This is my first fanfic on this page, but still not the first ever. I really hope people like it and judge in a fair way. Sorry if there are some spelling mistakes.

Series: Vampire Knight

Pairing: Yuuki x (Kaname) Zero

I DO NOT own Vamire Knight. If I did, then I would made a more happy ending for Zero (even though I don't believe it's the end yet) All rights go to the wondeful and talented Matsuri Hino!

So, ENJOY!

~ Silent Words ~

The ice was melting so slowly. The heart was starting to beat once again. It was cold, freezing, and yet a very familiar feeling. I could feel my pulse. I felt it beat like never before. So strong. It felt like my heart was being ripped out. My white silk dress didn't give away much warmth, but the blood was getting warmer and warmer for every second that passed. I felt small shivers run down my back. The sight was hazy, but I could still somehow manage out his outlines. The words were disturbed. I didn't understand them. They were so far away and yet so close. It confused me.

After some time the words started to get understandable. They started to build sentences. Their meaning was still unclear to me, until I felt the fright behind them. They were shouting at me. Why me? They were voices I knew. Friends I had. People who cared about me. People I once knew. They were blaming me for throwing everything away. It wasn't anger I felt, it was rather disappointment. They were disappointed over me; over my decision. I wanted to say I was sorry, but was I? Was this new life what I really wanted? I started to question myself over something that was supposed to be so simple. Love was supposed to be simple, and yet it wasn't.

"I love you", were the words I longed so long to hear. I was dreaming of him saying those words for so many years, but never expected it feel like…like nothing. I felt nothing when I heard them. My love for Kaname, my brother, was always so strong, and still is. I cared about him more when I remembered he was my brother. Remembered, I guess that's the right word to use. I never really forgot the real bond between us; it was just hidden away from me, from the outside world. It was my destiny. Everything from my birth was already planned for me. So I guess the love I feel for Kaname is fake too, or?

I lied and hurt so many people. Especially him. The one who took care of me all the times I needed him. I used him and yet I lied. "I will go on and on running away from Zero," the famous quote that got stuck in my mind for so long. I was only fooling myself. I hurt him so long, said so many bad things and pushed him away so many times. I gave him my blood in hope of making up for my mistakes, but he never really wanted the blood; he wanted me. Me, to finally be his. Now I understand why he was so overprotective over me, every time Kaname was close. He didn't want Kaname to take the only thing he cared about, me, away from Zero. He had lost everyone and didn't want to lose me too. At first I didn't understand, but now I do. I was already lost. Lost in the circle of love and life.

I wanted to tell him the truth, but I was scared. I wanted to show him the true love I felt, but it is too late now. I was his enemy now, he said it himself. I had so many words to say, so many things to apologize for. The more I think about Zero and the things I should have said to him, the more I feel the affection growing. I formed my own destiny from the first time we met, and now I threw it away. I threw it away for Kaname. I thought he was the one I loved, but I'm getting unsure.

The moments me and Zero had together; I can remember them like it was yesterday. He only smiled when it was only us two. He only showed his true self when he was with me. So many times I've dreamed of becoming a vampire just to be able to be with Kaname, but now that I am, I regret. Regret, the word makes my heart ache so much. It causes me to feel agony in my throat. I have fooled everyone, even myself. The most precious treasure I was searching, longing for, was always by my side. Always watching me carefully, watching my step, so I didn't fall. And even if I did fall, he was there to catch me and pick me back up again. Zero was my wall, the wall that I climbed and that I crushed when I reached my top. I was always a cheerful child, never understanding what my heart was really telling me. Zero put up with it all; with my laugher, my pain and my tears. When I cried, he was there to comfort me, to hold me and watch over me. I used him without knowing.

I was aiming for something I could never have; Kaname's love. I was so selfish that I even got it in the end. What I really wanted, I threw it away; Zero's love. The one kiss we shared was better than what I've always dreamed of. When he finally gathered the guts to show me how he felt, it was the end. It went so fast that I never actually understood that we'd become strangers. It was the end of us, our friendship. I was finally starting to understand what I wanted. What we both felt and wanted. I wanted Zero, and he wanted me. He always wanted me. I just never saw it, until it was too late. Late, everything seems too late now. Is there every going to be us again? Will I ever have the chance to say what I've always wanted to say to Zero? If not, then I hope these silent words will sometimes reach him…I love you Zero…