Story: Trying to let go of something out of your reach

Rating: M

Bleach and Bleach Characters are not owned by me

Topic: Can I let go of what makes me happy and sad at the same time?

The girl looked out to the setting sun that~as she thought~ fell of the face of the earth taking her hopes and sunshine with it and her lover. It broke her heart and she gripped the rail harder turning her hands white.

It was funny but when he came alone into her life she was not so sad anymore. Even though he always scowled at every and anything he still had a nice smile that could warm her heart and make her knees go feeble and she forgot how to walk. Her new sunshine like her brother's had set with the sun never to return to her broken heart.

Ever since he became a soul reaper she got closer to seeing the real side of him, the caring protective side of him that she loved but he wasn't hers and she was broken at that thought. He wasn't interested in her and he never would.

He was more into her. The girl who could make him so happy when he was down, something she couldn't do, and turn his life around. She was jealous of her and she acknowledged that a long time ago but after what happened today she found herself having a new kind of jealousy that she hated herself for so much.

He sunshine was now for ever gone from her grasp and she knew that today's event was proof of that. And as she looked at the sun take her sunshine away yet again she replayed the events that occurred in her mind.

Flashback

"Oh Tatsuki-chan I'm going to the library to get some work done," she yelled to the girl who wanted to know why she was leaving lunch so soon.

"Oh well good luck with that then," Tatsuki yelled back to her.

"Oh hime-chan let me come with you so that we can have a little alone time toge-," the girl got one punch to the nose and her fell to the ground holding her nose.

Tatsuki's eye twitched," Like I would leave you alone to grope her in such a secluded place like that! Over my dead body Chizuru you lesbian!"

Said girl rose her head to look up at tatsuki with a evil look in her eyes as she held her bleeding nose with her hand as the blood pooled through her hand." That is exactly what I intend to do. Have my and hime's wedding ceremony right over your dead body."

This made Tatsuki red with rage and chizuru was kicked square in the butt and sent skating across the room pass chairs and desk and face first into the wall.

"As if I of all people would let that happen," She said through gritted teeth.

"Ano, I'll see you later Tatsuki-chan,chizuru-chan," she said as she waved good-bye to them.

Tatsuki waved back to her with a smile as if nothing happened and Orihime wondered if her friend that was now apart of the school wall was okay. She want to check on her but she needed to go. This made Orihime mentally thank Karma that Tatsuki was her friend and not her enemy.

Orihime walked down the empty corridor humming to herself walking in the direct of her destination as her hair swayed with her every move. She had changed quite a bit since her rescue from that prison that Aizen had create and she lived in for how long she didn't know but was glad to be rescued from. Her hair were no longer being held by sapphire hair pins. Her hair pins were attached to her uniform and her bangs had grown to frame a beautiful heart-shaped face and her hair curled at her back all the way down to just above her butt kinda like Rangiku's hair. Her body was that of a woman's with bigger breasts, slim waist and wider hips. Yes Inoue was the girl with the body that haunted every boy's wet dreams and she barely noticed any of that. her current uniform was hugging her way to tight and made her every curve along with creamy legs that looked so smooth and flawless. She even walked with a sway of her body that was both innocent and sexy and graceful. The whole package with a sweet personality as a bonus.

Orihime still found that she could catch her lover's eye though so she didn't think she was anything to look at at all.

Her thoughts were interrupted by a sound. More like the sound of movement and... voices... vaguely familiar voices. Her curiosity got the better of her and she crept closer to the noise and came to the science lab. She opened the door slowly and peeped in. She saw what looked like...black...and... orange? It was...ichigo and rukia! They were standing so close together that she was begining to wonder. Did something happen in the Soul society that she didn't know about? Yes that had to be it, right?

Her face was etched with pain as Rukia's face came into view and what she saw had nothing to do with the soul society or even hollows. She was looking at ichigo with the same eyes as what she had when she was...

No! She wasn't gonna stay there for this! It was too soon to for this to happen and she wasn't ready for it so she dashed away from the room tears stinging her eyes and her hair flowing behind her.

The two teens stared at the the door confusion clear on both their faces.

"Was that Inoue," Rukia asked breaking the silence.

Ichigo shook his head." I doubt that and does it matter?"

