(Can't wish it all away)
You certainly can't wish them away.
(Can't hope it all away)
Hope won't work either.
(Can't cry it all away)
Crying makes the pain grow harder.
The pain that grips you
Pain is my familiar friend now.
The fear that binds you
I've learnt to block out fear.
Releases life in me
Yet I find it so…amusing to watch others screaming in their own fear.
In our mutual
Shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth
Why is it that people are afraid to know the truth? As a tormentor, I take great pride in pointing it out to them, telling them it's the truth they fear…and then revelling in their screams a pure peril afterwards.
That finds a way from who we are
Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dark is never completely gone, as all good psychopaths know.
The dawn will break the silence
I only like silence when I'm the one causing it. When I'm alone and there's no one to disturb me.
You get a lot of that, spending countless years trapped in the Ring.
Screaming in our hearts
I don't get why people fear the silence. It makes no sense to fear what can help them sense their foes.
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time
Love is a foolish emotion too.
We're supposed to try and be real.
Why should you try and act "normal" – what is "normal" in this world now? What was "normal" ever?
And I feel alone, and we're not together. And that is real.
Pain, Suffering, Fear, Terror, Lust…they are the only real emotions you can get. Love and Happiness will never last, because they feed on themselves.
Can't wash it all away
Yet I suppose happiness is fun to feel while it lasts…as long as you know it will not stay forever.
Can't wish it all away
You can't wish for happiness. Or love. That only makes your heart ache more.
Can't cry it all away
Crying is for the foolish, and for those with weak defences.
Can't scratch it all away
Self-harming does nothing, trust me, after seeing it happen to so many miserable hosts before, I know that perfectly well.
Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The life that flows inside of you
Burns inside of me
I read a poem once. An old host wrote it. He was never any good, except for that one piece. Short and dark…sounds like a cross between Yugi and the Pharaoh.
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this
And I will die for you
To die for another is a noble act, for sure…but it's also a selfish one.
Cast me not away
Doing that will leave the other so pained…even if you are happy they are safe.
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot
Bear it all alone
Not all pain can be taken alone. I know that, but that's beside the point.
You're not alone, honey.
Never... Never.
Never alone? That's not possible. Somewhere inside of you, you are always alone.
That even applies to a weirdo like Tea.
Can't fight it all away
Fighting can push it away…for a while.
Can't hope it all away
Hope has never helped me, though it is a nice idea, in a way.
Can't scream it all away
Screaming just makes them feel superior…or worse, they feel sorry for you.
I hate that emotion.
Sympathy
It just won't fade away, No
Something like that can never fade away.
Can't wash it all away
Not even the strongest of cleaning spells would help erase it all.
Can't wish it all away
Wishing does nothing but raise false hopes.
Can't cry it all away
Crying brings attention, and I have never appreciated that for crying.
Can't scratch it all away
Why harm yourself when you can take it out on others?
(Can't fight it all away)
Fighting works for a while…never forever.
(Can't hope it all away)
Hope won't work and neither will wishing.
Can't scream it all away
Screaming…what's the point?
Ooh, it all away
Ooh, it all away
Emotions really are tiresome, I find.
Wow, so random and slightly depressing. Eh, whatever. Please review, much thankies for reading, naioka1992 - xoxo