Past
Met Bill
Rathbone - got drank from by Bill
Rathbone - Drank from Bill (or else would have died)
The Rathbone are the ones who tried to get Bill's blood and in some ways got Sookie to drink from Bill and Bill to drink from Sookie
Maudette
Jason Accused
Dawn
Fangtasia Eric seductive
Grandma
Jason slapped me.
Now
My life had changed a lot in the past few months. Positively? No! Yes, I had a new boyfriend, huh, vampire-friend, but he had brought me a lot of trouble. A lot more trouble than happiness, I would think. Because I was dating him, my grandmother had died. And I was living alone, in that big house which used to be hers. I felt an urge to stop being his girlfriend. I used to love him, or so I think, but I was not quite sure I did not only love the silence of his mind. He kissed well, indeed, but he had some two hundred years. It was easy to be good after that. I was no fang-banger, although people thought "Crazy-Sookie" was "banging" Vampire Bill. Tonight was going to be a hard night. Bill was waiting for me as I came back from Merlotte's, where most of the thoughts about me were about my responsibility in my grand-mother's death and the slap my brother gave me after the funeral. It had been an exhausting evening. He was smiling at me and came toward me to kiss me just as I got out of the car. I pushed his torso and put a hand on his lips. I had to talk to him, and I would not be able if he kissed me.
- Listen, Bill, I have something to tell you. I have to be honest… You really are nice, but… I started as we were walking toward my house, making his jaw stiffen and his eyes darken.
- It is not you, it is me, is that it? He asked rather angrily, making me be very close to the wall, stuck between it and his muscular torso.
- Bill, you try to understand, I said uneasy with the situation. It is too soon after my grandma's death, "which is because of me liking you, I added in thought,for me to have feelings such as these.
- I cannot believe you entertained me with false beliefs, Sookie Stackhouse! He said as his were fangs totally down, with the anger that was rushing through him.
- William Thomas Compton, pull back! You are too close to me for my liking; I said my hands fumbling in my back to get the doorknob.
He must have seen me or felt me trying to reach it, though he might just have heard me with his oversensitive vampire senses, because he took me off the wall and threw me on the floor very roughly. It hurt my back and head, which I believe started bleeding. I tried to get to the door crawling on the floor, so he got me off the floor and I felt the wind on my body and legs, which were naked because of my skirt, which I wore at work, and which was now higher because of the wind, and I saw the cemetery pass in a blur in front of my eyes. He led me to his house so I could not recant my invitation, and laid me on the floor with a carpet, in front of the fire place. He was licking the blood which was dirtying my hair by the seconds. I could tell by the sharp hurt on my head that his fangs were completely down. He then lay on top of me, kissing my neck and grazing at it with his fangs. I could feel his blood-lust, but also another kind of lust which made me struggle to be free.
- Do not worry, if you do not do anything stupid, it should not hurt.
- Let me go! I yelled.Bill! No! I said, hitting him as hard as I could, hurting my fist, particularly my thumb and two fingers, crashing my bones, making me moan in pain.
- Sookie, he said warningly as I tried to escape his grip, which tightened against me.
- Fuck you, Bill, and let me go!
- I will do that in order, Sookie, he said, muttering against my ear.
- Don't you fucking think about that, dick! I retorted not very choosing my words wisely.
- Sookie, Sookie, Sookie, he said with reproach in his voice before taking a big painful bite in my neck, make me moan in pain again and try to get out of his grip some more.
