"For we are nothing without brotherhood.
And brotherhood is nothing without your brothers"
-We Came as Romans "Intentions"
Dear brother,
I miss you.
You're gone but I know
(at least I hope I do)
that you're coming back.
I hope that you are enjoying that castle
with all its excitement and mysteries.
I understand
(or at least I try to)
that you're busy with your friends
and writing to me probably just slipped your mind.
I only ask that you come back because
dear brother
I miss you.
Dear brother,
I miss you.
I hope you're doing well
just keep your chin up
and don't let them break you.
I realize that I'm not there to protect you
but I'll be back soon
I promise.
Please,
dear brother,
stay strong
because I know I would
miss you
(the real you)
if you changed.
Dear brother,
how are you?
Isn't it weird how we are so close
yet the distance is overwhelming?
I know you're busy with your
cool new friends
but it would be nice to know
what you've been up to,
how you are...
I understand, though, that you don't return my
waves&smiles&nods
because across the room
the d i s t a n c e between
my table and yours
is just too large.
I just wanted to know,
dear brother,
how are you?
Dear brother,
how are you?
I know it seems like I've been
avoiding you
but it's not like that
(not really.)
I've been taking care of you
even if you don't see it.
I make sure that you aren't being
hurt or bullied or teased.
Just think of me as your
protector
'cause I'll keep you safe
forever
(I promise.)
I know we haven't exchanged words in a while
but I need to know,
dear brother,
how are you?
Dear brother,
I know your secret.
It's all right – please don't fret
I would never tell Mum or Dad
'cause we both know how they'd react.
Don't worry, though,
because it took me forever to work it out.
I can see the way you look at him
and you know what?
If he makes you happy
then I'm happy
(it's the truth.)
I can tell that he understands you
better than anyone else
so, promise me, brother,
don't mess it up
because you're lucky to have found someone like him.
Trust me,
dear brother,
I know your secret
but it's safe with me.
Dear brother,
I know your secret.
My lips are sealed because
I know that you'd be
disowned
if they ever found out that
your heart belongs to someone
with tainted blood.
She's beautiful, by the way.
But, please promise me, my brother,
that you'll be careful
because I would hate to see you get hurt
and some Ravenclaws are too smart
for their own good.
So,
dear brother,
I thought I'd just approve
of that secret.
Dear brother,
I'm terrified.
I see the way you tense
when they merely talk to you.
I see the way your patience is
running on empty.
Can't you see
that this scares me?
I don't want you to leave
because I'm not sure
how I would survive a
day&week&month
in that hell hole
without you.
Please,
dear brother,
think twice before you pack your bags
because
I'm terrified.
Dear brother,
I'm terrified.
I can feel that I'm
balancing on the edge of
snapping.
I can feel that
any day now
I'll be packed and gone.
I know it is bothering you
but can't you see how it's
killing me?
I can't deal with this much longer.
But, can't you see,
dear brother,
that I'm terrified, too?
'Cause if they taint you when I leave
I don't know how I would live with myself.
Dear brother,
please forgive me.
I was mad&scared&upset
and I said things that I didn't mean.
Can you just forget those words I said
because I really don't hate you?
Can you just look at me
without your face turning stone cold?
That's all I ask,
dear brother,
for your forgiveness.
Dear brother,
please forgive me.
I know I broke my promises
'cause I said forever.
But don't you see
that forever is getting shorter and shorter each day?
No, no, I'm not saying that I was right
because I know I was wrong
to go without even looking back.
I wish it could've turned out differently
but it was something I had to do
(for me.)
So,
dear brother,
I ask for your forgiveness
because I promise I'll still be there for you
if you let me.
Dear brother,
I hate you.
Look at what I have become.
Look at me.
You can scowl all you want
but it's your fault that I'm
here like this.
Y'know what?
I take back my forgiveness
because I was right when I said
those three words
(I hate you.)
I'm doomed to an eternity
of nothing but
misery and death
because of you and your selfishness.
So, I thought I'd let you know,
dear brother,
that I hate you.
Dear brother,
I hate you.
Look at the guilt that I have to live
with for the rest of my days.
Did you ever think about that
before you went and got yourself Marked?
Of course you didn't
'cause you're becoming just like them
and all they think about is themselves.
I wish things would've happened differently
because you had so much potential
but your choice ruined both of us
(good one.)
You'll be forever Marked.
I'll be forever guilty.
It's true,
dear brother,
I hate you.
Dear brother,
I'm sorry for everything.
There, I said it.
I'm sorry for ruining your life.
I'm sorry for putting you in that position.
I'm just sorry for everything and anything
and I know that I'm to blame.
I wish you would've just
killed me
the other night
because it would've been a favor
but I know that was a lot to ask.
I probably don't even deserve
such a peaceful death, anyway.
I know that you hate me,
dear brother,
but I need you to realize
that I'm sorry for everything.
Dear brother,
I'm sorry for everything.
It's my fault that you ended up
there like that
and now it's my fault that
you're still suffering.
I couldn't mutter the words that would've
taken the light from your grey eyes
even though I knew it was right.
I guess Mum and Dad were right all along
I'm just a fuck-up.
I wish I could've done what you asked
it was the least I could do
but you should know by now
that I'm selfish.
I know you don't want to hear it,
dear brother,
but I'm sorry for everything
and I really mean it this time.
Dear brother,
I love you.
I know you don't love me
and I understand that.
I just can't leave this
damn world without
letting you know that.
I've always loved you
even when I hated you.
I wish you could be there
to hold my hand when I leave
f o r e v e r
but I know you won't
and I don't blame you.
So, before the water fills my lungs,
dear brother,
I just need you to know
I love you.
Dear brother,
I love you.
I can tell I'm too late.
I can feel that you're gone now.
I just know it.
I'm sorry for being such a bastard
all these years
but apologies don't even matter anymore
because I'm here and you're there.
I wish I could've seen you one last time
there would have been no hate in my eyes
I would've embraced you
and let you know that everything would be just fine
but I'm too late.
I know you can't hear me
and I don't know if you would even listen if you could but,
dear brother,
I love you.
The lyrics above belong to the band "We Came as Romans." They're an awesome band so go check them out!
This just popped into my head when I was on my way to school today. I swear it only took me an hour to write it. It has to be my favorite RiuReg fic and possibly my favorite fic that I've written.
I guess this is a freeverse poem, but I realize that it isn't as poetic-ly written as most FVs are. I meant for that because I wanted people to feel emotions and not just read pretty metaphors and pictures.
Fangz mew for betaing! *Hands poor Riu 'cause he needs a hug!*