Impossible

Au ish. He knew that their love was impossible. He knew that there was no way that he was going to be able to have his love. He was in love with someone else..the person he loved. And he knew...that it was impossible. He was known for doing the impossible...but this was one thing he couldn't do. "I am no longer your captain, I have resigned." And he couldn't take it anymore...

Prologue:

Impossible

Kirk slammed his fist into the wall and looked down as the tears dripped from his eyes. A cry escaped his lips as the tears dripped onto the blood stained carpet. He felt the world start to break in his mind and he finally collapsed to his knees, putting his head in his hands as the tears fell. He couldn't take it anymore. He was so hurt, in so much pain...and he couldn't take it.

Spock blinked a few times as he stepped onto the Bridge, glancing over everyone. They were all silent, but staring at the same thing. Carefully he walked over and saw exactly what they were looking at. On the Captain's chair lay a note that was addressed to him. The note was stained with blood as well as water, but it was still written with elegance. It certainly had not been rushed on any level.

Carefully he picked up the note and began to look it over calmly, not letting any sign of emotion flicker onto his face. But that didn't last for much longer before they all saw his eyes widen in what seemed like shock. He clutched the note before dropping it and running out. He didn't seem upset, but clearly he was not pleased either.

Uhura carefully picked the note up and began to read it softly to them all, figuring that they might as well see what was happening.

"I have decided...that I am going to leave the USS Enterprise. In fact, I'm going to leave Star Fleet all together. And I am leaving the crew in your hands, Mr. Spock. They are now fully yours, and you are now Captain of this ship...I...I want to tell you something but I realize that it is not my place to. Thus all I am doing is leaving you this note. By the time you find this, I will be gone...so there is no use in coming after me. I hope...you and the crew will be alright. Tell everyone I am sorry...but none of them are going to convince me to come back. Tell Bones to not worry, and that I'll be alright without him nagging me about shots every five seconds...and that I appreciate him being my friend. I appreciate you being my friend as well Spock...but this is where I leave all of you. Goodbye...

-James T. Kirk."

Several people looked down and Uhura closed her eyes, understanding now why her boyfriend ran out of the room so quickly. Despite it all...he was going to try and find Kirk before he got to far...but she knew he wasn't going to find him. She knew that Kirk was probably far away by now, and not anywhere near where they were. He was gone...

He pushed the hat down, covering his face as he walked down the streets, keeping his bag close. Only a few people took the time to look at him, the others really seemed to care less. He was glad of that, because no one cared enough to question him. He bit his lip as he moved quickly then, hearing something behind him.

He hadn't wanted to come back here. But he knew it was the only place that none of them would look for him. The only place he would be safe. Yes, he had to be safe here. It was the only place he had. But...while he was safe from his ex-crew...he was in danger on a whole different level here. Back in the place that he learned to fight...but that was because of everything that had happened to him here.

On a level that he never wanted to re-visit, for the rest of his life. But, he was in that area, in that place...in which it could...he just hoped it wouldn't.

There was blood all over the ground, stained into the carpet where the body was laying. He took a step back in pure horror as he was hit across the face with something, feeling the blood drip down his face. He stopped moving then, but he was shaking as he realized that they just killed someone. They just killed someone...and he was bound to be the next person to die if he did something wrong.

Those memories haunted him...and he didn't want to re-live them.

Spock closed his eyes as he sat down calmly. He showed no emotion on the outside, but on the inside he was questioning what had gone wrong. What had caused Kirk to leave the ship and not even tell anyone. But he was also questioning one of the lines in the note. The fact that Kirk wanted to tell him something but he said that it wasn't his place to...that was what was truly bugging him. He was going through everything, every logical thing that Kirk could have wanted to tell him...but in the end none of it added up. No matter what he thought of, no matter how many things he though through...none of it added up. He couldn't think of why that would add onto why he would leave.

None of it made sense, and it was driving him up a wall. The fact that he could not figure this out was the problem.

He just wanted to figure out why Kirk left...why he left him in charge all of the sudden.

But he couldn't...

"Our love is impossible...and I know I don't deserve you. I know that you deserve something much better than me. I'm worthless, and you are amazing...you have a woman that loves you...and I promise I won't get in the way of that...so that is why I say goodbye."