He had gotten half of what he wanted: making me look like a fang-banger. Now, he desired only one thing, I could feel it through the bond: making me one of them. My skirt was now pretty high and his jeans unbuttoned, as he was trying to get his boxer down and was fumbling on my breast rather painfully. It made me see red. A sudden blasting light blew out of my body, which made him fly ten meters away, passing through the wall. He was partly burnt and bled a little. I did not take time to think about his injuries, though, and ran out of the house in the faster speed I could make my legs. I ran through the very dark cemetery. It scared me to hell. I could not hear him or feel him coming toward me. I was at the door of the cemetery when I heard the buzz which informed me that Bill was coming toward me. The next second, I was on the floor. As I tripped a lot on the graves, I was bleeding. He was drinking from me directly from my femoral artery, making me growl in pain and let escape a little scream. I was feeling my energy leave. The drink of life was running out of my body, making me feeling more cold and even colder. My energy was leaving in big waves and my eyes fluttered close at the feeling of life escaping my now rather cold body. I felt my life flying between the teeth of that strong vampire who took me, indirectly, my grandma, and my brother's relationship. It was a very weird feeling, to feel the life pass in front of your eyes, as you remember the best moments of your life, mostly since most of them were with the monster which now took me from them. Oh God! I hated him, and I thought this would be the last thing I would ever think, forever. Everything went black and thick. Suddenly, I heard a growl and I felt a weight pulled off of me, making me let escape the breath he was keeping me from taking. I heard Bill claim I was his, and someone tell him that I was no longer that, and tell him that he was to leave Area 5 forever. If he ever came back… ** black again ** I was a little bit more "there" than before, but still pretty out of it. My eyes fluttered open, and I saw the stunningly beautiful face of the six foot four inches tall Viking Sheriff of Area 5. I was on a couch too comfortable to be mine. I looked around me and recognized Bill's place, where there was, much to my satisfaction, a rather huge hole in the wall, showing the effect I had had on Bill's body.
- Sookie, you are awake! Thank God! How do you feel? He asked sounding very concerned.
- Better than ever, I could not help myself but answer.
-Good to know you are… ** I could not hear the rest, it was on mute in the pitch darkness **
I felt pain through all my body as I felt I was being shaken in an obvious attempt to wake me up. I groaned in protest, but the person had no intension on listening to my protests.
- Sook! Open your eyes! It is close to dawn and I will have to go soon. I want your permission to give you some of my blood, Eric insisted as I opened my mouth to protest again.
- Will I die without it?
- Most likely, yes.
- Do it, I answered opening my mouth.
I heard his fangs pop out and head the distinct sound of the fangs plunging through his hard-rock skin. Few milliseconds later, I tasted the best thing I ever drank, much to my surprise. I found myself gripping tight against his wrist, closer to my mouth, and drank willingly many gulps of that dark and thick liquid that tasted like Heaven, making me wonder if I were dead or alive. However, he might have been dead, it sure felt to me like he was putting the spirit of life back in my body. I could feel lust for his blood rush through my veins as well as some other kind of lust you experiment when you want to reassert the fact that you are alive, right after you went through a traumatic event that make you see an intense flashback of your life. He seemed to feel it too, as he groaned in a very sexy kind of way. I drank until the wound had healed, and felt energy flood through my veins again, much to my pleasure. He must have guessed I was not really easy with the place we were in, where, few Vampire-faster-than-Bill-speed steps, toward my home, where I invited him in. He laid us on the couch, laying his back against the backrest and laying me beside him, my back on his torso, which was more comfortable than I would have thought, and circled an arm around my waist. I felt myself drifting to sleep in that very cozy spoon position.
- Sookie, what happened tonight? He asked sounding all worried, making me fight the urge to turn and attack his lips ferociously.
- Well, I started with shame,I was weak and he was strong.
- Pretty much like a human and a vampire. But that is not what I mean. What happened? Why did he get so mad at you? He insisted softly.
- I was stupid, that is it.
- Do not devalue yourself that way. You are a very smart woman. What stupid move did you try to do?
- I tried to break up with him, I answered in a small voice, happy that he could not see my face as water ran on my cheeks at the memories of what almost happened.
- Ok, and can you explain to me how this was stupid?
- You do not understand! I said not letting him the time to answer that indeed, he did not, as I continued:I am responsible of my grandmother's death. My relationship with Bill made the murderer believe that I was a fang-banger bitch, which I definitely am not, and he decided that he would attack me; I continued feeling his body stiffen with me, and his grip tightening around my hips. However, the night he came in to kill me, I was not home, I was at Merlotte's, having a night shift. My grandmother must have seen him, or else, she was just a message to tell me that he hated me for what I did, and hated vampires and the ones who were dating one. I was dating Bill, and this killed my grandmother. Even more, it ruined my relationship with my brother who told me I was responsible for grandma's death. I could not face myself in the mirror; I could not stay in a relationship with Bill. Tonight, at Merlotte's, everyone thought that I was responsible for grandma's death. They thought I deserved to be sad forever, Eric. You cannot understand how much it hurt me. That fucking power is a weight most of the time, but tonight, it was worse than ever! I was now not hiding the sobbing and tears on my cheeks, and I felt his hands soothing me through my hair, and a hand petting my hip.I do not know what to do. I want to leave the human world for a while. Eric, do you hire me as a waitress at Fangtasia? I asked turning my watered face toward his.