Tears had started falling down her like crystals in an underground diamond mine since the night had fallen and the moon was shining down on her figure. Her skin was like silk and soft which was smooth to the touch. She rose her head to look at the scene before her and the breeze blew her hair past her face and her looked as though it was reaching for something that wasn't there. To anyone passing by she was an beautiful angel as far as they were concerned but to her she was just and ugly girl with no fighting powers strong enough to fight in battle and she always needed saving from something. She smiled sadly to no one in particular as more tears formed in her eyes.

Kurosaki-kun wanted someone like Kuchiki-chan who could fight and not have to always be behind his back and watching from the sidelines and she was no fighter...at least not like Rukia was and she hated that about herself. Sora would be ashamed of her and was turning in his grave at her behavior.

She was ashamed at herself too but this was how you behaved when you were in love,right? No she was just making excuses for her inexcusable bad behavior. Orihime wiped her tears and smiled to herself. She shouldn't be so mopey when summer was two weeks away and she had school tomorrow! She jerked up at that realization, her hair moving in time with her action,and she swiftly turned around and walked back into her apartment unaware of the pair of eyes watching her every movement.

"I'm telling you man my chances at Inoue-chan is getting slim! I can feel it in the atmosphere," Shouted Keigo dramatically.

Someone tapping on cellphone keys briefly looked up slightly." Asano, I think you just fell over the wrong side of your bed and presumed that theory to convince yourself that you aren't a complete klutz."

Ichigo signed and rested his cheek in his palm rolling his eyes." What day does he not fall on the wrong side his bed and come here to bother my head?"

"Being grumpy as usual are we," asked a familiar voice causing Ichigo to look up.

He was about to say something but someone who pushed up their glasses beat him to it." What day isn't Kurosaki not grumpy."

"Shut up four eyes or you'll be completely blind!"

A hand rested on his shoulder as he was about to get up and he trailed the hand up to the owned. Rukia shook her head and he sat down instantly, his anger seeming to decrease.

This didn't go missed by any of their friends including Renji who looked away with a frown. It also didn't go missed by a certain red head who had happened to come in and see quite a bit of the scene.

Pain was in her eyes if you looked hard enough but she bowed her head quickly and for the first time since she became friends with the gang, she didn't wave or say good morning to either of them. She knew if she tried her voice would crack trying to sound cheery when she she was in a new stage of brokenness (if that was even possible). Hopefully no one noticed her coming and passing.

She quickly rushed over to her seat, sat down and hid her face in a book that she was obviously using to hid her face and fix on her fake smile for the rest of the day. For once her quiet apartment seemed to be the best place to be to hide and cry an endless fountain of tears without making anyone worry over her. She didn't even notice in her hurrying to reach her desk that someone was following her movements and noticed her sad expression.

Tatsuki was quite early as far as she knew when she went to pick Orihime to walk to school with her but she wasn't there so she hurried off to school to find her. Sure enough there was Orihime reading a book that was way to close to her face for her liking and there was Ichigo with that Rukia girl...looking at her a little too mushy for her not to want to throw up but that wasn't important right now.

"Oi, Hime what are you doing," Tatsuki shouted at the top of her voice alerting everyone in the classroom of her presence including the gang.

"Wait Inoue is here? Where?"

They looked around until they all spotted her figure crouched down, face deep in her book.

Orihime swore she heard Tatsuki's voice but she didn't look up though for fear of meeting brown eyes boring into her soul so she didn't. Truth be told she rushed of to school to avoid walking with Tatsuki at all cost. In fact she really didn't want see or talk much about anything at the moment and she really didn't want the worry to be directed to her at all. So she shrugged of the voice as nothing but her imagination but it kept calling her constantly so she very slowly looked up with her brows pulled down and her forehead creased with worry.

The group was watching Orihime waiting for her to look up for the longest while when Tatsuki kept calling her name and she finally looked up with a deep frown looking around for awhile before resting her gaze on the group. Her frown slowly decreasing.

She waved what appeared to be a timid wave." Hi Tatsuki-chan. I though I heard your voice but thought it was in my head."

"Don't give me that hi tatsuki-chan shit hime!" She yelled walking towards Orihime.

Before she could reach her though she found herself coming eye level with the floor and hit it with a crash getting stomped on by someone's foot.

"Hime-chan! I didn't know you came to school my love!"Chizuru yelled as she squeezed Orihime body~most her breast in everyone's eyes~ tightly.

