A/N: Hey, guys! I'm hoping all of you are relieved that it's finally freaking thanksgiving break! I seriously need this break. It's my first months of high school and it's been a struggle. Home, personal life has also been hell. Anyway, I'd like to let you guys know that I'll still try to continue working on "Love Is Everything," until my mind burns out of ideas for that storyline. :) hope you enjoy this story. It has some things that have occurred in my life. And, Sis, if you're reading this... You'll understand the story more. I've been depressed lately but I'm slowly getting back to normal. Anyway, enough about my crap, I hope you enjoy this story. I hope none of you will think it sucks. If you do think it will, then, go read something else. :)

Love, Anisoka21

And to my Favorite man in the entire world, Ben Burnley. Who writes the most amazing songs ever.

Also, to the man that is my life.

If you're reading this... Just know I'll never forget you.

Ahsoka Tano's POV

I walked down the enormous halls of the Jedi Temple, biting my lip from quivering.

Anakin wasn't in the best... Mood this entire week. He and I had an argument just last night and we haven't even looked at each other ever since. A couple of times I tried to speak to him but he just turned around and left.

The darkness of my room didn't quite help my depression. But it was relaxing. I stepped in my quiet room, sighing.

'We need to be over...'

'Don't destroy yourself because of him...'

I grasped the carpet underneath me, rocking back and forth. I began to whimper.

'He's not worth killing yourself for...'

'You can do so much better than me in this life, Soka.'

'... Take care of her for me ok? I love her and she needs someone...' Anakin told Barriss this after our argument.

I huffed out deep, shallow breaths, sobbing.

'You can't honestly want to be with me...' Anakin told me so long ago.

Anakin sighed, 'You need to move on...'

'Why are you doing this?' I cried to him.

'Just pretend I never came into your life...' he announced softly.

I gripped the rug beneath me, trembling.

'I wish he knew I love him so much that I'd give up my life for his. If something were to happen to him, I'd sacrifice everything for him...'

'I'll be here as long as I don't get you in trouble...'

I wept, getting up quickly. "LIAR!" I cried, throwing items and flipping the furniture over. "You liar! You promised me that you'd be here and you left me!"

Barriss came in, fear clearly shown on her face. "Ahsoka, stop! Please, calm down" she shouted, restraining my hands in front of us.

I looked at her with crazy eyes. "I can't, Barriss!" I screamed, tears leaving my eyes like crazy.

"You need to calm down," she whispered.

I broke down in front of her, unable to keep my emotions within me.

After my shower that was filled with tears I hugged my knees. Barriss was out with a couple of friends, asking me before she left if I wanted her to stay. I didn't want her stay with me just to keep me company. She needed to go out for a while.

I wiped the tears away, but the air kept hitching in my throat. Suddenly, I grew furious. I let out a yell, searching around my dorm for a sharp item.

'Damn, no knives...' I cursed under my breath. Barriss must've taken them all. 'There's got to be something -'

I quickly snatched a toothpick, and began scratching the back of my hand. I continued to cry but it felt... Good. The emotional pain was fading slowly away as I felt pain on my hand. But the memories of what happened replayed in my head.

I sobbed again, rubbing the wooden sharp toothpick deeply against my flesh.

"Stupid thing, why won't you do anything?!" I cried, rubbing harder.

I gave up and threw the tiny item across the room. My hand felt like it was on fire... I looked at it and it was all scratched up. One specific scratch almost began to bleed, but it wasn't deep enough.

I didn't have anyone but myself... Of course I had Barriss and some fellow Jedi, but I still felt alone. Barriss is the only one who gets me but she can't always be here to support me. I know she tries her hardest to keep me alive and happy and I try to do the same. But at some points, like now, I can't stop thinking about ending my life.

I sighed, getting up slowly like the dead being I am, and grabbed my black leather journal.

'The aggressive argument

Though it's heartbreaking...

I'm hoping this is not the end...'

I shut my book closed when I felt Master Plo's presence drawing closer by a second.