Cry
Disclaimer: I don't own any character of ER (except possibly Luka..) and I
don't own the lyrics of the song used.
Summary: Short standalone. It takes place around Touch and Go, season ten.
It's my version of how Abby would feel after meeting Carter and Kem. (Sorry
if she seems a
bit unstable and out of character)
Author's notes: The song used is "Cry" by Faith Hill. I haven't read this
through and I don't have a beta reader, so I'll probably edit it later, but
for now, this is it. Feedback appreciated. ;)
Maybe I could cope
Maybe I'd get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent
The sound of water flowing smoothly is a soothing sound. She was taken in
by the warmth, trying to ignore the desperate aching in her chest, that
feeling so similar to pure heartbreak.
How could she ever think that she could move on? Meeting them, looking into
his eyes, it had been a slap in the face. Replaced by someone new. Replaced
by someone new.
She knew that she was the one to blame.
But why did he have to replace her so soon?
And why did he have to look so happy?
Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
She didn't try to blame it all on him. They both did hurting. She was still
painfully aware of their last month spent together. And the night that he
returned from Africa, and she pushed him away. But couldn't he have seen
that she really didn't want him to leave? Why couldn't he have understood
that she had wanted him to come back? It wasn't fair to blame it on him,
she knew that. But she had really thought he would understand. She never
imagined he would just cut her loose. Like what they had never meant
anything to him.
It meant the world to her.
If your love could be caged
Honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath
The pile of lies you've handed me
And you'd hunt those lies
They'd be all you'd ever find
That'd be all you'd have to know
For me to be fine
It had always been all about her, she couldn't deny that. But she had
really tried to keep her problems to herself. She had tried so hard to be
the kind of person he wanted her to be. A.A. meetings, the endless patches
to quit smoking, she did it for him. When she cried, she tried to hide it.
She did it for him. She made mistakes, but he made mistakes too. It wasn't
a good enough reason to go across the world and meet someone new.
It wasn't.
Was it?
And you'd cry a little
And die just a little
And maybe I would feel just a little less pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
She made her way into her bedroom. The room held no evidence of their time
together. It didn't need to.
She picked up the t-shirt she would sleep in. The distant scent of the man
she was supposed to spend her life together with made the memories come
back, so close that she could almost sense him in the dark.
This was pointless, she knew it. It only made her weaker. And she didn't
want to be weak. But somehow the darkness seemed to close in on her.
A week ago she would have wished for him to hold her.
Now all she wanted was for him to think about her.
To remember her. To miss her.
To be a little less fine.
Give it up baby
I hear you're doin' fine
Nothings gonna' save me
Til I see it in your eyes
Some kind of heartache honey
Give it a try
I don't want pity
I just want what is mine
It was raining. Just like that night. The night she went over again and
again in her mind. She held her breathe, almost expecting him to walk
through that door. Give her a second change. Let her know that he still
cared for her. That he still wanted to save her.
But he didn't come.
God, she hated him! How could he replace her, just like that? One letter.
Wasn't she even worth a phone call?
She wanted to choke him until he cried for her.
She wanted to do anything to make her own pain go away.
And she didn't want to be afraid.
Would you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
She didn't want to feel anymore.