- I do not know if it is a good idea. You have no idea how appealing your blood is. And it really does taste good! I am scared for you, sweetheart.
- Eric, I cannot stand working at Merlotte's! Hold on, you tasted it?
- I did because I had to lick your wounds closed in order to have your bond with Bill closed forever, I had to lick everywhere he licked you. Now, would you let me amend for letting a Vampire of my Area attacking you, Sookie? He asked soothingly, knowing that I was a very proud person.
- What do you mean? I asked not knowing and worried.
- I would like you to come pass your evenings with me at Fangtasia, and I would pay you for your presence.
- Pardon me? You would pay me for being with you at your bar? I answered obviously ready to object.
- Sweetheart, I know you do not agree, but it is not meant to hurt you. Your situation is my responsibility alone. I am partly responsible for your wanting to leave Merlotte's for a while; therefore, I would like to pay in order to have you with me, to be my date for the next many nights.
- Date? Huh, do not you think it is not really logical? I asked in a small voice, fighting against the loud voice in my head that told me to stop object and enjoy it.
- Baby, date is a word between any other. He said against my ear, making me control a shiver that would've ran through my whole body.
- Oh, well, I guess that if you put it that way, I should not find any more objections.
- Good. Now, explain to me how what you did was stupid…
- Okay, I get it, it wasn't stupid. But I knew that I was outside, and that he was stronger than me, and that the night was going to be hard, therefore, I should have waited to be inside, so I could rescind my invitation.
- Then, you are right, that was stupid. But it was a good thing to break up with him. I have a question…
- What is it?
- How did you get to burn him? He asked really surprised with what I had done, knowing that it was almost impossible for humans to take a vampire by surprise, mostly to hurt him physically as much as I did.
- Was he really that bad? I asked unable to give an answer his question as I did not know it.
- Yeah, really. He looked like he stood in the sun for a while, he said impressed and… proud?
- I am sorry if I hurt one of your vampires.
- I found it sad you did not kill him in self-defence. Now, tell me, what happened? How did you do it?
- I do not know… I answered truthfully.
- But tell me what happened…
- Huh… I don't know, I was breaking up with him, and suddenly, I was on the wall. I tried to get inside the house, and he threw me on the porch, where I hit my head. He almost killed me. He took me to his house and threw me on the floor. I did not want to hurt him, but he had my… that will be too much of information; I added sensing him stiffen around me, making me tensed too.
- Sookie, I got to know, he answered softly. I have to know what to accuse him of.
- Eric… I don't know… I do not know you much, but I know I can trust you; I am just a little bit scared to inform you that much. You are already angry.
- Sweetheart, I am not angry against you…
- I know, Eric. I just do not know whether imposing you so many details is a good thing.
- Baby, I am the one to judge, and I do judge it is important that you tell me.
- Well… let's say that if that light did not come out of my body and burn him, I would not be a virgin anymore, I said seeing his jaw clench really hard.
His hand circled my waist and he put a kiss on my cheek, making me suppress a moan and lay my head on his shoulder, trying to find the strength not to kiss him. He was now resting half under me, and I entangled my left leg with his legs and his arm was under me, circling my waist. I was now completely comfortable to daze off to sleep.
- Don't you have a non-sunny basement? He asked hopeful, feeling the sun was to rise soon.
- I do. Let's go inside of it.
Actually, it was more like a tornado shelter, but it was rather cozy, as we had to stay there for few days some years ago. There was another couch, way more comfortable. Besides, I always wondered why my grandmother did not change the two. There was no possibility for the sun to come through the shelter. I opened the couch, which changed in a bed. I did not even think of the weirdness that the proximity with Eric would bring. He laid on the bed and opened his arms. I nested close to him, in a hug. He turned to sleep half on the side, half on his back, and I was feeling myself falling asleep rather quickly. Suddenly, a phone rang. His cellphone.
- Hello Pam, what do you want? He asked sounding bored, putting her on the speaker and telling me to be quiet.
