Gone
I was laying on the bed in Adrian's condo, right next to Adrian and a thousand thoughts were swirling into my mind. We had just finished having sex and honestly...I didn't know how to feel. I wasn't a virgin anymore, and that was a shocking discovery in itself. Even though I knew that I was going to do this, it still felt so strange to say that I had lost my virginity, and to Adrian of all people.
Adrian was wild when it came to this stuff. I had no idea what I was doing, or how I should be feeling. I wished now more than ever that my parents were here...Well, maybe not here in Adrian's room because that would be awkward, but I just wish that I could talk to them right now.
When I talked to football players they always said that sex was no big deal. They had bounced from girl to girl and all they left me with was, "It feels good, but sometimes the girls get too emotional." I honestly didn't know what meant, but as I looked at Adrian she didn't look emotional at all. If anything, I was the one who looked emotional. I didn't think I did. I thought I had a straight face, but I realized that I wasn't as stone faced as I thought when Adrian reached over and touched my cheek.
She chuckled, "Jack Papas are you crying? Seriously?"
I wiped the tears off of my face quickly, and then I got out of bed as fast as I could and started to put my clothes on, "I think I should get going..."
Adrian shrugged, "Have it your way. Did you have fun?"
"I don't know yet," I mumbled.
She rolled her eyes at me, "You knew when you were doing it. And I'd say that you had lots of fun."
At that moment a flood of memories came back in my head and I started to remember some of the things that I had done with Adrian. I decided for now that it was fun, because that's what it was supposed to be right? Sex was supposed to be fun. It was never meant to be some spiritual bond that they taught you in church...right? No, everyone I talked to failed to mention that, and they had more experience than I did.
"I guess I'll see you around Adrian?"
Adrian shrugged, "Maybe. Most likely not. Bye Papas."
I drew in a deep breath and sighed, "Bye."
Once I walked out of the door I could feel my chest tightening and my eyes watering. I had just lost my virginity and I couldn't even explain how I felt.
A/N: I always thought about how Grace felt losing her virginity, but this time I wanted to look into Jack's perspective. This is just a one-shot and I'll get started on my other stories when I can. Thanks for reading.