Orihime gave her a timid smile."Yeah I got here awhile ago. I guess I forgot to say good morning huh?"

Chizuru looked at her with badly dramatic tears."Forgot?! Hime how could you abandon your friends so easily or more importantly me?!"

"Uh..."Orihime stumbled but didn't have to worry about answering cause Chizuru was peeled off her frame and slammed against the closed window with a bang by a raging bull called El torro Tatski. '

The whole class sweat dropped at the swiftness of her movements from the class floor to the girl's neck in such speed and they all could swear the glass was starting to crack. Orihime looked on in wonder before she grabbed Tatsuki's arm.

"Please stop that tatsuki," she said gently."You don't need to do that for me. It's fine."

"But she-," She cut shirt when she saw the look on Orihime's face. She signed and loosened her grip before letting go of the girl. She turned to Orihime only for the girl to give her a small smile, eyes hidden by hair that fell over her face, before she dropped her hand to her side, turned away and walked out the classroom silently. Tatsuki clenched her fist at her side before un clenching her hands in a defeated look.

The gang hadn't said anything about that morning's even though it bothered them to some extent, some more than others but they tried there best not to show it as they gathered after school to talk about what they were going to do for their summer. The group consisted of Ichigo, Rukia, Renji, Keigo, Mizuru, Tatsuki, Chizuru, Chad and Uryu. Orihime had yet to be seen by anyone.

"Beach! I even have a nice place we can stay away form people," Keigo shouted to the group.

"Fine we'll go to the friggin' beach with you! Just shut up already," ichigo yelled back with an irritated look.

"Where is Orihime," questioned Rukia looking around her searching for the auburn haired girl.

Uryu pushed his glasses up his face and replied,"I haven't seen her around most of the day either or hear her. Did you Chad?"

The large man just shook his head as a response.

Tatsuki who was hoping that the boring meeting would be over as she slouched in the seat jumped up at something that caught her interest.

"What Fuck?! Is that Orihime?!"She shouted to no one in particular as she jumped up from her lazy position." Hey Hime is that you?!"

Said girl looked around before her eyes rested on the group. She waved with a wide smile at the group and turned in their direction and walked towards them.

"Um Tatsuki didn't you say that you would have karate classes today," She question with a hand to her chin in wonder completely oblivious to the shocked stares she was receiving from everyone.

Tatsuki shook out of her shock and shout," What the devil are you wearing?!"

Orihime had her hair up in one looking very nice an her bangs still framing her face. She was wearing a shirt that covered just above her bust and just below her shoulders with a sleeveless undershirt. She was also wearing a short pants that showed up her creamy legs in the sun and a pair of flat close up shoes and my god it was something to look at.

She looked down at her outfit." It's my work outfit." Our work's air condition is in repairs and it's gotten so hot since the summer is coming around. I changed into these since I'm late for work already."

But-bu-," Tatsuki was at lost for words by now like a wire had burst.

Orihime looked up at her with a puzzled look and to make it worse she clasped her hands behind her back making her breast jut out." Is something wrong?"

"I don't think so."

"AND I agree."

Son of a bitch she was too much in everything.

"We're going to go to some beach this weirdo picked out for us for our summer vacation," Renji dead-panned.

"We're going three weeks starting in August then come back before the fourth week," keigo announced proudly.

Orihime's mouth made a cute 'o' shape and tatsuki took this opportunity to talk.

"You must come or I might die from boredom being stuck with these people."

"We love your company so much too,"someone dead-panned behind her but she ignored it.

"Please come with me," she begged Orihime and she couldn't say no so she nodded a yes. She didn't want to go since she figured why rukia and in turn renji was in their world and it hurt her more.

Orihime was about to say something when her phone rang off and she jumped a little.

"What is that noise?"

"My phone! Probable my boss calling to tell me I'm super late for work," She said as she ran off, her hair and breast moving with her (not going un notice by the group) as she waved good-bye.

"We still have to talk about your new dress code that has you so exposed hime!" Tatsuki yelled.

Orihime turned red." You did have to let everyone know that!"

"I know" and she smile at her blushing friend as she ran off into the distance.

"I saw heaven."

"Me too."

"WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU MEAN BY THAT?!"

My second story hope you enjoy. :)