- Where the hell are you? You left in the middle of the evening yesterday night without telling me where you were heading and you did not come back. It is close to dawn and I was… well, I wanted to know where you were, she corrected herself, letting me understand that she was about to say worried, so I smiled softly.
- I am safe, Pam thank you for worrying for me.
- Eric Northman, you tell me now where you are and whom you are with!
- I am in Bon Temps, he answered sincerely, while she groaned, with Sookie, at her house. Yes, I know, I left for her, it was not a good idea, it is bad for the market, he added every time cutting her when we heard her open her mouth to protest.
- What was the emergency that time? She asked as if it was not the first time.Last time, it was to see if the dog disrespected her after her fight with Bill!
- Pamela! Stop it now!
- Oh, she hears? She said now laughing at her Maker.
- Hi Pam! I said to confirm what she just asked, making her laugh some more.
- Hello Sookie. This is getting annoying! When will you stop having him come to your place so often? People pay to see him stand in his throne.
- I am sorry, I was not even aware he was coming to my house so often! It is the first time I am aware he comes to Bon Temps.
- Ever since…
- Pamela, I shut the phone now, bye, see you after the day, he said executing what he had just told her he would do.Now, sweetheart, you should sleep, he added toward me.
- What about you?
- Me too, sweetheart, he said, bending to kiss me.
I accepted his lips with a happy eager. I could not believe I had that much lust for him. I think that the sun was to rise very soon, however, I did not mind. I was now straddling him and grinding against him. He was growling softly and I felt his fangs on my bottom lip as his tongue met mine with eager. He somehow found the strength to pull back me from him, and he looked at me with lustful eyes, smiling, and said:
- It is not the way your first time has to be. Not like that. Not because of my blood.
- What do you mean? I asked not understanding, feeling vertiginous.
- Oh, William never told you that?He asked, feeling uneasy.
- What was he supposed to tell me?
- Vampire blood gives a lot of lust to the human who drinks it, toward the vampire who gives it.
I did not smile anymore. That might mean that it was the whole reason why I had had some interest in Bill in the first situation. I pulled back from Eric, tears were running down my cheeks and I was sobbing heavily. He hugged me in an attempt to comfort me. I rested in his arms for a while, while I was sobbing. He sang to me the most beautiful song in a tongue that I did not recognize. Before I realized, I was waking up entangled with that beautiful man I did not really know well. I could not get up. He was out for the whole day. So I fell back asleep very soon, still nested in the cavity between his neck and shoulders. When we woke up, I kissed him and he kissed me.
- I am sorry for the way the evening finished, he told me ashamed.
- It is not your fault, it is Bill's, I said and realized his name still brought tears to my eyes.
- How do you feel, physically?
- I am not that bad, your blood improved my health a lot.
- I know, but I am sorry you had to feel that lust from me.
- Had? Who told you it was over? I asked, putting a hand on my mouth.
- Well, you sure are honest, he said smiling.
- How long will that be? How long will I feel like I want to jump on you and get naked under you every time I see you? I started and added angrily:what the hell is that? Is it also a side effect of your blood?
- I believe it is. Can you feel my feelings?
- I feel my anger as well as lust and some blood-lust… is that you?
- Unless you want some blood too, it must be me, yes. I feel the same than you.
- Ok and how long will that be?
- A certain while, that knowledge of emotions and where the person is will most likely be forever.
- And by forever, you mean… ?
- As long as we shall both live, he answered, confirming my fears.
From now on, he would know whenever I had any kind of lust for him. Or whoever else, for the matter. The sun had set, we could get out. I did not feel like getting up, my body was still painful, no matter how old my Viking was… the Viking was, sorry, my ex-boyfriend had hurt me a lot. He saved my life, and that was the most I could get out of his blood. I was sore, really, really sore from yesterday. I tried to sit, and I repressed a moan. Unfortunately, I could not repress it all, and the sweet Swedish Vampire heard me, taking me in his arms, across the yard after making sure nobody would see where we were coming from, telling me it would not be the last day we would sleep there together. I could not believe I never showed it to Bill, but I was grateful of that. He let me on my bed, went into the bathroom to run me a bath, and I could hear he put some bubbles in it. My senses were really higher than usual, even after I had had Bill's blood. I could feel the Viking's power inside of me, and I could feel him all over my bedroom and bathroom. He took my clothes off of me, with looking at me much, making me blush. I was sure he could both feel and smell my arousal, making me shy. He put me in the water and rinsed my hair, making me sigh in contentment. He washed them and rubbed my scalp with his magical fingers. Bill was not as good as that man was. That made me blush because I could not help myself to think in another matter. I considered myself lucky that I never got to that point with Bill. But I decided to control my brain over something else.
- I cannot believe I do not mind you bathing me that way! I should be ashamed, I said after I was all clean.Well, I guess you are just too good to be true.
- No, I really am true, sweetie. Well, sweetheart, are you ready to go to Fangtasia soon? He asked looking at me getting dressed.
- Sure thing! I will be ready within the minutes, but I have to go at Merlotte's so I will meet you there!
- No way I will leave you alone! Even though I told him he would die if he came back, Bill might try to come and get you… he is not allowed to come within one hundred meters of you, and if he does so, I have to know it because I will have to kill him, as I swore I would do.
- Eric, do not kill a man for me!
- He ain't no man, Sookie. He is a monster, and that alone.. I will have to find the true reason of your meeting the first time. I would think the Rathbone were assholes that he paid or put in his way to get your attention. Or that he knew you read thoughts and did not follow your advices anyway. I am sorry to tell you this. Let's go now… you look absolutely stunning! I love red on you, he said, looking at my red dress, his fangs down.
- Let us go, I said, flashing a radiant smile at him.
We drove to the bar I worked at. I got out of the car, and went inside the bar. When I came through the door, the silence installed itself and everybody gasped. "that bitch! Doesn't she know it is her fault if her grandmother died?" "I always knew she was a fang-banger!" "What the hell!" "How dare she present herself with these scars on her neck?"The thoughts of people were cruel. Tears came to my eyes. I could not believe I forgot about these fang marks. "I am sure she enjoyed all the bruises she has today!" Oh, did I really look that bad? I walked faster than ever toward my boss's office. I entered just after a little knock, and sat down. He looked at me with terror. He was really angry at me. He too thought I banged Bill.
- I am taking few days off. Can I please? I asked all of a sudden.
- No. What do you want to do? Go bang your fucking vampire?
- What do you think? I am not that kind of person, Sam Merlotte! Next time you think about that of me, I will give my demission. I never was banging Bill! I will not tolerate that.
- Why did you let him bite you, then, Sookie?
- I did not let him bite me, Sam! He… he kinda didn't ask for my permission.
- Did he… where is the bastard? He asked, obviously seeing red.
- Gone for a long time, hopefully, forever.
- Did he hurt you?
- Yes, have you seen my face? It is terrible, I heard it in people's thoughts. I am very well aware that I look like a crap. Do you mind me taking these days-off or not?
- Why? I would have liked you to be here with me tomorrow…
- Why tomorrow? I asked puzzled. Oh! It is your birthday! Of course I will be here, but I will take the evening off, I will work a day shift, please…
- Yes, no problem, but why?
- Because people are mad at me. They hate me for killing Gran. Don't they think I don't hate myself? I asked fighting against the urge to cry as soothing waves were coming to me from the guy who was waiting for me in the car.Ok, well, I will be here tomorrow, but I won't be there after for a while. I will call you, or call me whenever you need someone and I will try to be here when my wall will not be shaken by my psychological state.
- Sure… I will try to find you someone.
- Well, I might have that, said a cold but warm voice behind me, and I turned smiling toward the Sheriff who had a little red-head teenage girl who was undeniably a vampire with him.
- Who are you, and who is she?
- Sam, may I introduce you to Eric Northman, a very dear friend. Eric, this is Sam Merlotte, also a very good friend.
- It is a pleasure to meet you, Mr. Merlotte.
- My name is Sam, and I would love to tell you that the pleasure is shared, however, I am not sure. You sure look like a bloodsucker to me.
- I am not interested in animals. They do not smell good to me.
- Eric Northman, you watch your insults! That is not welcomed here, or toward my friends!
- No harm intended, Mr. Sam, he said with a dark look at me because he felt humiliated.I did not mean to be disrespectful; it is just that I do not need any advices from an animal. I will take a very special care of Sookie. She is really important to me.
- What? Her blood is really precious and is not to be spilled for someone else than you?
- Sam Merlotte! I yelled as Eric hissed. It is not like that! We like each other, I said without realising it, understanding the importance of what I said indirectly as I saw Sam's face.
- You like, as in Like him? Sam asked me with his hard eyes looking angrily at me.
- It is not what I said, Sam! I do like Eric, but as a friend! And maybe more than that, not that I would admit it out loud, I added in my mind.
- Sook, he started understanding by my silent hesitation that I more than liked the man as a friend, listen, you just walked in that bar with another vampire than Bill, with fangs scars on your neck. Everyone will believe that this Vamp kissed you and embraced your neck with his fangs. They will believe that you are a fang-banger, and that Bill hid it by biting elsewhere than where you are to be seen.
Before I realised what I was doing, my hand had landed on his cheek and I was saying:
- Now, Sam Merlotte, I will be working tomorrow, but that is only because the girl Eric offers you to work in my stead is a vampire and cannot work during the days. I will however not be working anymore for you after that because I am bored of you making me feel like I am so much for you, and then, feeling like I am some crap because I know how you truly feel about me and I cannot reciprocate the feeling! I know that for you, it is hard because you cannot have me, but for me too it is hard. You know what? That extremely greatfriend of mine, which is, indeed, a vampire, was there to save my life when my ex-boyfriend tried to drain me yesterday night. He took him away from me and fed me with his blood, yes, I drank his blood, because otherwise, I would have died. I was actually dying when he gave me this blood. I do not know if you ever felt how it is when you die. When your life pass in front of your eyes and you feel the energy leaving your body, but I did yesterday, because of that fang-boy I now hate. He was there when you were not. We are definitely not banging yet. And maybe we will someday, I do not know, but I know I feel very grateful, and a lot more than that toward him. Now, if you are not done judging me, well, I am done listening to you judging me. So do it behind my back if you want to, but if I ever, ever hear you talk or think about me like that, I swear to God our friendship will be more over than what it is presently.
- Sook, I am sorry! I did not mean what I said. Do not give your demission, please!
- Well, consider me in break for the next two months, and if you give me a little time, I might actually consider coming back. I started angrily. Eric, we're off. Jessica, this is Sam. You have seen he can be a real pain in the ass, but he is rather nice, usually.
- Thank you, Sookie, see you next time. Jessica said smilingly before bowing in front of Eric. Thank you, Mr. Northman, for what you did to me by finding me a job and a house where I could live, in a very beautiful town. I am sorry my maker disappointed you, she added with a very small voice, making me understand her maker was Bill.
- When were you turned? I asked her incuriously, as I had believed he was waiting for me to be ready before drinking any human, and that meant he had actually drained one.
- I was not supposed to say that, was I, Mr. Northman?
- It is okay, Jessica, answer the question Sookie asked you.
- I was turned two months ago.
- Hold on a second, you want me to hire a new Vampire in my bar? Will not she drink someone dry?
- Sir, with all due respect, if I am allowed True Blood, I will not drain anyone. I mean, I never touched a human before, in my vampire life, therefore, I do not feel the impulses to go toward them in order to feed. I do have a lot of bottles of True Blood, A positive, if possible, and I enjoy my evenings and nights much. I can do the clean up until late, and come as soon as the sun has set. I will not disappoint you, Mr. Merlotte, I swear to you I will be the best you ever had, mostly as a vampire, but I will also try to be among your best employees.
- Well, we will try you out, but if you ever drink someone, I want a good punishment and I want Sookie back with me to work here.
- Of course, that will be respected, Eric answered with his professional voice that made me control a shiver, making me realise that his blood was definitely stronger than Bill's.
- Ok, then, have fun and take a good care of you, Sookie. I hope when you come back, your shield will be rather up, and you will feel better emotionally.
- Thank you. See you in few months.
I walked away, and went in the car by the back-door. I was trying to fight the tears, but no matter how hard I tried, they soon were running down my cheeks. I ran in the car and sat my head in my hands, as I tried to sob silently. My new friend's hand rested on my shoulder and he sang that same song he sang to me last night. He was driving rather fast; therefore, I tried to wipe the tears away before arriving to Shreveport. Before we left the car, my cheeks were dried, but my eyes must have still been a little bit red. He put a kiss on my cheek and we went out. His hand wrapped around my waist, and I rested a little bit against him.